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_elliott

_elliott

sweet adeline.
Apr 24, 2021
148
i drank sn. my lips are blue. my lips are fucjing blue and i can't stand. i am in so much pain. i regret this so much but can't call for help. i'm going to die. i'm going to die.
i drank sn. my lips are blue. my lips are fucjing blue and i can't stand. i am in so much pain. i regret this so much but can't call for help. i'm going to die. i'm going to die.
i have to. get to my computer. and post something. on twitter. let everyone know
i',m sorry to all my family. my friends. everyone i have hurt. to myself. i'm sorry. i do want to die. a weird part of me doens't regret this at all. i'm sorry to m parents. i'm sorry to d and em. i'm soryr i left quite a mess. i meant to clean it up, i'm sorry. but i was too depressed . i'm sorry to michael, and roach, and all my new friends. thnak you stone for trying to teach me guitar. thanky ou lyndsie for your long frinedhsip. i love you all. i love you all. i couldn't do this anympre. d and em, i'ms orry for smoking in the bathroom behind you backs. thank you so mcuh for taking me in. thank you from the bottom of my heart. michael, i'm sorry for how things ended, but i thank yoou for making me happy. this is not your fault. let me repeat that. this is not your fault. i have needed to do this for awhile. and you are still my best friend. same with you, roach, thank you for saving me in the past. i love you boht.

to my parents, though you have caused me a lot of pain, i love you too, and i forgive you. but i have wanted to die since i was eight. to dale : tyou are so smart. you're so smart and kind. you're going to do great., man.

the code to my phome is 5540./ my computer password is 9112. pleas dont' look through my styff. goodbey. goodbye. thank yiy everyone . i'm going in peace.
 
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Ky204

Ky204

Member
Sep 3, 2019
97
If you're not ready and you're able to type this then there's always a chance. I'm so sorry you're suffering friend, I wish there was a way to take the pain away.
 
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_elliott

_elliott

sweet adeline.
Apr 24, 2021
148
with my last strentght. i'm making mu deat hpeaceful. i set up musioc. i set up my comptuer. i cnsa't stand anumore. goodbye.
i drank sn. my lips are blue. my lips are fucjing blue and i can't stand. i am in so much pain. i regret this so much but can't call for help. i'm going to die. i'm going to die.

i have to. get to my computer. and post something. on twitter. let everyone know
i',m sorry to all my family. my friends. everyone i have hurt. to myself. i'm sorry. i do want to die. a weird part of me doens't regret this at all. i'm sorry to m parents. i'm sorry to d and em. i'm sorry to michael, and roach, and all my new friends. i love you all. i love you all. i couldn't do this anympre. d and em, i'ms orry for smoking in the bathroom behind you backs. thank you so mcuh for taking me in. thank you from the bottom of my heart. michael, i'm sorry for how things ended, but i thank yoou for making me happy. this is not your fault. let me repeat that. this is not your fault. i have needed to do this for awhile. and you are still my best friend. same with you, roach, thank you for saving me in the past. i love you boht.

to my parents, though you have caused me a lot of pain, i love you too, and i forgive you. but i have wanted to die since i was eight.

the code to my phome is 5540./ my computer password is 9112. pleas dont' look through my styff. goodbey. goodbye. thank yiy everyone . i'm going in peace.
and THANK YOU so much to richie. thak uou
 
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NearlyIrrelevantCake

NearlyIrrelevantCake

The Cake Is A Lie
Aug 12, 2021
1,733
Godspeed.
 
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PeacefulTonic

Enlightened
Aug 10, 2021
1,006
You can still call EMS or a friend to have them call for you if you still have regret. Although I fear there's not much time left.

Sorry that you're feeling so much pain. This is the reality for some who use this method unfortunately. If you choose not to call for help, I hope the rest of your journey is a pleasant one
 
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_elliott

_elliott

sweet adeline.
Apr 24, 2021
148
You can still call EMS or a friend to have them call for you if you still have regret. Although I fear there's not much time left.

Sorry that you're feeling so much pain. This is the reality for some who use this method unfortunately. If you choose not to call for help, I hope the rest of your journey is a pleasant one
i'm not goping to call for anyone. if not now, never. i'm not going back. i have always wanted to die. i have always ewamted to die. i just am using my last stretngth to make sure it's nto one'sfault. trusy me. i' m happy right now. i'm really. really happy. i'm jst feeling guilt for d and em finding my biody. for all my firends. i'm happy though. tryst em. i'm going to go peacefully.
i'm too rtire.d to continue typing. i need to sleep. i love you all. love you all.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
43,320
I hope you find peace and freedom from the pain you are experiencing. I wish you the best.
 
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marinekiwi

marinekiwi

Student
Oct 28, 2021
148
It's just so sad reading this. May you have a peaceful journey and hope you'll find the peace you are looking for, my poor soul.
Rest easy friend. Don't fear anything.
 
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rationaltake

rationaltake

I'm rocking it - in another universe
Sep 28, 2021
2,707
Please call for help if you want to.
 
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Pluto

Cat Extremist
Dec 27, 2020
5,064
May you find peace at last. Your loved ones will be OK. We have to be true to ourselves.
 
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PDAnnie2610

Waiting for my bus.
Oct 27, 2019
701
Peace to you.
 
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LastLoveLetter

Persephone
Mar 28, 2021
654
I'm so sorry you are going through this @_elliott. I don't know you but from your posts here and on the server, you seem like such a kind person and you don't deserve to be in so much pain. I wish this were more peaceful for you.

If you regret this and you don't want to go, there is absolutely no shame in asking for help. Please, if this isn't what you want anymore, call for help as soon as possible. We all deserve the right to die, but it has to be on your terms and only yours. If now isn't your time, it's okay to get help. And if you do want to stay, I truly hope you do get the support you need so that you survive this.

If you are absolutely sure this is what you want, I'm so sorry life came to this point for you. I truly hope you find the peace that you didn't have in life, the peace you truly deserve. :heart:
 
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NMOP3PISdn

Member
Nov 5, 2021
66
This was very sudden. I did not expect this from you today. I thought you were going to try to hold on a little longer.
Either way, whatever happens, I hope your find Peace soon.
 
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luckzz3ra

Member
Oct 29, 2021
22
Rest in peace, I wish the best for you.
 
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miserableforever

Arcanist
Oct 23, 2020
488
I hope this is what you really wanted. There's always help last minute.
We will miss you❤️
 
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Konjac

Konjac

Specialist
Oct 25, 2020
301
I've seen you around and you seemed like such a sweet soul, I'm so sorry that you've been pushed to this point. Rest in peace, I hope things are better on the other side. <3
 
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Snake of Eden

Snake of Eden

“Ye shall be as gods..🍎 🐍”
Jun 22, 2021
2,473
may you find peace you longed for
 
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Midgardsorm

Midgardsorm

Paragon
Apr 28, 2020
917
Be at peace, Elliott.

Thanks for granting us the pleasure of meeting you.

Your light will never fade.
 
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Hateyouprolife

Survivalist
Sep 4, 2021
169
This ctb somehow touched me real deep. Seen many post, but this is somehow differenr. Safe travels!
 
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_elliott

_elliott

sweet adeline.
Apr 24, 2021
148
i'm alive. i woke up and threw up a ton. i still feel pretty gross and sick. still a bit blue. but for right now i'm alive. i don't know how to feel.
 
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Hateyouprolife

Survivalist
Sep 4, 2021
169
i'm alive. i woke up and threw up a ton. i still feel pretty gross and sick. still a bit blue. but for right now i'm alive. i don't know how to feel.
Did you really regret taking sn or this was SI?
 
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rationaltake

I'm rocking it - in another universe
Sep 28, 2021
2,707
i'm alive. i woke up and threw up a ton. i still feel pretty gross and sick. still a bit blue. but for right now i'm alive. i don't know how to feel.
You've really been through it. Take care friend. I hope you get help if you need it.
 
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_elliott

_elliott

sweet adeline.
Apr 24, 2021
148
You've really been through it. Take care friend. I hope you get help if you need it.
thank you. i'll be alright. i'm hurt, wnd life sucks. and i still want to die. but if i'm still here then.. i guess im still here
Did you really regret taking sn or this was SI?
to be honest with you, i don't know.
 
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Bedrock48

Bedrock48

Dreadful damage, dreadful destiny
Feb 1, 2021
540
i'm alive. i woke up and threw up a ton. i still feel pretty gross and sick. still a bit blue. but for right now i'm alive. i don't know how to feel.

I would strongly suggest getting yourself to a hospital, even if you are feeling better. I'm sorry you went through this, hope you feel ok soon after such a traumatic experience. Go easy on yourself.
 
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Midgardsorm

Midgardsorm

Paragon
Apr 28, 2020
917
Are you sure you're alright, Elliott? No damages? maybe you should check
 
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