Im alive after ingesting 20g of SN

[FuneralCry]

That sounds like such a horrific experience. Failing ctb is what I fear, it's awful how methods can potentially go wrong and just cause us to suffer more. I hate how hard and complicated it can be to die, we really shouldn't have to struggle so much to be free from this world.

 

[stilhavinightmares]

I am so beyond sorry your experience turned out like this. I hope you are feeling physically better very soon. I cannot even imagine the hell you're going through. What do you think went wrong? Just not enough SN in your system from the vomiting so soon after ingestion?

 

[jessisme]

I wonder if it was a combination of not having enough SN to start with and then not taking a second dose of SN after you vomited. I am overweight and will be taking 35 g of SN when I ctb because that is what is recommended for a person of my size. Do you consider yourself overweight at all? I wonder if this might have contributed. Not trying to be rude, just trying to get to the bottom of what might have gone wrong here so it doesn't happen to the rest of us. Thank you for sharing and I'm so sorry that this happened. It sounds scary and awful.

 

[purplehearted]

Omg, i'm so sorry that happened to you. Now i'm scared of using SN Thank you for letting us know though. i hope you are okay and find peace

 

[lotus11]

are you sure your SN is pure?

how can we be sure of this?

 

[Venus13]

I hope you get some much needed rest today for your mind and body. Thank you for updating us and sharing your difficult experience.

 

[gomenasai]

I'm sorry you went through this. I'm wondering what could have gone wrong. Maybe sipping it slowly and not having the second glass ready. I hope you get well soon. Thank you for keeping us updated.

 

[MovingOn]

I'm sorry you went through that and I thank you for sharing your experience.

 

[Jarni]

Very sad for you, you already was in such a suffering... If you can find methylene blue (it is freely selling online), hope it will help to you to recover faster from your pains. Just dose it wisely, please, methylene blue is not very safe for the health. Please also take activated charcoal and other detox mesures you have access to. Smth other to help and support your liver and kidneys.
Thank you very much for detailing your history for us, in your difficult situation it must not be easy at all. Take care

 

[DreamEnd]

Did you take a second cup after vomiting?

 

[gomenasai]

Also if you have ascorbic acid (vitamin C) at hand it can help you get better sooner.

 

[Doom]

how can we be sure of this?

blood test. Just leave a bit of sn in a blood sample and if it turns dark brown it's pure.

 

[leeloosnow]

thank you for sharing your experience with us here <3 big hugs to ya, and hopefully a speedy recovery and brighter future. this is my method as well, there is a chart posted on here somewhere that indicates a bit higher amount (in grams) according to body weight. i'm 75kg, so i will likely take ~25g.

https://i.sanctioned-suicide.net/images/2022/02/144809_98010_1581882888100.png

 

[stilhavinightmares]

thank you for sharing your experience with us here <3 big hugs to ya, and hopefully a speedy recovery and brighter future. this is my method as well, there is a chart posted on here somewhere that indicates a bit higher amount (in grams) according to body weight. i'm 75kg, so i will likely take ~25g.

https://i.sanctioned-suicide.net/images/2022/02/144809_98010_1581882888100.png

Thank you so much for sharing this. I'm going to make sure I take well over what I need to because I have a weak stomach and see myself vomiting.

 

[Enemy of Evolution]

This was at 4am.
After I drank my SN mix. I immediately laid down. I watched my TV for about 10 minutes. Then the horror...I of course, vomited profusely. Yes, I took antiemetics. I laid back down. I could feel my body start to shut down. I remember breathing in agony. I got up and remember slumping half on the bed. My legs were on the floor. I managed to pull myself on the bed. I was face down screaming in agony for 10 minutes, realizing my body was shutting down. My whole body got stiff. I remember being drenched with sweat. I peed myself too. Then I blacked out and woke up 4 hours later. I vomited profusely for a good hour. Tried taking a shower. I was very dizzy.

I still am pretty dizzy with a horrible headache. I quit dry heaving at 9pm. I threw up/dry heaved at least 2 or 3 times an hour today. My body hurts like crazy.
Happy fucking birthday to me...all of that just to be back in this living hell.

I am now afraid to use SN. I can't afford failed attempt of suicide. I know if I fail I will never do it again. I have to I have to make sure 200% guaranteed success on my first attempt. Sorry for your pain.

This is what I looked like 4 hours after waking up. My lips are still pretty blue and my fingernails are also. (I edited my pic so nobody could identify me)

I am sorry. What the f..k is happening on earth. Why aren't we are allowed to exit peacefully. Is this a big demand. I am not asking for money or loan or stars or bmw. A peaceful death. Why is it not allowed easily.

thank you for sharing your experience with us here <3 big hugs to ya, and hopefully a speedy recovery and brighter future. this is my method as well, there is a chart posted on here somewhere that indicates a bit higher amount (in grams) according to body weight. i'm 75kg, so i will likely take ~25g.

https://i.sanctioned-suicide.net/images/2022/02/144809_98010_1581882888100.png

So you are taking 5 gram extra beyond the recommended in photo. I am 82 kg. Should I have to take 30 gram??

 

[Lost Magic]

This has got to be one of the saddest SN experiences I have ever heard of, and I have been on here for quite some time. Sorry, you had to endure such misery.

 

[HermitLonerGuy]

This is what I looked like 4 hours after waking up. My lips are still pretty blue and my fingernails are also. (I edited my pic so nobody could identify me)

i could be wrong here but in my opinion this is a bad sign, i assume maybe it could cause permenant damage maybe not death, but since body parts are turning blue maybe this could cause a blood clot or stop blood flow to certain areas and cause necrosis.

again i could be wrong and im not trying to scared u but i have fears on this for you, please someone can advise this?

imo she should go to the ER as a preventative measure.

 

[leeloosnow]

Thank you so much for sharing this. I'm going to make sure I take well over what I need to because I have a weak stomach and see myself vomiting.

i recall reading somewhere that doses overly excessive of what's needed to ctb are advised against because its higher chance to induce vomiting. i will stay slightly above whats needed for my weight, but will def use benzos/ae. i think OP's experience may be partially because of ingesting over a longer time duration. also, vitamin C (ascorbic acid) is a known antidote to SN poisoning, fwiw. not having any OJ that morning :P

 

[Mofreeko]

So I went through your messages and you said you prepared a glass of 30grams, sipped it, then you drank half of it and then you made another post saying you failed with 20 grams? So you made a 30gram glass, drank half of it and then drank an entire 20 grams glass? Something isn't adding up.

 

[stilhavinightmares]

i recall reading somewhere that doses overly excessive of what's needed to ctb are advised against because its higher chance to induce vomiting. i will stay slightly above whats needed for my weight, but will def use benzos/ae. i think OP's experience may be partially because of ingesting over a longer time duration. also, vitamin C (ascorbic acid) is a known antidote to SN poisoning, fwiw. not having any OJ that morning :P

I had seen that about excessively high doses as well but I figure if enough gets in systemically the vomiting won't matter. Either way, a few cups!

 

[leeloosnow]

I had seen that about excessively high doses as well but I figure if enough gets in systemically the vomiting won't matter. Either way, a few cups!

 

[IntelligentLeg]

I've been drinking OJ all morning. I took vitamins too.

 

[Mofreeko]

I'm just trying to understand what went wrong.

Here's what you said in a previous post:

"It's just very salty. Doesn't burn on the way down. I didn't drink all of the 30gram SN 60ml H2o drink I made. I took a good sip.
Just posting for anyone who wants to know if it burns." - So you took a sip of 30 grams.

"I'm sipping my SN. My blood pressure is in fact lowering. I have high blood pressure. The SN is very very gross. I'm trying to just remain calm.
I've already drank half of my SN. No wonder people throw it up. It's pretty unbearable
I just burped and it smells/tastes like chlorine like pool water.
I am chewing peppermint gum to help it but it's not doing much" - So at this point you've drank half of your 30grams glass.

Here's what you said in this post:

"Ok so yeah I took that sip. Then weighed what I had left. Which turned out to be 20g. I actually drank the rest a few hours afterwards. I drank the SN at night time. I didn't drink any at all after I drank the rest at 4am." - So you weighed out another 20 grams and drank it? You're now, according to your posts, at 35 grams. Sure you vomited but you didn't vomit until 10 minutes after the 20 grams glass. That's a long time to hold that much SN without needing to go to hospital. Can you explain this better? What's going on?

 

[IntelligentLeg]

When I vomited the SN I was so disoriented I couldn't stand up or anything. I really don't see how people can actually get another cup of SN down. I really don't see how it's possible. At that point, I was slumped and my body felt like it was basically dying.

 

[Mofreeko]

When I vomited the SN I was so disoriented I couldn't stand up or anything. I really don't see how people can actually get another cup of SN down. I really don't see how it's possible. At that point, I was slumped and my body felt like it was basically dying.

You said you drank half of a 30 grams cup, then made a 20 grams cup and drank it. So how much did you actually take?

 

[IntelligentLeg]

Then I remember somehow getting all the way on the bed and my body turning stiff like a board. I really don't see how people are able to drink another one after the first one.

 

[tyasma]

I don't want to be mean, but are you sure that what you have is Sodium Nitrite and NOT Sodium Nitrate(!) ?
It seems absurd for someone to drink that much SN and survive, also staying conscious for the time you did while sipping/drinking it in the other thread.
If it was Nitrate, then my guess is it'd make more sense, especially because a very small fraction of the Nitrate you swallow will still turn into Nitrite.
I'm very curious.

 

[grosz]

After my SN test I took ibuprofen for 2 days, can recommend you this. And also drink lots of water now, your stomach needs to get washed from the SN thats left. Also you need more electrolites after all that vomiting.
By the way, have you fasted before ingesting SN?

 

[SamTam33]

I'd be fucking livid if I woke up after this. I'd lose my mind in the most literal sense. I know myself and I'd start trying to kill myself with anything I could find. Scissors, knives, rope. SMH.

Failing my next attempt would destroy me.

OP, didn't you mention that your SN arrived capped, but with no seal?

If so, this is the second instance of unsealed SN* causing the person to throw up and feel shitty I've come across in the last few days. I don't know if it's a coincidence or a pattern.

*Not talking about the recipient unsealing it - but it arriving with no seal, like from CCS.

 

[IntelligentLeg]

After my SN test I took ibuprofen for 2 days, can recommend you this. And also drink lots of water now, your stomach needs to get washed from the SN thats left. Also you need more electrolites after all that vomiting.
By the way, have you fasted before ingesting SN?

I fasted for 12 hours. That should have been okay. Yeah I'm taking tylonel, chugging OJ and taking vitamins.

I'd be fucking livid if I woke up after this. I'd lose my mind in the most literal sense. I know myself and I'd start trying to kill myself with anything I could find. Scissors, knives, rope. SMH.

Failing my next attempt would destroy me.

OP, didn't you mention that your SN arrived capped, but with no seal?

If so, this is the second instance of unsealed SN causing the person to throw up and feel shitty I've come across in the last few days. I don't know if it's a coincidence or a pattern.

Failing sucks I've failed at partial suspension hanging and now this. It's like why can't I just die already? The SN was from PC. I bought it October 28th

I don't want to be mean, but are you sure that what you have is Sodium Nitrite and NOT Sodium Nitrate(!) ?
It seems absurd for someone to drink that much SN and survive, also staying conscious for the time you did while sipping/drinking it in the other thread.
If it was Nitrate, then my guess is it'd make more sense, especially because a very small fraction of the Nitrate you swallow will still turn into Nitrite.
I'm very curious.

I bought it from PC. Others here said that is, in fact, the realy deal.