I'm already dead..

[thovens]

Living alone in a 20 square meters apartment. No job, no friends and a bad relationship with my parents. I survive with a small amount of money that the state gives me because of my situation. The only reason that makes me go out is the supermarket. Except for this I never step out of my apartment. It's 3 o'clock at night. At the moment, the only light in this hole comes from my mobile phone. I'm having bad thoughts and I try not to cry. How on earth can this be called "life"? I want an end to this torture. I'm already dead and I don't know it.

 

[Elle]

Hope you find peace
Always here

 

[nomennescio]

Loneliness is so painful and a killer honestly..
Wishing you strength

 

[thovens]

I wish there was a button to push it and die instantly. I want so much to jump out of the window but I don't have the balls to do it.

 

[nomennescio]

Yea, just a button and boom everything stops. Dying is hard man, somewhat peaceful and easy seemingly impossible. Survival instinct sucks lol. Plus the whole way our society looks at it and forces people to do horrendous shit to get peace.

 

[Elle]

Hugs

 

[brutal]

Living alone in a 20 square meters apartment. No job, no friends and a bad relationship with my parents. I survive with a small amount of money that the state gives me because of my situation. The only reason that makes me go out is the supermarket. Except for this I never step out of my apartment. It's 3 o'clock at night. At the moment, the only light in this hole comes from my mobile phone. I'm having bad thoughts and I try not to cry. How on earth can this be called "life"? I want an end to this torture. I'm already dead and I don't know it.

Which method you will use?

 

[outrider567]

Living alone in a 20 square meters apartment. No job, no friends and a bad relationship with my parents. I survive with a small amount of money that the state gives me because of my situation. The only reason that makes me go out is the supermarket. Except for this I never step out of my apartment. It's 3 o'clock at night. At the moment, the only light in this hole comes from my mobile phone. I'm having bad thoughts and I try not to cry. How on earth can this be called "life"? I want an end to this torture. I'm already dead and I don't know it.

That's the only reason I go out too, to go to the supermarket

 

[thovens]

Which method you will use?

I'm not sure yet.

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand that it's so torturous feeling trapped here in this dreadful existence, I hate how suicide is purposely made so difficult for people, it's just so incredibly cruel to me how we cannot easily escape from all the suffering in peace. But anyway I hope that you eventually find what you search for, best wishes.