Venting I'm getting sick of living

[DepressionsAHo]

Survival Instinct is a bitch. Wish there was a switch to turn it off right? :')

Kind of a dumb analogy but the switch thing always reminded me of vampire diaries lol. If you ever watched that show they're able to essentially flip a switch to turn their humanity off. In the show, they used it to pretty much go on a killing spree and had no "fear" (maybe a loss of concious) of death. The killing part is obviously not the goal with me but yes, the no fear of death and the loss of conscious would be ideal in my situation. I dont fear death anymore but as said, I lack the feeling needed to take my life. Perhaps turning off my conscious would help.

The alcohol and the drugs, theyre amazing buddies. But, Hopefully you find peace soon, whether it's alive or well not <3

Thank you man. Itll be only with my death though. I've no hope anymore

 

[scorpiooo2]

I dont. Trust me. I don't. I only got this job because it (should) provide me the push needed. When, not if, but when I get fired (I always do) I'll have enough saved to give to my family and they should be well off enough to be fine. I'd like to finish my back tattoo too. It's a gorgeous piece

Well keep doing you, I wish you luck with whatever you choose.