I'm in the Canary Islands and I want to die

[Lauriso]

This depression is so overwhelming and relentless. I've tried e everything I could think of to help myself. The old me would have loved being here. I just barely make it through the day. I can't go on living like this, it's a nightmare.

 

[Willto]

This depression is so overwhelming and relentless. I've tried e everything I could think of to help myself. The old me would have loved being here. I just barely make it through the day. I can't go on living like this, it's a nightmare.

You are not alone. Wherever I go I have the same feeling.

 

[GreenTree]

I'm in the same boat. Its painful living. Are you on holiday.

 

[wljourney]

Sigh.
I feel with you.
I've been in a similar situation a few years back.
Went to Mexico with a friend on a dream vacation. 2 weeks. Beautiful sunshine, beaches, great food, great company.
But all I could think of was how much I wanted to CTB.

That's what depression (and many other illnesses) do. They prevent you from enjoying even the most wonderful things. Many people don't understand how debilitating and depressing the illness itself is.
I get hives when someone suggests to "do something nice for yourself".
I just look at them and want to go off on a rant that "there is no such thing as "something nice" when you are unable to literally enjoy ANYTHING". No use. They won't get it.
Sigh.

Sending you hugs.
I am so sorry you are in so much pain.

 

[LittleJem]

I had hte same thing on holiday in Naples. I loved Naples but the suicidal thoughts came on holiday with me. It was so horrible, I guess I thought I could escape them, but your mind travels with you.

Sorry for your suffering.

 

[Lauriso]

Sigh.
I feel with you.
I've been in a similar situation a few years back.
Went to Mexico with a friend on a dream vacation. 2 weeks. Beautiful sunshine, beaches, great food, great company.
But all I could think of was how much I wanted to CTB.

That's what depression (and many other illnesses) do. They prevent you from enjoying even the most wonderful things. Many people don't understand how debilitating and depressing the illness itself is.
I get hives when someone suggests to "do something nice for yourself".
I just look at them and want to go off on a rant that "there is no such thing as "something nice" when you are unable to literally enjoy ANYTHING". No use. They won't get it.
Sigh.

Sending you hugs.
I am so sorry you are in so much pain.

Thank you for sharing and your compassion. I agree wholeheartedly. It's like the good switch is suddenly off. And you can't fight it. At least with just your will

I'm in the same boat. Its painful living. Are you on holiday.

Yes I am.

 

[FuneralCry]

Life can certainly be a nightmare for so many people when they have to endure all this endless suffering with no relief. Of course it's very tiring and it must be awful feeling trapped in that situation.

 

[makethepainstop]

For a large number of us here, our little friend suicidal ideation is with us wherever we are.