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anyoneshorizon

Member
Jun 8, 2022
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It is very liberating to have the option paired with little to no responsibilities. My future is sorta bright and with some effort im sure, i can be successful like many people. But suicide is something that is always on my mind the effect varies on my situation and mood. When i'm at home chilling its there but not super strong. When i feel bad or uncomfortable it is very strong. Soon my SN will arrive soon when the urge is strong I'll just fucking kill myself and just do whatever. I feel that i'll always wanna killmyself even if life is going good and i feel that it will be the way i go out. Just a matter of time. I don't even know how i feel it's just always there that feeling of wanting to killyself
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
43,602
I understand why you would be relieved at having the option to leave. I personally see ctb as being the best way to die as after all we will all die eventually so it's preferable to exit at a time of my own choosing rather than it being at a time out of my control.
I wish you the best.
 
makethepainstop

makethepainstop

Visionary
Sep 16, 2022
2,029
Love and peace to you, may you find your way.
 
Hollowillow

Hollowillow

The only place that allows negative feelings.
Aug 7, 2022
1,515
It is very liberating to have the option paired with little to no responsibilities. My future is sorta bright and with some effort im sure, i can be successful like many people. But suicide is something that is always on my mind the effect varies on my situation and mood. When i'm at home chilling its there but not super strong. When i feel bad or uncomfortable it is very strong. Soon my SN will arrive soon when the urge is strong I'll just fucking kill myself and just do whatever. I feel that i'll always wanna killmyself even if life is going good and i feel that it will be the way i go out. Just a matter of time. I don't even know how i feel it's just always there that feeling of wanting to killyself
"I'd rather die" is a common expression?

I also plan to go on impulse...
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
12,246
Sometimes when I still want to do it when I'm ok-ish- it reassures me- like it's not an impulsive thing- not that impulses are bad either. I just feel like it's always portrayed like that whereas I think it can be a rational decision. Think I'd rather have an attempt in a calm state of mind regardless. Just in case hell is something our mind conjures up just before the end. Think I've got more chance of dodging that if I'm as calm as possible (if that is possible- expect I'll be bricking it).
 
theboy

theboy

Illuminated
Jul 15, 2022
3,252
I understand you
For me, suicide will always be an option.
 

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