I’m not dead

[burninghill]

The closer I got to my date, the more it felt like the wrong time. I was going to kill myself 2 days ago and I'm still alive.

I'm still suicidal, very much. My teeth are rotting and my body is giving up both physically and mentally. I just keep getting this nagging voice in my brain that's telling me to go for as long as I can, and I think that's fair.

I went on a date with a guy on Friday and it went well, so I guess I'll persue that for a while until I can't anymore. I made a post a few days ago about how it felt pointless and that love can't save you, but maybe giving it time will help. Not 'save me', but give me a support system. I need one of those.

I'll keep going until my teeth fall out and my body falls apart

 

[bl33ding_heart]

If you don't decide to ctb I really hope you can find peace and happiness.

 

[ilovenewyork]

Should brush them

 

[endboss]

I have one rotting tooth and it's giving me nightmares.

 

[groovygoober]

Dental issues are such a pain in the butt one root canal scared me straight though, hope you gain the strength to focus on your mental and physical well being .

 

[burninghill]

Should brush them

I brush them frequently and spend a lot of money on the best products for oral health.

I was born with a severe dental deformity, sick as a child which stunted my enamel development, I grind them down in my sleep due to an anxiety disorder and I had an accident that knocked out my front teeth. All these things make me prone to tooth decay. I've also had my teeth broken by numerous orthodontists and dentists which has set me back, please think before you comment.

Dental issues are such a pain in the butt one root canal scared me straight though, hope you gain the strength to focus on your mental and physical well being .

Thank you, I'm trying my best. I just replied to a comment that somewhat details the problems I've had, but also being depressed in general doesn't make hygiene an easy task to keep up with. Thank you for being empathetic

 

[PanaxMan]

The closer I got to my date, the more it felt like the wrong time. I was going to kill myself 2 days ago and I'm still alive.

I'm still suicidal, very much. My teeth are rotting and my body is giving up both physically and mentally. I just keep getting this nagging voice in my brain that's telling me to go for as long as I can, and I think that's fair.

I went on a date with a guy on Friday and it went well, so I guess I'll persue that for a while until I can't anymore. I made a post a few days ago about how it felt pointless and that love can't save you, but maybe giving it time will help. Not 'save me', but give me a support system. I need one of those.

I'll keep going until my teeth fall out and my body falls apart

I'm waiting until my organs destroy themselves

 

[CatLvr]

Yep. My body is betraying me more and more every day -- not from anything I was born (well except that narrowing of my spine thing) with but injuries from years of doing shit I probably shouldn't have. Toss in a couple of pretty severe accidents here and there and ... Well ... Here I am ...

Be gentle with yourself -- none of us really know what we are doing here and, like you, are just playing it by ear. I'm glad your date made you feel good. Enjoy what you can -- there is no reason to rush. You will know when the time is right for you to move on. And until then you deserve all the happiness you can find.