I'm not gonna CTB anymore

[Lostforgood]

Never did I think I would be here saying this. Because oh my god, the year that I had, I spent in near-constant suicidality. But my family was able to get the right help for my specific problem, and the solution worked. Now the suicidal thoughts are gone. I was so close to death many nights. I still can't believe I survived. I didn't think my journey on this site would end like this. I thought I was gonna take the SN and do it. But now, I'm not going to. Feels like I dodged a bullet or something.

 

[jdogg60]

Thats amazing. Curious what kind of help if your open to sharing?

 

[PeaceSeeker83]

I think the main thing is you know of a more peaceful and reliable method. It gives you options for the future but I hope you can get a bit of joy in this realm for now.

 

[Lostforgood]

Thats amazing. Curious what kind of help if your open to sharing?

It's gonna sound strange but spiritual help.

I think the main thing is you know of a more peaceful and reliable method. It gives you options for the future but I hope you can get a bit of joy in this realm for now.

Right. I really do hope, however, that I never am driven to the point of wanting to end my life that badly ever again

 

[unluckysadness]

"Spiritual help", you mean like a miracle ? You're so lucky to feel better. I used to believe in all these things but I don't anymore. The more I prayed, the more I was depressed and now I really feel it's the end because I lost my interest in the last few things I've enjoyed.

 

[bl33ding_heart]

I'm so proud of you. I hope your life continues to improve and you have a future filled with peace and happiness.

 

[Lostforgood]

"Spiritual help", you mean like a miracle ? You're so lucky to feel better. I used to believe in all these things but I don't anymore. The more I prayed, the more I was depressed and now I really feel it's the end because I lost my interest in the last few things I've enjoyed.

Not exactly like a miracle. More, medicine.

 

[Aflame5926]

it aint stupid if its works.

congratz

 

[Lostforgood]

it aint stupid if its works.

congratz

Thanks mate <3

I'm so proud of you. I hope your life continues to improve and you have a future filled with peace and happiness.

Thank you so much. This means a lot <3

 

[endlesschatter]

Thanks mate

Thank you so much. This means a lot <3

So happy for you my friend

 

[hardcoretechno]

im so so happy for you and proud of you <3 you deserve happiness and a bright future.

 

[telekon]

astrology related? chinese spiritual medicine? what kind of spiritual help we talkin??

i am so happy for you and think this is a great solution no matter what kind