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CrocHead66

CrocHead66

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Oct 28, 2023
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So thanks to the replies bellow about OD-ing not working but it's the only method I have that's not gruesome. I have access to a pew pew but I don't want to do that it's gross. I think what I'm gonna do is drive out of state. I have a car and a license. Unfortunately my best friend that I live with does have my location but I can just turn it off at night when they go to bed and then I can leave. I, over the next day or two can go collect some pills and alcohol and basically run away. Or just to be on the safe side I have enough money to just buy another line and get a cheap second phone or even use an old smart phone I have and use the maps on there and just drive to my favourite state and enjoy my last day. I'll have to pull out cash so that they don't trace me to that state but I have enough to be able to do that. I know this is all very elaborate but I have to cover all my bases and I want to enjoy my last day or days. So running away to CTB. I feel at peace with this. Wish me luck - CrocHead
I couldn't wait. I wasn't made for this earth. I was built just to fall and I'm okay with that. I think I did okay while I was here. I wrote the main peeps in my life letters so hope they find them (they're smart and they will) I'm leaving them on my phone though. I'm not making the same mistake this time.
 
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gottacheckout

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May 20, 2025
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I'm sorry that life has not treated you better. I hope you find peace where ever you end up.

If you need to talk about anything just reach out
 
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darksouls

darksouls

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May 10, 2025
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☮️ I wish you peace
 
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CrocHead66

CrocHead66

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Oct 28, 2023
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Still popping pills and drinking some alcoholic tea shit I feel silly haha 🤣
 
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NellyGoes

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Aug 16, 2025
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I'm sorry life has come to this for you. I'm wishing you peace in whatever journey you end up taking.
 
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J&L383

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😢❤️
 
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U. A.

U. A.

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Aug 8, 2022
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Hey after your other thread I am worried this is just going to end in a trip to the ER.
What are the pills?
 
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CrocHead66

CrocHead66

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Oct 28, 2023
9
Hey after your other thread I am worried this is just going to end in a trip to the ER.
What are the pills?
Abilify and Benadryl and some spiked tea if it doesn't work then I suppose I really can't be killed haha
 
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ForestGhost

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Aug 25, 2024
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Abilify and Benadryl and some spiked tea if it doesn't work then I suppose I really can't be killed haha
With all respect, it "not working" is probably the likely outcome. Benadryl ODs are not particularly fun, either. Wish you the best and minimal discomfort whatever happens.
 
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EmptyBottle

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Apr 10, 2025
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Abilify and Benadryl and some spiked tea if it doesn't work then I suppose I really can't be killed haha
oh crap.... a non method (tho benadryl od can potentially be fatal, it is treatable and has bad side effects)
 
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SkySocket

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Sep 8, 2025
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Abilify at large doses cause an incredible amount of akathisia. I hope you're used to its side effects at a normal dose.
 
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ForestGhost

ForestGhost

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Aug 25, 2024
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OP has not been active since they last posted on this thread a week ago... maybe it did work? Hopefully they're okay if it didn't.
 
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EmptyBottle

EmptyBottle

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OP has not been active since they last posted on this thread a week ago... maybe it did work? Hopefully they're okay if it didn't.
if they didn't go to hospital, they might not be alive... since benadryl OD can (but not necessarily will) be fatal.
 
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