pusheen
abolitionist vegan
- Jan 7, 2025
- 13
I took a sick leave from the job that was killing me. I'm going to give myself another chance.
My apartment costs a lot, but I hope the sick leave pay is enough for the apartment and the food.
Of course I know I'm very privileged to even be in a position where I can take a sick leave and still get paid a bit for it.
So I'm going to use it to my best advantage and use this time to take a course for archiving, it already starts tomorrow and ends on Friday, so it will be packed, but I wanna learn. Anything to get a job that's less soulcrushing.
I'm neurodivergent but I believe you can be perfectly allistic and still suffer like shit under capitalism to the point of ending up here, and then in the woods, a shed, with your room closed, filled with poison or with a noose around your neck.
I ordered my way out anyway, just in case it doesn't work. But I'm going to try to get a job that lets me breathe.
I want to live, to dream, to create, to sing like I always loved.
I want to meet people who will love me and love them back.
Just existing is excruciating. We're all here because of greedy people and they all have an address, and still not enough action.
This system goes so deep, generations deep already, thousands of years maybe, certainly hundreds. I don't think it will end soon, but I know the planet can't keep taking it forever, so something will happen during my lifetime, but too late.
I'm going to pierce my nose today. I finally wore clothes that I like. I feel confident again. It's still tempting to quit, it's hard that I'm going to have to try to fix so many things - a feeling that most of you might know.
I want to find my peace in the world of living before I try the last resort.
I hope you all find strenght and a good opportunity will find you too
My apartment costs a lot, but I hope the sick leave pay is enough for the apartment and the food.
Of course I know I'm very privileged to even be in a position where I can take a sick leave and still get paid a bit for it.
So I'm going to use it to my best advantage and use this time to take a course for archiving, it already starts tomorrow and ends on Friday, so it will be packed, but I wanna learn. Anything to get a job that's less soulcrushing.
I'm neurodivergent but I believe you can be perfectly allistic and still suffer like shit under capitalism to the point of ending up here, and then in the woods, a shed, with your room closed, filled with poison or with a noose around your neck.
I ordered my way out anyway, just in case it doesn't work. But I'm going to try to get a job that lets me breathe.
I want to live, to dream, to create, to sing like I always loved.
I want to meet people who will love me and love them back.
Just existing is excruciating. We're all here because of greedy people and they all have an address, and still not enough action.
This system goes so deep, generations deep already, thousands of years maybe, certainly hundreds. I don't think it will end soon, but I know the planet can't keep taking it forever, so something will happen during my lifetime, but too late.
I'm going to pierce my nose today. I finally wore clothes that I like. I feel confident again. It's still tempting to quit, it's hard that I'm going to have to try to fix so many things - a feeling that most of you might know.
I want to find my peace in the world of living before I try the last resort.
I hope you all find strenght and a good opportunity will find you too
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