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LighthouseHermit

LighthouseHermit

Giver of Hugs
Sep 20, 2025
125
I saw my psychiatrist today, and she helped me understand my feelings about feeling hated by everyone and never belonging anywhere. According to her, I suffer from Avoidant Personality Disorder. Because of my past with people around me making me always feel worthless, that caused trauma and that disorder as a result.

Unfortunately, I'm also taking a new pain medication, which doesn't go well together with my current medication. The result is that my negative feelings and thoughts have been much worse, to the point of a mental breakdown. Am off that medication now, and hopefully things will get better soon.

Hope to be back to my regular self soon.

I'm sorry if my behavior seems strange or bad, and I sincerely apologize for my behavior.

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Also, a big thank you to all the people that sent me messages and likes. You know who you are. From the bottom of my heart, thank you.
 
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LighthouseHermit

LighthouseHermit

Giver of Hugs
Sep 20, 2025
125
welcome back 💞💞

Thank you very much :heart:

You are a ray of sunshine, even though your life has been incredibly hard. I admire that.

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All I wish is for people to not feel like me. I hope my presence adds something to this place. Even if I brighten the day of a single person, it was worth it.

Have learned today that not everyone will like me, but I am what I am, and if anyone doesn't like that, they don't belong in my life. The problem lies with them, not with me.
 
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westerly_merlin

westerly_merlin

I am past my best before date
Aug 13, 2025
146
Welcome back ☺️
 
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