Venting i'm back again, psychedelics/reality shifting, and advice

[fruitcup333]

hi everyone,

it's been a bit for me since i posted on here and while i'm currently not feeling as worse as i felt i feel like this is my safe space on the internet because i feel like the people here understand me. i just wanted to post a vent because i'm trying to better myself but it's just not working out and i'm very doubtful it ever will. some backstory, ever since high school i've struggled with schooling and like completing schoolwork and just in general being a good student. well i graduated high school since then and dropped out of college due to mental health reasons and now i'm giving it a second shot. but i'm two weeks into the semester and i already feel like i can't do this. like i'm in a easy school and only taking two classes and while one of them is supposedly hard (i have not even looked into the assignments for that one yet) the one that should be easy peasy i can't even bring myself to do the easiest of assignments. i just don't know what's wrong with me. and i can't see myself living without going through school if that makes sense. some more background i am finally able to hold down a job and have for almost a yearish now but i don't want to be there forever even though i'm happy there currently. there's more i would like to accomplish if i'm alive here but why can't i bring myself to do these things that are easy. this assignment is literally a completion grade... i just have these goals that i thought were more realistic and now i'm only trying to get an associates degree that would guarantee me a job but why can't i even do that like what is the cure to motivational issues (if that's the problem with me) then i have no clue.

moving onto my next topic where i don't know if this is the right place to talk about this here and if anyone will know what i'm talking about or if i'll just sound crazy but i've been interested in reality shifting for several years now and i think i may have made a post on here before where i mentioned it or something and about how dissatisfied with this current reality i am and how i can never reach my full potential here. but i always seem to go back and forth between wanting to ctb to reality shift and live my "true real life" or thinking i can do it without having to ctb. recently i've been interested in psychedelics and the ability to maybe reality shift with them and i just wanted to come on here and ask if anyone has had a eye opening experiences with them or spiritual if you are a spiritual person. i just want some answers to my problems too and i thought maybe i could get some answers from something out there using them. idk if this makes any sense lol

if you'd like to reply to my ramblings feel free i really would like to hear what anyone has to say and if they can give me any advice or share their experiences i would love to hear them!

 

[OzymandiAsh]

Your post is probably better off in recovery, so maybe ask the mods to move it there?

As for the motivational issues, you sound very much like you have ADHD or are otherwise neurodivergent. What does motivate you / what do you enjoy?

Finally, about psychedelics, they can be great and I think everyone who is thinking about CTB should ideally try them first. They can give you real insights into your problems and emotions, and if you're lucky they can be healing or inspiring. However they are also a slippery slope and can at times be dangerous, bad trips do happen, and everyone gets along differently with psychedelics. They won't solve everything and life can still be just as challenging, punishing and full of shit.

Without them I would have CTB already, or at least made some very serious attempts, for sure. They did help but I'm still gonna CTB, I am much more at peace with this though. They can and do save many lives though so they're worth a go, just don't expect a total panacea.

 

[fruitcup333]

Your post is probably better off in recovery, so maybe ask the mods to move it there?

As for the motivational issues, you sound very much like you have ADHD or are otherwise neurodivergent. What does motivate you / what do you enjoy?

Finally, about psychedelics, they can be great and I think everyone who is thinking about CTB should ideally try them first. They can give you real insights into your problems and emotions, and if you're lucky they can be healing or inspiring. However they are also a slippery slope and can at times be dangerous, bad trips do happen, and everyone gets along differently with psychedelics. They won't solve everything and life can still be just as challenging, punishing and full of shit.

Without them I would have CTB already, or at least made some very serious attempts, for sure. They did help but I'm still gonna CTB, I am much more at peace with this though. They can and do save many lives though so they're worth a go, just don't expect a total panacea.

i will def probably repost in recovery thank you!

i have been diagnosed with ADHD and have several other mental health conditions and suffer badly from executive dysfunction. i seem to def be motivated by money and the idea of success and badly wish to be successful but the it's the actual action i need to take to do so that i can't seem to do and maybe i really just am lazy but i feel like i'm not because i am a hard worker at my job (at least i'd like to think so). it feels better for me to think about success and all the things i want to do than actually doing them. i'll sit in my room and pace back and forth just thinking about who i'd like to be rather than actually doing anything to get there but even when i put the unrealistic ideals and dreams aside the "more attainable and grounded in reality ones" i guess you could call them seem so far away where i'd rather just ctb and take the chance that i'd maybe wake up in a world where i have the motivation to achieve my goals.

and about psychedelics i'm a very spiritual person so i'm hoping to have some spiritual experiences with them. have you ever had any if you are a spiritual person? i'm worried about a bad trip because i have a hard time controlling my mental state and if there would be any interactions with the variety of medications i'm on.

 

[OzymandiAsh]

Yes, I am spiritual and have had many spiritual experiences. Sometimes even when my mental state has been terrible I've had great experiences, but it is definitely a risk and somewhere down the line you will likely have bad trips.

 

[prompt_critical]

I've been around the religion and spirituality games and to be honest we better hope that shit isn't real otherwise we're never getting out of this consciousness shit show.

 

[fruitcup333]

I've been around the religion and spirituality games and to be honest we better hope that shit isn't real otherwise we're never getting out of this consciousness shit show.

i would like to still be conscious but in a more like expanded version of what we currently are experiencing. i feel like this reality is very limited and i'm interested in surpassing the normal human experience. the idea of not having consciousness kinda freaks me out tbh and it would make me sad because all of things in my mind i've created would go away and turn into nothing. but if that's the way it does work then i guess i'll have to accept it or "accept" it in the sense after i figure out what really happens i won't be conscious anymore to care lol

 

[fruitcup333]

Yes, I am spiritual and have had many spiritual experiences. Sometimes even when my mental state has been terrible I've had great experiences, but it is definitely a risk and somewhere down the line you will likely have bad trips.

did you have any spiritual experiences while using psychedelics?

 

[SovietSuicide]

I've been further out than most people so feel free to DM.

I've done every psychedelic except 5-meo. On DMT I met mantis & grey aliens. They beamed information about hydrogen engines & palindrome numbers into my head telepathically. Shit like that. I mean literally I could sit with you for years and prove all of it to you. I've spent 20 years realizing we're in a simulation & the mantis aliens run everything & this reality is all about creating suffering. It's why the world is run by pedo satanic criminals & they'll always be at the top.

People knew it hundreds of years ago but they all got genocided (cathar genocide).

We are literally stuck here forever. I doubt you could reality shift or even if you could it would only be to an equally terrible reality, sorry.

 

[OzymandiAsh]

did you have any spiritual experiences while using psychedelics?

Yes. I devoted my life to seeking out the Truth religiously, and psychedelics were one of the means I used to do that. I discovered more of the Truth than I had ever hoped to know, but equally I have been very disappointed by it. It's not what I wanted it to be or was hoping it would be like.

Also, human spirituality is very much tied in with our sexuality, and I regard our sex drives as a form of ironic divine punishment, so it's not an escape or a get out of jail free card. If anything, the more genuinely spiritual you are, the more you can probably expect to suffer.

I've been further out than most people so feel free to DM.

I've done every psychedelic except 5-meo. On DMT I met mantis & grey aliens. They beamed information about hydrogen engines & palindrome numbers into my head telepathically. Shit like that. I mean literally I could sit with you for years and prove all of it to you. I've spent 20 years realizing we're in a simulation & the mantis aliens run everything & this reality is all about creating suffering. It's why the world is run by pedo satanic criminals & they'll always be at the top.

People knew it hundreds of years ago but they all got genocided (cathar genocide).

We are literally stuck here forever. I doubt you could reality shift or even if you could it would only be to an equally terrible reality, sorry.

I don't agree. I mean, I agree that suffering is an intrinsic aspect of our existence, but I don't agree that this is entirely a simulation (maybe some simulation-like aspects though, from various points of view), and I don't agree that we are stuck here forever.

In my view, human existence serves larger divine purposes, but those are mostly simply out of our comprehension. We are not meant to understand things until we die and are reunited with God, which is one reason I am looking forward to death. There is a reason that the Truth is scattered throughout all religions and cultures, Tower of Babel style. I think that confusion and dispersal must be deliberate, somehow. Most people who believe in God don't seem to grasp that they are not as smart as God or that there are intelligences much greater than our primitive ape brains can imagine and comprehend.

 

[SovietSuicide]

Yes. I devoted my life to seeking out the Truth religiously, and psychedelics were one of the means I used to do that. I discovered more of the Truth than I had ever hoped to know, but equally I have been very disappointed by it. It's not what I wanted it to be or was hoping it would be like.

Also, human spirituality is very much tied in with our sexuality, and I regard our sex drives as a form of ironic divine punishment, so it's not an escape or a get out of jail free card. If anything, the more genuinely spiritual you are, the more you can probably expect to suffer.




I don't agree. I mean, I agree that suffering is an intrinsic aspect of our existence, but I don't agree that this is entirely a simulation (maybe some simulation-like aspects though, from various points of view), and I don't agree that we are stuck here forever.

In my view, human existence serves larger divine purposes, but those are mostly simply out of our comprehension. We are not meant to understand things until we die and are reunited with God, which is one reason I am looking forward to death. There is a reason that the Truth is scattered throughout all religions and cultures, Tower of Babel style. I think that confusion and dispersal must be deliberate, somehow. Most people who believe in God don't seem to grasp that they are not as smart as God or that there are intelligences much greater than our primitive ape brains can imagine and comprehend.

How can truth be scattered deliberately if this is not a simulation where higher powers are manipulating things?

We are pure consciousness, we're not limited by intelligence. Intelligence is a biological limitation, it isn't relevant to us when we are in the states I'm talking about. Again you can literally just go smoke DMT and aliens will beam shit into your mind. You don't have to believe me, anyone willing to push the boundaries enough will find out what I'm saying is true.

 

[Bitch With An Apple]

It's impossible, but I don't believe that that means you can't do it. I believe that it relies on the ultimate realization of free will, and that requires restructuring the way you think and use attention. It happens on a gradient. You'll only know what you're doing as you're doing it, because there is no instruction manual or curriculum, although there are ideas that can tremendously influence you and help you steer yourself. Because of that, you'll have to learn to trust yourself despite a lot of contrary running narratives. The closer you get things start to appear much different than they did before without actually changing.

Wish I could be more articulate, I burned out and I'm basically going off of translated memory.

Psychedelics can get your foot in the door though, but be careful. It's like running a nuclear reactor. Causal relationships become more specific and you have to take care with your actions.

I do think guiding entities are a real thing, and I think they appreciate nascent curiosity like what you have, so they usually begin on your side, but it has to be an active and internally driven process by virtue of what it is, and you don't want to be overly reliant because that runs contrary to the point of self-realization. You will also have to defend yourself against weird shit, but you have to do it intelligently.

Feel free to dismiss as schizobabble, idk just my experiences.

 

[OzymandiAsh]

How can truth be scattered deliberately if this is not a simulation where higher powers are manipulating things?

We are pure consciousness, we're not limited by intelligence. Intelligence is a biological limitation, it isn't relevant to us when we are in the states I'm talking about. Again you can literally just go smoke DMT and aliens will beam shit into your mind. You don't have to believe me, anyone willing to push the boundaries enough will find out what I'm saying is true.

Predictable response... I'm not challenging what you've experienced, if you say you've seen mantis aliens, I believe you. I think you may have drawn the wrong inferences from those experiences though, that is what I don't agree with.

I prefer to think of life as more of a game than a simulation. I think of this world as a kind of mini-game inside a greater game, which could be called the Infinite Game, although in the case of human life, the game seems rigged and perhaps we are all losers.

I disagree that we are "pure consciousness". In an ultimate sense everything is consciousness, maybe I could agree with that, but in the case of human beings our consciousness is extremely filtered and impure. And yes, we are limited by our intelligence.

I've done DMT, I haven't met the mantis aliens, but I've seen plenty of other stuff. lol

It's impossible, but I don't believe that that means you can't do it. I believe that it relies on the ultimate realization of free will, and that requires restructuring the way you think and use attention. It happens on a gradient. You'll only know what you're doing as you're doing it, and the closer you get things start to appear much different than they did before without actually changing.

Wish I could be more articulate, I burned out and I'm basically going off of translated memory.

Psychedelics can get your foot in the door though, but be careful. It's like running a nuclear reactor. Causal relationships become more specific and you have to take care with your actions.

I do think guiding entities are a real thing, and I think they appreciate nascent curiosity like what you have, so they usually begin on your side, but it has to be an active and internally driven process by virtue of what it is, and you don't want to be overly reliant because that runs contrary to the point of self-realization. You will also have to defend yourself against weird shit, but you have to do it intelligently.

Feel free to dismiss as schizobabble, idk just my experiences.

What's impossible? I'm confused by the first sentence, but the rest of your post is good. :)

 

[SovietSuicide]

Predictable response... I'm not challenging what you've experienced, if you say you've seen mantis aliens, I believe you. I think you may have drawn the wrong inferences from those experiences though, that is what I don't agree with.

I prefer to think of life as more of a game than a simulation. I think of this world as a kind of mini-game inside a greater game, which could be called the Infinite Game, although in the case of human life, the game seems rigged and perhaps we are all losers.

I disagree that we are "pure consciousness". In an ultimate sense everything is consciousness, maybe I could agree with that, but in the case of human beings our consciousness is extremely filtered and impure. And yes, we are limited by our intelligence.

I've done DMT, I haven't met the mantis aliens, but I've seen plenty of other stuff. lol



What's impossible? I'm confused by the first sentence, but the rest of your post is good. :)

Yeah that's fine I'm not being defensive I'm just saying from my perspective it's something I know, I have direct experience of it. Literally you can believe whatever you want you don't have my experiences so ofc that's what you will do anyway.

As far as you've done DMT and haven't met mantises, I promise you have, they're always there they just don't always make themselves obvious. If you want to see/communicate just keep taking more hits/increase dosage. It's a guarantee when the dose is high enough. Everything people see on DMT is curated in the moment by a mantis.

 

[Bitch With An Apple]

What's impossible? I'm confused by the first sentence, but the rest of your post is good. :)

Permanent reality shifting, I guess? I don't know, "it". The big it .

It's like this, and it's extremely smart (says so right there in the url) so it is 100% factual and true:

How to Fly, by Douglas Adams

 

[floatingair]

Here's my point of view: We are not the body. We are the awareness or consciousness. This reality is like a dream. When you go and dream at night? you are entering another body. Another reality. When I lucid dream, I vividly remember eating foods. That dream while I'm there is objective, while this reality is subjective. When I come back here its switched.

If you look and research enough, you'll come to this truth as well.
Salvia for instance takes the consciousness around and lets them experience other bodies. Some people have lived entire lifetimes as people.
DMT takes your consciousnesses to other dimensions. Even LSD and Mushrooms can do that at high enough doses / with the knowledge required.
Research NDEs, Quantum immortality.
We are not the body: Look into remote viewing, lucid dreaming, astral projection.

So yes, I am putting off CTB in hopes to do this myself. Put my awareness into another dream, because we are in a dream. I'll be trying psychedelics soon. I don't want to CTB and hurt my family. Because everyone in this world is a piece of consciousness, just like you, they are on their own journey. This world is like a multiplayer video game. You can close the game and leave. That's your awareness going elsewhere. That doesn't mean your family isn't playing it though, they still are, and on their end, your character is still alive and moving. If you CTB, that's like killing your character. So now he doesn't exist for everyone else playing the game anymore.

Also SovietSuicide, I think that's a very negative view of reality that you don't need. You should try LSD, Mushrooms, and do DMT with a more open view. You can experience anything you want. If you want to believe that mantis people are harvesting you, you can experience that if you want if you focus on it. Instead, your consciousness is just going to their location. They are all consciousness like yourself, they are just experiencing another dream in another body. Why do you think people that are controlling reality would bother to show people information and help them, show them love etc?

 

[ForgetIExist]

Also, human spirituality is very much tied in with our sexuality, and I regard our sex drives as a form of ironic divine punishment, so it's not an escape or a get out of jail free card. If anything, the more genuinely spiritual you are, the more you can probably expect to suffering

Just curious, what's your opinion on people who are asexual? I'm cupid romantic (Asexual/Aromantic but don't wanna be) and I'm m curious on what you think this means.

 

[OzymandiAsh]

Just curious, what's your opinion on people who are asexual? I'm cupid romantic (Asexual/Aromantic but don't wanna be) and I'm m curious on what you think this means.

Not sure because it is so unusual. I would guess that you are superior and better off in some ways, while also being less spiritual and less creative on the whole, but that's only a guess.

 

[ForgetIExist]

Not sure because it is so unusual. I would guess that you are superior and better off in some ways, while also being less spiritual and less creative on the whole, but that's only a guess.

You're not wrong on those two accounts