I'm not scared to die anymore

[Lost Magic]

I was never sure about dying and how I would feel, but with all these benefit cuts and this absurd world is making it easier for me to just pull the rug from under me and call it a day.

I've been through a lot worse in my life than dying. Suicide is just another task at hand and that's how I will approach it. It's just another daily task that will be dealt with and be accomplished just like going to get a tooth extraction or going out for dinner. It's just another task to prepare for and check off the list.

And as for what's next, I don't have much control over that so I try not to care. Come what may and the almighty will take care of the rest. Thanks for listening.

 

[manythanks]

just stand on stool, put your head in the noose, put hat and bag on your head to cover it, somehow kick the stool away, that's it, that is what is left to do for me today

 

[needinghelp]

I was never sure about dying and how I would feel, but with all these benefit cuts and this absurd world is making it easier for me to just pull the rug from under me and call it a day.

I've been through a lot worse in my life than dying. Suicide is just another task at hand and that's how I will approach it. It's just another daily task that will be dealt with and be accomplished just like going to get a tooth extraction or going out for dinner. It's just another task to prepare for and check off the list.

And as for what's next, I don't have much control over that so I try not to care. Come what may and the almighty will take care of the rest. Thanks for listening.

You've described the way i view it too. I have been repeating the steps to my hanging to get myself used to the movements and actions of tieing the noose and attaching it and suspending myself.

 

[LittleBlackCat]

I hope I get to this point. I'm still really scared about CTB. At some point I have to do it.

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand as I see death as something completely normal, it's all that's inevitable after all and eventually all will be gone anyway, to me existing really is just waiting for death and I'd personally always prefer to not exist no matter what than suffer in this cruel existence. But anyway I wish you the best.

 

[gothbird]

There's a point where life stops feeling like life and just becomes a checklist of things you're forced to survive. Benefits slashed, prices up, systems designed to grind you down until you can't even afford to exist, let alone thrive. People who haven't lived that will never understand how boring the idea of death becomes after a while. Not tragic. Not dramatic. Just…inevitable.

And yeah—suicide becomes a task. Not some big finale, just one more thing to plan, prep, and tick off before the next bill shows up. When your quality of life is stripped down to survival mode, death doesn't feel like an end. It feels like a form of agency. The "what's next" part? That's up for debate. Some people believe in something, others don't. But I respect your approach—clear eyed, nontheatrical, not trying to control what can't be controlled. Just handling what's in front of you.

 

[2messdup]

I was never sure about dying and how I would feel, but with all these benefit cuts and this absurd world is making it easier for me to just pull the rug from under me and call it a day.

I've been through a lot worse in my life than dying. Suicide is just another task at hand and that's how I will approach it. It's just another daily task that will be dealt with and be accomplished just like going to get a tooth extraction or going out for dinner. It's just another task to prepare for and check off the list.

And as for what's next, I don't have much control over that so I try not to care. Come what may and the almighty will take care of the rest. Thanks for listening.

Totally get all that. I've been working through my preparations pragmatically. Mainly to make sure my ex has the money to keep looking after our dog. I feel like suddenly the needy Child part of me has gone and a resigned adult has taken over. The benefits thing and the rhetoric from politicians and the public has been so disgusting I have no words.