Anxious_Panda
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- Jul 27, 2019
- 33
I've tried so many things to try to prove to myself that the universe actually wants me here. I've tried so many medications, 8 different psychologists and doctors, therapy from 4 different counslers, I've tried inpatient therapy which made things worse. I've tried relying on someone else to help me, and she left when I needed her most. So now I'm on my own, stuck in my own head. I've tried finding my passions, but nothing ever sticks. College has become my last resort at convincing myself to live, and it's slowly slipping through my fingers too. I've tried toutoring, reaching out to the teachers, studying for hours. But nothing helps. I'm coming to realize.. That maybe I'm just not supposed to be here. Maybe I'm really not meant to live in this world. Everything I've tried living for, has proved me wrong. Again and again. What do you do, when you have nothing left to live for anymore? How do you keep going when your whole being says stop? When am I allowed to lay down and say enough is enough, I'm done.