I'm back here and I'm suicidal again

[LigottiSchopenhauer]

I haven't posted here in a while because I thought that things were getting better and I had found some people who could have been my friends. But then those people abandoned me. Even when I was feeling more optimistic, I always appreciated this website because you all are non-judgmental and respectful.

Anyway, I'm back to where I used to be and I'm probably gonna kill myself soon. I'm posting this because this is the only place I can say it without worrying about someone calling the cops on me. I'll keep posting here until the very end because this is such a great community.

 

[LostLily]

welcome back, I'm sorry that you are here

 

[Kbeau]

I haven't posted here in a while because I thought that things were getting better and I had found some people who could have been my friends. But then those people abandoned me. Even when I was feeling more optimistic, I always appreciated this website because you all are non-judgmental and respectful.

Anyway, I'm back to where I used to be and I'm probably gonna kill myself soon. I'm posting this because this is the only place I can say it without worrying about someone calling the cops on me. I'll keep posting here until the very end because this is such a great community.

Same for me. I don't mention CTB to anyone including (especially) my psychiatrist because I don't want to be locked up and have my rights taken away

 

[LigottiSchopenhauer]

Same for me. I don't mention CTB to anyone including (especially) my psychiatrist because I don't want to be locked up and have my rights taken away

This is absolutely the correct decision. I had my rights violated a couple years ago by a "therapist" who told my parents I was feeling suicidal and almost got me locked up. Don't ever mention CTB to anyone you know outside of this forum.

 

[FuneralCry]

I wish you the best, I hope you find the relief you search for.

 

[Ligottian]

I haven't posted here in a while because I thought that things were getting better and I had found some people who could have been my friends. But then those people abandoned me. Even when I was feeling more optimistic, I always appreciated this website because you all are non-judgmental and respectful.

Anyway, I'm back to where I used to be and I'm probably gonna kill myself soon. I'm posting this because this is the only place I can say it without worrying about someone calling the cops on me. I'll keep posting here until the very end because this is such a great community.

Ian Curtis, Thomas Ligotti, and Arthur Schopenhauer! I'm a big fan of all three. Nice to meet you. Wish you the best.

 

[LigottiSchopenhauer]

Ian Curtis, Thomas Ligotti, and Arthur Schopenhauer! I'm a big fan of all three. Nice to meet you. Wish you the best.

Thanks, you too. Ian's lyrics have given me comfort for many, many years.

 

[rs929]

This is absolutely the correct decision. I had my rights violated a couple years ago by a "therapist" who told my parents I was feeling suicidal and almost got me locked up. Don't ever mention CTB to anyone you know outside of this forum.

If you are actually planning to do it, they are going to lock you up, but it is still important that they know you're really struggling. Something like "I want to go to sleep and never wake up again" could work

 

[LigottiSchopenhauer]

If you are actually planning to do it, they are going to lock you up, but it is still important that they know you're really struggling. Something like "I want to go to sleep and never wake up again" could work

That's still too risky. I said something similar to a therapist once, and she broke confidentiality and called my parents to tell them that I was suicidal. You can never be too careful when you're speaking to a therapist.