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- Apr 30, 2026
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even though i feel so guilty for being here still, even though every waking moment is going to be a nightmare, last night ended a lot differently than i thought it would. it was one of the best nights ive had in a long time. a long, long time. ive not changed my mind, about ending my life. im pushing the date. she asked me to come and stay the night with her. to make sure i was safe. i said yes. i was held all night and i broke down and told her everything and she let me know, there are no solutions for what ive gone through, for fixing the past, for not being good enough for her for them for anyone, but she said just a little longer, because its never too late.
Got up in the middle of the night to go hang myself in her bathroom. but she spoke to me. asked me to come back to bed, she said its never too late. she held my head and kept me from getting up again.
im alive. im so mad and angry that i am alive that a monster like me can continue to live. and exist.
but its never too late.
Got up in the middle of the night to go hang myself in her bathroom. but she spoke to me. asked me to come back to bed, she said its never too late. she held my head and kept me from getting up again.
im alive. im so mad and angry that i am alive that a monster like me can continue to live. and exist.
but its never too late.
