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wildflowers1996

wildflowers1996

Mage
Oct 14, 2023
563
I'm so scared. I have this idea that God hates me and is going to punish me and that I'm a terrible person and I have no idea if it's true or not.
 
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divinemistress87

divinemistress87

Angelic
Jan 1, 2024
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If there is a God and as people say is all loving you wouldnt be punished. Our brains are punishing us
 
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Hystearical

Hystearical

In tears
Jul 23, 2022
4,945
Being blunt this round: It's not true. There is no celestial dictator, at least not one that gives a damn. There was no shortage of moments in human history where divine intervention would have been warranted and nothing came to pass.
 
QueerMelancholy

QueerMelancholy

Mage
Jul 29, 2023
531
There are over 8 billion people on this planet. I wonder how many God hates.
 
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hammerhamster

hammerhamster

Member
Feb 19, 2024
23
there isn't anyway to know, there's no proof of a god, just human imagination.
 
nightlygem

nightlygem

La Joya
Sep 27, 2023
184
It honestly scares me how many people are inconsiderate of those with belief in a higher power. OP might just be looking for comfort or someone who can relate to their issue, and a plethora of users only input is that "there is no god" Anyway, I digress.
I cannot add much input, as I'm not sure what god you consider god. I wouldn't want to offend you, nor offend myself. Regardless, I'm always open for discussion if needed.
 
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Raindancer

Raindancer

Specialist
Nov 4, 2023
367
God does not hate you, He loves you which is why He gave us a way to reconcile with Him. What might really help is getting to know God, so you can actually know what you need to. Do your own research and search Him out. It may help you come to a resolution on what you believe.
 
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Defenestration

Defenestration

I want to have the courage to kill myself
Oct 25, 2020
2,186
J'ai si peur. J'ai cette idée que Dieu me déteste et va me punir et que je suis une personne terrible et je ne sais pas si c'est vrai ou non.
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AdamOndiAhman

AdamOndiAhman

dreaming on kolob
Feb 8, 2024
78
i believe i have a true self, that this body i currently am conscious in is just an avatar for said true self to experience a conscious experience. why? i think that it was to test itself whether or not it would stay true to its foundationalised humanity or give in to the temptations and perversions of the world. i, its avatar, gave in to the temptations and let them consume me. when presented with my own humanity (sermon on the mount), i rejected it in favour of being a dick, jerk and a fucking dummy. i am salt thats lost its savour. it didnt have to be this way tho. i could've accepted my humanity last last yr, especially when my circumstance wouldve supported me and helped me. so to get to the point, my true self (my god) most likely does hate me, and it most likely does want to humiliate me and punish me. tho it doesnt need to do anything as the causes and effects of my actions for the past 2 yrs are enough of a humiliation ritual.
i have only myself to blame for my circumstance. but oh well. im ctbing soon and am going to commit the second death as soon as. you win some, you lose some. i lost the game of mortal life. i cant say that i wasn't given a fair opportunity to not lose it. i cant say i wasnt given opportunity after opportunity, chance after chance to change my ways and avert my current circumstance. but i was just so blinded by my arrogance and pride and stupidity.
and for judgement day, i guess for me imo, all it would be is having a perfect remembrance of my rebellion against my humanity, or having a perfect recollection of this incarnate exactly how it played out, and the punishment is a guilty prickly conscience knowing that i failed to live up to my own humanity and got so easily sidetracked by the lusts and perversions of this world. but all that guilt and shame evaporates with the second death.
sorry for ruining ur thread with my schizo rant.
 
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