Venting im all alone

[no1absolfan]

my friends dont invite me anywhere.
im autistic so i struggle with making new friends.
my last partner cheated on me. i dont want to date again, it'll be unfair on them because im planning to end my life soon.

i wonder if i plan my bday, how many people will flake out like last year?

im getting the supplies next payday.
i've decided not to write a will. all my stuff is a free for all.

i want to reach out. but im scared. i think i'd rather die.

 

[COP2CON]

I don't know you but we have a lot in common. Reaching out is hard but for the opportunity of maybe some happiness, wouldn't it be worth it? One thing I learned is sometimes you have to reach out more than once to different people. It sucks and is scary but I don't want you to go. People suck. People really suck but there are good ones, its just about going and finding them. Also its like exercising, the results arnt immediate and take some work. I'm sorry your struggling and hurting. I'm right there with you and just know someone cares, even if its just me. I hope that brings you just a little peace.

 

[Slark]

I also have autism and difficulty making friends. Sometimes I feel good being alone. If you want to talk, you can always call me. I hope you're doing well.

 

[Shiitake]

Nearly impossible unless the other person is a weirdo, i lucked out and got a new friend irl after 3 years, but now they left me, and maybe becoming parasocial on a forum like this is weird, but know there are many friends to be had on the internet, so dont worry.
I dont see a point of being miserable until the day you leave this world, enjoy your time here, and get some internet friends who are like minded.