Im alive

[Jisatsu]

I woke up covered in blood again. I'm bandaged up and in recovery.
I trying hanging myself so much...

 

[brokenspirited]

You must have suffered unimaginably. The world is so cruel. I hope you're able to recover without any long-term damage, and find relief for your pain, whatever it may be.

 

[Wolf Girl]

I remember those days. I'm sorry, OP. I hope you can find some peace today.

 

[EmptyBottle]

I woke up covered in blood again. I'm bandaged up and in recovery.
I trying hanging myself so much...

oh :|
Hope conditions somehow improve.

Spoiler: Reference chart of conditions

Reference chart of conditions (for me), maybe it is helpful for others to know of? :
Very nice - (not sure what is very nice, maybe resting peacefully with cat)
Nice - Spending time with cat this afternoon
Reasonable - Browsing web, doing VM labs for uni
Boring - Watching online lecture from within uni
Mildly annoying - Attempting a confusing task for uni (last semester)
Annoying - Teacher being too unwell to show up leading to me missing a "conflicting" catch up class, and dreading what comes next
Quite annoying - Random arguments irl (can vary from mildly to quite annoying)
Painful - (not happened to me... tho chronic pain, and moderate ME/CFS)
Nightmarish - (not happened to me either... severe chronic pain, unable to leave bed from ME/CFS)

 

[bananaolympus]

yes it is way harder to die than we think

 

[opheliaoveragain]

sending love to you friend. here if you need an ear.

 

[unluckysadness]

I wish you the peace you deserve. It's so cruel to survive with disability. Hugs to you beautiful soul

 

[33K1LLM3]

I'm so fucking sorry for you OP. I'm really sorry about how this has worked out for you. I hope that things will work out for you in the future <3