I'm done. Apparently i dont want the only reason i have for living enough.

[Sadness20]

So last year in september i decided i wanted to study psychology at the university but to be accepted there i have to do a bunch of tests first. But i cant seem to get anything in my head. I feel like i'm just too dumb for all this shit. And today i was told if i cant learn it, maybe i just dont want it enough. ITS THE ONLY FUCKING REASON I'M STILL LIVING. Its the only goal i had, if i dont have this: Then whats left to live for? I'm done trying. I'm so so so done. Just let it end. Please, let it be over. I'm tired of people. I'm tired of learning. But the person i'm most tired of, is myself. Maybe its time to give suicide another try.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm sorry you have to suffer so much in this cruel existence, I understand why you'd feel so tired. But anyway best wishes.

 

[errorsinmypast]

I hate that you have to pass tests that probably won't even be applicable to the course you want to undertake. It's just a joke, no wonder young people lose focus, the government make living to fucking hard. Sorry to hear you're feeling so bad

 

[returntothevoid]

I feel this. Unfortunately your brain literally changes when severely depressed, it has worse memory and just all around functions pretty terribly. It's a never ending cycle of depression —> not doing anything to get out of it —> worse situation —> more depression