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I must precise something : I don't have a date in mind. I made this thread in the case I'll do it impulsively without having the time / opportunity to say goodbye properly. I'm sorry if I got misunderstood. But I'm so sad. For my family, for people who love me, for my cat (I even have a problem to say to my cat "I'm gonna kill myself, please forgive me". When I see her eyes, I feel so guilty to abandon her.Oui dans tous les cas j'avais l'intention d'attendre, pour ne pas infliger des obsèques et un deuil dans la pire canicule de l'histoire. Je peux encore souffrir. Du courage il m'en reste encore un peu. Mais ma vie est foutue par toutes mes pathologies mentales et physiques. C'est pas comme un mec de 20 ans qui aurait encore de l'espoir. J'en aurai bientôt 44 et c'est fini. Pas par manque de volonté mais par réalisme sur la situation. Mon plan CTB est prêt depuis un moment. J'espère juste que les canicules successives n'ont pas bousillé mon SN...
Same here regarding the SN. I'm glad to know it's not happening right away. Same here—I'm 39, and the best years are behind me. For the fast, 8–10 hours is enough... not necessarily 12 hours, like you said.Many thanks for all your kind messages
And I'll miss you too, SaSu members. For the moment I'm still surviving (I'm an expert in surviving, but that's not a life). I know there is no acceptable future for me but only daily pain that bacame torture with years. I'm so tired to think "maybe God will do a miracle..." In fact, nothing will happen. I used to believe in God, I prayed, went to church sometimes, light candles, but only hellish things happened and I'll die as an atheist. I'm crying while typing these lines.
When this terrible heatwave is over, I'll write to Athanasios and discuss with their doctors. I know I'm eligible but I want to do it to show to my family how much I suffered all this miserable existence. Then I can take my SN if my sick brain is able to beat my very strong SI.
Oui dans tous les cas j'avais l'intention d'attendre, pour ne pas infliger des obsèques et un deuil dans la pire canicule de l'histoire. Je peux encore souffrir. Du courage il m'en reste encore un peu. Mais ma vie est foutue par toutes mes pathologies mentales et physiques. C'est pas comme un mec de 20 ans qui aurait encore de l'espoir. J'en aurai bientôt 44 et c'est fini. Pas par manque de volonté mais par réalisme sur la situation. Mon plan CTB est prêt depuis un moment. J'espère juste que les canicules successives n'ont pas bousillé mon SN...
