ilistentoradiohead
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- Aug 27, 2023
- 16
It's Sunday, 14 April, and as I am currently typing this its 11.35 AM. I'm at the airport and about to fly back home since school is starting tomorrow.
Since a few days ago, too much things has happened and I cannot take it anymore. I don't care if you think this is dramatic. Too many things has happened and I don't want to keep living with the same problems everytime I visit my family, it's always the same thing over and over again. I'm fucking sick of it. I slowly lose my affectkon for mt family although they have done nothing wrong to me. I just hate my fucking dad so much. Like I know he cares for me but he doesn't listen to me for fucking shit nor does he try to hear me.out and understand me and I don't want to keep living with that for the rest of my life and be burdened by it. I thought things had gotten better yesterday but no, the same shit happens again today and I have made a final decision; once I arrive back to my own place where it's just me alone inside my room, I'm going to take those sleeping pills and overdose in them. I don't want to see what am I going to wake up to tomorrow morning. I accidentally left my earphones at my grandma's place and was looking forward to buy a new replacement tofay, but I no longer want it anymore. I don't aant to ever wake up and listen to music again, although that's the only thing keepinge alive this whole time I'm sick of it. I don't want it anymore. I want to just die in my sleep and never wake up again. God, that wpuld be so much more peaceful than jumping off the train and letmyself die that waym I can't do this anymore.
To my friends, I am terribly sorry. I love you qll.
To my mom, I'm sorry. I love you.
To my brother, I hope you grow to be a kind and nice person. I'm sorry I couldn't be there for you anymore.
To my grandma, I'm sorry. I know you sent me well wishes for my flight, but I wouldn't be seeing you anymore. Please stay healthy.
I will be arriving back to my place at around 4 pm. And by then, I am already dead. I won't wake up anymore. I just don't want to. Please give me the strength to do so.
11.44 am.
Since a few days ago, too much things has happened and I cannot take it anymore. I don't care if you think this is dramatic. Too many things has happened and I don't want to keep living with the same problems everytime I visit my family, it's always the same thing over and over again. I'm fucking sick of it. I slowly lose my affectkon for mt family although they have done nothing wrong to me. I just hate my fucking dad so much. Like I know he cares for me but he doesn't listen to me for fucking shit nor does he try to hear me.out and understand me and I don't want to keep living with that for the rest of my life and be burdened by it. I thought things had gotten better yesterday but no, the same shit happens again today and I have made a final decision; once I arrive back to my own place where it's just me alone inside my room, I'm going to take those sleeping pills and overdose in them. I don't want to see what am I going to wake up to tomorrow morning. I accidentally left my earphones at my grandma's place and was looking forward to buy a new replacement tofay, but I no longer want it anymore. I don't aant to ever wake up and listen to music again, although that's the only thing keepinge alive this whole time I'm sick of it. I don't want it anymore. I want to just die in my sleep and never wake up again. God, that wpuld be so much more peaceful than jumping off the train and letmyself die that waym I can't do this anymore.
To my friends, I am terribly sorry. I love you qll.
To my mom, I'm sorry. I love you.
To my brother, I hope you grow to be a kind and nice person. I'm sorry I couldn't be there for you anymore.
To my grandma, I'm sorry. I know you sent me well wishes for my flight, but I wouldn't be seeing you anymore. Please stay healthy.
I will be arriving back to my place at around 4 pm. And by then, I am already dead. I won't wake up anymore. I just don't want to. Please give me the strength to do so.
11.44 am.