I’m not dead

[burninghill]

The closer I got to my date, the more it felt like the wrong time. I was going to kill myself 2 days ago and I'm still alive.

I'm still suicidal, very much. My teeth are rotting and my body is giving up both physically and mentally. I just keep getting this nagging voice in my brain that's telling me to go for as long as I can, and I think that's fair.

I went on a date with a guy on Friday and it went well, so I guess I'll persue that for a while until I can't anymore. I made a post a few days ago about how it felt pointless and that love can't save you, but maybe giving it time will help. Not 'save me', but give me a support system. I need one of those.

I'll keep going until my teeth fall out and my body falls apart

 

[bl33ding_heart]

If you don't decide to ctb I really hope you can find peace and happiness.