I'm not weak. I'm traumatized. But even that's a hard reality to face

[Water-Lily]

Despite all of the issues I have with my family, the choice to live on my own (campus) is a decision I have struggled to make

Even though I have changed my room (Away form the toxic roomate) to start over in a new space and break away from the familiarity of trauma as I've known it, is hard work

I'm still trying, but today was especially hard

I had a huge melt down, left multiple friend groups, ate junk food, and left one of my classes early

I feel like I'm drowning

Only I can save myself

but how can I save myself when its so hard? And when letting in people is hard when I'm too scared to say my boundaries and communicate?

I trap myself...

 

[Legacy Install]

I identify with what you said. Being a sort of prison to your own self. Frustrating kind of situation.

My sincere hope that you get some serendipity and peace soon.

 

[F@#$]

Bad days suck. But as an old fart.I think leaving early and eating junk food were probably a good decision. Fuck the world for an afternoon or whatever.

 

[Water-Lily]

Bad days suck. But as an old fart.I think leaving early and eating junk food were probably a good decision. Fuck the world for an afternoon or whatever.

right? sometimes you just want to give the biggest fattest middle finger to the universe