Venting Im begging

[restingplace]

I haven't cried like this over wanting to ctb since last April. I really really can't take this anymore. I'm on my last straw.

I've set up a gofundme and talked to my therapist but god there's really nothing I can do. I'm going to be homeless in a week, I'm not going to pass my exams and I'm going to suffer.

im sorry mum i wish i tried harder for you. I dont know what to do. I know i shouldn't leave the house and attempt now because doing it Impulsively almost never works.

I can't stand being here for another day

 

[pyranha]

if it feels impulsive, then i ask that you please don't do anything to yourself. i'm just now catching up with the previous thread and this one, so i'm sorry if my details are off- but this doesn't have to be the end of the road if you're not ready. i won't lie to you, i have no idea what i would do in your situation, and the prospect of homelessness is truly terrifying- but maybe there is still a way to help you.

like you said, you set up a gofundme right? maybe you can share that here. i don't know what the rules of this site are regarding that but i can figure out a way to share it around with the people i know. is your mom willing to house you at all, or loan you some cash? is there any friend you have that would let you sleep on their couch?

i'm sorry that you're suffering on such a level- it's sick that people can just be thrown out onto the street like that, without any care about what happens to them after. as horrible as this situation is, it doesn't have to be the end of your life- we can try to figure something out so you can at least get some time to rest, study, and do your exams. please stay and chat

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm sorry you have to suffer so much, it's cruel to me how there's all this suffering in existing, I understand finding it unbearable to exist. But anyway I wish you the best.