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Venting Im jealous

degreesoflewdity

degreesoflewdity

i’m filled with hatred and need to die.
Jun 24, 2023
163
Im jealous that all my friends have someone else. my two friends have other friends too and im jealous. im jealous because they forgot me. i want someone to want to talk to me too you know? i want someone to be just like me and to understand me but why is it so hard. i honestly dont know what im saying anymore
 
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MaggotMuncher202

MaggotMuncher202

Enduring it unwillingly.
Jul 25, 2026
6
This is exactly why I sought out actual suicide methods and found this site. All of my friends have left with their other friends, and even when I thought I was trying hard and semi-succeeding to be likable everyone still left me. Even though I never feel secure in my relationships with anyone, I still tried to feel stable. It just never happened. Everyone just kinda left.

I just feel so jealous that everyone in my life has someone to turn to and people that reach out to them. I'd love to have someone like me to just feel connected to. I feel bad that it pisses me off to see nice caring families and happy relationships. But it just feels all so foreign and unreal when I'm seeing it happen to other people, but never experiencing anyone actually caring about me like that. I feel shitty and jealous and awful about it all
 
Dolphin(Ash)

Dolphin(Ash)

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Jul 14, 2026
12
degreesoflewdity said:
Im jealous that all my friends have someone else. my two friends have other friends too and im jealous. im jealous because they forgot me. i want someone to want to talk to me too you know? i want someone to be just like me and to understand me but why is it so hard. i honestly dont know what im saying anymore
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My condolences first of all đź«‚, jealousy is a shitty feeling and so is being abandoned, it's that feeling of something is right in front of you but just out of sight.

Or even so far you could never reach it. And for someone to talk too, I am hopeful for you too find someone, most people can find one person they truly, TRULY, connect with, they understand, they don't need to explain but just click and you deserve to have that.

I'm sorry it's been so hard on you, I hope it gets better, I hope you find your person <3
 
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