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IntelligentLeg

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Nov 6, 2022
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This was at 4am.
After I drank my SN mix. I immediately laid down. I watched my TV for about 10 minutes. Then the horror...I of course, vomited profusely. Yes, I took antiemetics. I laid back down. I could feel my body start to shut down. I remember breathing in agony. I got up and remember slumping half on the bed. My legs were on the floor. I managed to pull myself on the bed. I was face down screaming in agony for 10 minutes, realizing my body was shutting down. My whole body got stiff. I remember being drenched with sweat. I peed myself too. Then I blacked out and woke up 4 hours later. I vomited profusely for a good hour. Tried taking a shower. I was very dizzy.

I still am pretty dizzy with a horrible headache. I quit dry heaving at 9pm. I threw up/dry heaved at least 2 or 3 times an hour today. My body hurts like crazy.
Happy fucking birthday to me...all of that just to be back in this living hell.
 
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gwanath

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May 23, 2022
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I'm so sorry you were in such agony. I was unable to go through with the SN and puked after simply having a taste of the mix. Hope you feel better soon.
 
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almaranthine

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Nov 28, 2019
616
reading about your experience is genuinely horrifying I am so sorry you went through this. what happened to you is my worst nightmare with SN, and I'm terrified of something similar happening to me. What antiemetic did you take if you don't mind me asking? Also, were you able to drink a second glass of the solution or no? Again, my sincerest condolences to you. I truly hope you are not in too much physical pain because of this.
 
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conflagration

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I am so sorry it happened to you. Does your anguish came from panic that your body is shutting down, or it was painful in other way?
 
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Darkover

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Jul 29, 2021
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did you weigh out the 20g and did you drink it all
 
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Side-By-Side

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Sep 23, 2022
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My heart aches for you. I am so so so sorry that you had to go through this dreadful experience. I hope that you manage to recover soon.
 
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time_to_go2

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Dec 11, 2022
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This really scares me. I thought SN was not like this.šŸ„²
 
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Doom

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Nov 21, 2022
108
are you sure your SN is pure?
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
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I'm so sorry- this sounds terrifying.

I did see your posts yesterday and I think many of us thought you had succeeded. Please ignore me if you don't feel up to answering questions. I don't mean to sound insensitive- it's just that posts like this are very concerning to those of us considering this method...

I remember you posting you had sipped the 30mg SN in 60ml water at 9am- saying it hadn't burnt your throat. Then drank half the mix at 10am and started feeling the effects. Was it then 4am this morning that you drank the rest of it with all these horrendous symptoms or did it just not kick in till then? Sorry to question so hard. I guess all of us just try to work out why the substance failed when it does. I know nitrite turns into nitrate overtime when exposed to the air (and water I guess.) I've never really known how quickly this happens though. I wonder if that's what happened.

Anyway, I'm so sorry again that you have suffered like this. I hope you make a speedy recovery with no more repurcusions.
 
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IntelligentLeg

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I am so sorry it happened to you. Does your anguish came from panic that your body is shutting down, or it was painful in other way?
It was painful but I think the cries and screaming were from realizing that my body was shutting down. So yes, most likey panic.
are you sure your SN is pure?
Yes, I did the blood test.
 
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Teddybear

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Nov 20, 2021
335
Sorry for asking, but most of the hurt was psychosomatic or was there physical pain, too? All in all, do you think you'd use SN again or was it just too awfull an experience?

I emphasize with you and hope you can get through this, OK.
 
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This is what I looked like 4 hours after waking up. My lips are still pretty blue and my fingernails are also. (I edited my pic so nobody could identify me)
 

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Doom

Student
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Yes, I did the blood test.


I'm afraid to do a blood test because if I open the package, there's a risk that the sn will lose its purity, especially if the package is a bag. When did you take the test?
 
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Teddybear

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Nov 20, 2021
335
I'm afraid to do a blood test because if I open the package, there's a risk that the sn will lose its purity, especially if the package is a bag. When did you take the test?
Get a plastic bottle for chemical compounds from Amazon. They are dirt cheap and seal up air tight.
 
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IntelligentLeg

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Nov 6, 2022
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Sorry for asking, but most of the hurt was psychosomatic or was there physical pain, too? All in all, do you think you'd use SN again or was it just too awfull an experience?

I emphasize with you and hope you can get through this, OK.
I'm going to pass on the SN. Never again for me. I didn't work when it really should have. It has worked for others and probably will continue to work well for other people. I wasn't one of them unfortunately. Also, my whole body hurts like hell. So both mental and physical pain.
 
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IntelligentLeg

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I'm so sorry- this sounds terrifying.

I did see your posts yesterday and I think many of us thought you had succeeded. Please ignore me if you don't feel up to answering questions. I don't mean to sound insensitive- it's just that posts like this are very concerning to those of us considering this method...

I remember you posting you had sipped the 30mg SN in 60ml water at 9am- saying it hadn't burnt your throat. Then drank half the mix at 10am and started feeling the effects. Was it then 4am this morning that you drank the rest of it with all these horrendous symptoms or did it just not kick in till then? Sorry to question so hard. I guess all of us just try to work out why the substance failed when it does. I know nitrite turns into nitrate overtime when exposed to the air (and water I guess.) I've never really known how quickly this happens though. I wonder if that's what happened.

Anyway, I'm so sorry again that you have suffered like this. I hope you make a speedy recovery with no more repurcusions.
Ok so yeah I took that sip. Then weighed what I had left. Which turned out to be 20g. I actually drank the rest a few hours afterwards. I drank the SN at night time. I didn't drink any at all after I drank the rest at 4am.
Ok so yeah I took that sip. Then weighed what I had left. Which turned out to be 20g. I actually drank the rest a few hours afterwards. I drank the SN at night time. I didn't drink any at all after I drank the rest at 4am.
I had my SN in an airtight bag. I bought the SN from PC October 28th.
 
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Teddybear

Teddybear

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Nov 20, 2021
335
that sounds good. Do you know if I can use sn even after expiration date?
SN is a salt, not a biologically active substance. As long as you keep it dry and out of UV light it should last for decades.
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
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Ok so yeah I took that sip. Then weighed what I had left. Which turned out to be 20g. I actually drank the rest a few hours afterwards. I drank the SN at night time. I didn't drink any at all after I drank the rest at 4am.

I had my SN in an airtight bag. I bought the SN from PC October 28th.
Thanks for replying. God, how awful. I'm so sorry you went through all this. What a nightmare. I hope you feel better soon.
 
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lionetta12

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I guess this is why having another backup glass of 25 mg so 50 in total could be a good idea, seems to be strong enough.
 
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Doom

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Nov 21, 2022
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I guess this is why having another backup glass of 25 mg so 50 in total could be a good idea, seems to be strong enough.

for the condition she describes, I don't think she would be able to have another glass
 
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Wunderkind

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Nov 25, 2022
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Could the reason for your failure be that you didn't drink all the SN in one gulp? Sorry for such a rude question ... But I would not want to go through what you went through .... I sincerely feel sorry for you
 
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Fulminare

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Feb 20, 2022
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Is there anyone in your life that can take care of you? I am so sorry you had to go through that. An attempted suicide and a near death experience all at once - please give yourself plenty of rest if you can.
 
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UKscotty

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May 20, 2021
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SN and most other chemicals like N are so unreliable, I don't know why so many recommended them. I think people suggesting them are just sickos, too much to go wrong.

There are much quicker and reliable methods.
 
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Fulminare

Read Thomas Szasz!
Feb 20, 2022
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SN and most other chemicals like N are so unreliable, I don't know why so many recommended them. I think people suggesting them are just sickos, too much to go wrong.

There are much quicker and reliable methods.
What other methods are you speaking of?
 
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byebyered

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Mar 9, 2022
67
Fuckā€¦this was going to be my method..scared now. I'm sorry you went through this OP.
 
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Wunderkind

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Nov 25, 2022
194
SN and most other chemicals like N are so unreliable, I don't know why so many recommended them. I think people suggesting them are just sickos, too much to go wrong.

There are much quicker and reliable methods.
For example? Excluding firearms
 
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lionetta12

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Aug 5, 2022
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for the condition she describes, I don't think she would be able to have another glass
Yea, would be too little time I think as well in between the 2 glasses.
 
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Someone123

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Oct 19, 2021
3,876
SN and most other chemicals like N are so unreliable, I don't know why so many recommended them. I think people suggesting them are just sickos, too much to go wrong.

There are much quicker and reliable methods.
This is what I was worried about when she said she was sipping this- I think doing this all at once and having a follow-up glass ready helps improve chances.
 
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ksp

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Oct 1, 2022
435
i hope you get better soon, and thanks for keeping us informed
 
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