I’m scared of failing and living with consequences.

[NumbForLife]

I don't want to end up failing with CO and becoming more disabled than I already am my whole life. That would be my worst nightmare.

 

[Disabledfromjump7]

I am sorry and I totally understand.

 

[NumbForLife]

I am sorry and I totally understand.

I got the best CO meter I could find in terms of accuracy. Some people say if you hit 10K PPM the method should have a high chance of working. I don't know what percentage of people fail even at such a high concentration though and that worries me.

 

[FuneralCry]

I really understand, I fear the same, it's just so horrifying to me how trying to cease existing can go wrong and lead to way worse torture in this existence where there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel, I see so much terrible cruelty in how people have to fear such in the first place, all I want is the option to cease existing peacefully that is guaranteed with no more pain and no more suffering, I hope you find peace.

 

[itsgone2]

It's a brutal trap because we're also scared of having to live.

 

[NumbForLife]

It's a brutal trap because we're also scared of having to live.

I may attempt anyways. I might just try to have a rule where if I can't reach the right CO concentration I'll try again the next day.