i don't think i'll ever know what is feels like to be in love and i'mtoo unlovable to experience being loved. all i know how to feel is obsession because of my bpd. i hate myself i drive everyone away and make myself look crazy to every single person that i come across. i hate being like this. i hate being so unlovable and constantly getting overwhelmed by my emotions. idk how to act like a normal person. i'm just a terrible person. i wish i could be murdered instead of having to kill myself i deserve it
