i'm growing more convinced that this website is a psyop

[no_another_hell]

i swear to fuck if i never found this place i wouldnt be scared to death to make an attempt

all ive ever heard about suicidal people is how they do end up killing themselves, how they are dead when things got too much worse for them, how they didnt make it.

i mean yeah i guess that would be survivorship bias then? (ironically)
but that doesn't make any fucking sense either because then that must mean all people who dramatically fail go full radio silence after it anyway. sure if theyre in a coma that makes sense but otherwise not.

everytime i hear about someone who killed themselves i get so envious that i almost throw up and it's like they won the lottery in terms of luck they had but rationally that can't just fucking be true. ts would be a lottery with more winning tickets than losing, wtf kind of mind game am i playing with myself

i feel like ive been brainwashed into thinking suicide is impossible, that everyone i read about who says theyll attempt it using something i remember from this site is a shit method will just come back alive and sorry. oh, only to then learn they actually died the next day.

shouldve drawn this conclusion sooner considering i found this place through tantacruls video i cant fucking believe how stupid i am

im writing this semi-ironically of course, but im honestly not quite sure which parts of this i do genuinely believe and which i dont.
this site definitely is a special jar of military-grade brainworms holy

 

[rs929]

You have a point. I got scared of jumping after all the people saying "oh, but there's a 0.01% of chances that you'll end up a vegetable".
On the other hand, I've learned of other methods which are actually easier than jumping.
Someone called this site "damage control", it's an interesting definition.

 

[HangMan123]

I found it from the same video, hah. It probably did more harm than good.

 

[KlMeNw]

This site is interesting, although I have found some comfort here, It is supposed to be a place where you can go to exchange ideas, experiences, and opinions without the restrictions of normies and political correctness that usually forbid these taboo topics. However, I unfortunately have noticed a definite political bias in the majority of the members here, and some of the site mods as well. They seem to shutdown discourse that doesn't agree with their predisposed worldview. I think that is tragic seeing as this site may be the last resort for many folks trying to make sense of the world and their place in it. I mean the rest of the world just has their fingers in their ears to each other, it's sad that we can't pull them out and listen to each other freely even at the end of the line.

 

[StrawberryRed]

I actually feel like this site has made me feel better about kms in a way? I can find posts describing the emotions I was struggling to understand earlier. I wouldn't say sasu made me suicidal but I would say it made em work through some the confusion I had about how I was feeling/what I really wanted. The available stats are helpful too for me. Ive always been an overplanner so I probably would've looked at stats eventually anyways. I've actually learnt about a bunch of options that I never would've thought of by myself. Ive never felt like suicide was out of my reach, i mean millions do it evry year. Lots of them witb probably less than i have. Idk I see what u mean tho, I guess it matters what type of threads u read maybe?

 

[FadingSnowFake]

I joined looking for a method, and found not only that, but surprisingly a whole community of suicidal people, like me. A lot has happened and I was only able to aquire SN five months ago. Still here holding onto some hope and feels like I'm walking a tightrope. Grateful for the means for if I fall and for the company while I'm balancing.

 

[broken serenity]

IDK if failures are a reason to psych yourself out. This place is a treasure trove of info. Sadly, it looks like my best option is not super comfy, but as I fade the discomfort and pain does too. So if I do decide to ctb again this time I'll do it right.

At the same time it's been a motivator to get into recovery again at least one more time. Might as well if I'm dying anyways. The social aspect of the site gave me perspective, is what I'll call it, not changed my mind.

People are always trying to push their views or have a strong opinion sometimes and like I'm just kinda being aware of that and focusing on what I want/need and listening with an open mind at the same time.

 

[Arvayn]

Suicide is very possible. One has to muster quite a bit of elbow grease to attempt it, though. Yes, there's always a very tiny chance of survival, but the chance that you will be the odd one out out of the millions of people that kill themselves is astronomically low, especially if you do everything right. You should always be sure that it is what you want to do without a single doubt, though.
For me, this website has helped me be more informed and gather exclusive knowledge on a subject that is typically very stigmatized.

 

[Pluto]

 

[WakingNightmare]

There might be some plants in the userbase but overall I think there is just a bias in who joins the site.
Most people here seem to want something painless with no risk of being a vegetable, the people willing to impulsively walk off a building will just do that without needing to discuss anything.

 

[Bootleg Astolfo]

As a federal agent, I would like to reassure you that this site is NOT a psyop and that theyre are no federal agents passing themselves as ''dumb sexy cosplayers'' on this site either. You're just being crazy.

 

[oneirataxia]

I feel the exact opposite way, to be honest. I feel that if I never saw that Tantacrul video and never un-memory holed my recollection of this site's existence a year after it got uploaded, I would've never fucked my life up while viewing it with rose-colored glasses, and I wouldn't have lost everything I cared about when trying to recover after being severely stunted. I used to think I was suicidal. Now I actually am, and very much so.

 

[RainAndSadness]

You just learn in this forum that most common methods are flawed as hell and risky. And most people out there use them simply because they don't know better. But there are better and worse methods and you can improve some of the bad methods as well if you dig into them, that's what the forum is there for. Educating and emanzipting yourself with the info that's out there. If you're more scared to commit suicide because you're aware of the risks that come with committing suicide in that case I'd say the forum does a good job of educating it's users. Suicide isn't easy, that's just how it is and anyone who believes otherwise hasn't really thought about the topic for more than two seconds in my opinion.

 

[WrathfulGloom32]

Nope, the site is not a psy-op, there are methods here that exist already on the internet, wikipedia even! and the people are very empathetic and kind, even in my darkest times I've gotten a comment and a hug emoji from someone, it feels like people actually care and I'm extremely greatful for them doing so. They also respect the choices of other people and are here only to show that there is a place where you can talk about what society deems taboo and you will not be judged for it.

 

[me_when_:D]

Idk dude, SS just gave me necessary information and through this made me more confident in the method of my choosing (SN).

I am not sure what surprised you about success percentages, it's not literally "rolling a dice", it's just that some people find it hard to do this and stop midway through or call an ambulance, and some other people find it easier and do it with less issues

 

[cemeteryismyhome]

If it is a psyop, I don't even care. I think we're drowning in psyops to the point that no one knows what's real.

 

[urgent]

Suicide is very possible. One has to muster quite a bit of elbow grease to attempt it, though. Yes, there's always a very tiny chance of survival, but the chance that you will be the odd one out out of the millions of people that kill themselves is astronomically low, especially if you do everything right. You should always be sure that it is what you want to do without a single doubt, though.
For me, this website has helped me be more informed and gather exclusive knowledge on a subject that is typically very stigmatized.

I am very sure of what I want it's more a need now due to severe chronic health issues that have no chance of improving and are so debilitating I haven't figured out how since I'm very limited physically but I'm living in unbearable pain so I need to figure out a definite plan asap

 

[penguinl0v3s]

i swear to fuck if i never found this place i wouldnt be scared to death to make an attempt

all ive ever heard about suicidal people is how they do end up killing themselves, how they are dead when things got too much worse for them, how they didnt make it.

I've heard of irl someone succeeded in OD using simple drugs (alcohol, Xans, Benadryl) which this forum is saying is impossible. But I also know of people who used complex methods (CO) and failed. Methods are all based in probability, not a guarantee. This is what makes people overthink it, because they want guarantees, which is impossible. This is stopping them from even trying at all.

 

[BlueberryDeer]

I joined this forum since I was researching about hanging without the stupid filter of "Call X lifeline" and got hooked because I found a place to talk openly about suicide without fearing judgment or being jailed in a psych ward.
I don't know when will be the exact day to do it but I don't have any regrets about it.
This forum is a blessing in some way to me.