Venting im scared

[L.D.50]

I want to OD tonight, I have a bottle of hydroxyzine, cymbalta, viibryd, trintellix, plus 3 bottles of wellbutrin and seroquel. maybe use the rest of my insulin as well. i am aware this is a non-method but I can't wait any longer. I wanted a better way out than this but im desperate now.
but at the same time im terrified of surviving, because I know if I survive my body will be fucked up in some way. thats the last thing I want is to survive.
I'll probably pussy out but god I want nothing more than to not wake up tomorrow. please don't let me wake up tomorrow. please. please don't let me wake up

 

[mustard tiger]

that is going to be rough but its your decision

 

[desiderium]

If you've made your mind up, I wish you a peaceful and successful night of eternal rest.

Your chosen method will be rough, and your fear is very valid. You may want to wait until you find a more lethal method, but I will respect your choice if you're sure this is the way you'd like to take. Desperation can result in impulsive attempts, so please make sure this isn't a spur-of-the-moment attempt that you may regret.

My dms are always open if you need to talk, or rant, or ramble. I will always happily listen, even if you decide to go through with it tonight.

Stay as safe as you can, even on your way out. Everyone deserves peace, and I hope you find it.

 

[sadbh—itstimetogo🤎]

So you simultaneously don't want to get organ damage, and also know that this probably won't kill you.

If the odds are like 5% death (which is generous imo) and 95% survival with injuries… why?

If you want to take a bottle of pills and not hurt yourself, hydroxyzine OD doesn't have any long term effects as far as I'm aware. You'll wake up super calm but then not have any more of that med.

If you are ODing, and I like your username, did you look up the LD50 for those meds? If you want to tell me exactly how much of your meds you have, I can look into it for you.

It also won't hurt to pack a psych ward bag in case you wake up in the hospital.

 

[L.D.50]

So you simultaneously don't want to get organ damage, and also know that this probably won't kill you.

If the odds are like 5% death (which is generous imo) and 95% survival with injuries… why?

If you want to take a bottle of pills and not hurt yourself, hydroxyzine OD doesn't have any long term effects as far as I'm aware. You'll wake up super calm but then not have any more of that med.

If you are ODing, and I like your username, did you look up the LD50 for those meds?

It also won't hurt to pack a psych ward bag in case you wake up in the hospital.

im obviously desperate for a way out, you don't need to be a smart ass about it. literally why else would I be considering this?
also, why would I just take one bottle so I could OD but not actually hurt myself... whats the point of that?

 

[sadbh—itstimetogo🤎]

im obviously desperate for a way out, you don't need to be a smart ass about it. literally why else would I be considering this?
also, why would I just take one bottle so I could OD but not actually hurt myself... whats the point of that?

Hm, I guess you won't believe me, but I genuinely didn't intend to offend you. You do come across as desperate, so in case you weren't thinking clearly, I just wanted to point out some of the contradictions here even though you know OD isn't really a good method because waking up with permanent liver injuries or something would really suck. I'm sorry my tone didn't land well, I didn't mean to offend

If the one bottle of hydroxyzine suggestion wasn't helpful, feel free to ignore it. Some people would benefit temporarily from being able to conk out and do something drastic (but not particularly dangerous) like swallow a bottle of pills.

Again, sorry to offend. I'm sorry I couldn't be more helpful and I wish you peace.

 

[L.D.50]

Hm, I guess you won't believe me, but I genuinely didn't intend to offend you. You do come across as desperate, so in case you weren't thinking clearly, I just wanted to point out some of the contradictions here even though you know OD isn't really a good method because waking up with permanent liver injuries or something would really suck. I'm sorry my tone didn't land well, I didn't mean to offend

If the one bottle of hydroxyzine suggestion wasn't helpful, feel free to ignore it. Some people would benefit temporarily from being able to conk out and do something drastic (but not particularly dangerous) like swallow a bottle of pills.

Again, sorry to offend. I'm sorry I couldn't be more helpful and I wish you peace.

well shit, im sorry, i feel bad. im just having a rough night. I probably will take a couple more tonight to calm down. sorry for being a bit of a dick, you did mean well.

 

[sadbh—itstimetogo🤎]

well shit, im sorry, i feel bad. im just having a rough night. I probably will take a couple more tonight to calm down. sorry for being a bit of a dick, you did mean well.

I offend everyone around here so you're not the only person who doesn't like my tone! I changed my flair to see if that helps. Have a good night.