I'm afraid of dying but I'm sure it's the only way. Does anyone know where to get a suicide bag?

[1amdone]

I am 23 years old and want to know some painless way to end my suffering. The main reason why I feel this way is that I have plagiocephaly, my face is deformed and it looks weird and crooked, I can't stand it. I went to several doctors, but they couldn't help me. I stay locked up at home for a long time, I don't appear anywhere in public and I end up going crazy. I hate myself and I hate this unfair world and I see only one way to end this endless pain. I actually didn't even realize what was wrong with my face before, even though I got comments from other people, but I just didn't think about it because I didn't think anything was wrong, but when I did, my life fell apart in that moment and I still feel that way. I also have erectile dysfunction, which doctors have also been unable to cure. My life has no future and is endless misery, I'm sure of it. I'm very afraid of dying, it's probably some human instinct that keeps me from taking any measures, but I can't live like this anymore. A lot of tears have been shed, even now as I write the tears are piling up. It's very frustrating that I can't enjoy the life I once dreamed of. I'm angry at the whole world for being so unfair, but I can't change anything. I see only one way out.

 

[steve_s5]

Much better than suicide bag less suffocation quick and fast.

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/inert-gas-with-diving-equipment-helium-or-nitrogen.94626/

 

[FuneralCry]

I think that there is probably information about this in the resources section, and I think that there is a mega thread as well. I do not know much about that method personally. Once you have a few more posts you will be able to access the search function so you can search for what you need to know.
Life is certainly unfair and I'm sorry that you have to endure so much suffering. It is sad how life drives people to this point. It does seem as though in this life there is no escape from pain. I hope that in whatever happens, you find relief. I wish you the best.

 

[outrider567]

I am 23 years old and want to know some painless way to end my suffering. The main reason why I feel this way is that I have plagiocephaly, my face is deformed and it looks weird and crooked, I can't stand it. I went to several doctors, but they couldn't help me. I stay locked up at home for a long time, I don't appear anywhere in public and I end up going crazy. I hate myself and I hate this unfair world and I see only one way to end this endless pain. I actually didn't even realize what was wrong with my face before, even though I got comments from other people, but I just didn't think about it because I didn't think anything was wrong, but when I did, my life fell apart in that moment and I still feel that way. I also have erectile dysfunction, which doctors have also been unable to cure. My life has no future and is endless misery, I'm sure of it. I'm very afraid of dying, it's probably some human instinct that keeps me from taking any measures, but I can't live like this anymore. A lot of tears have been shed, even now as I write the tears are piling up. It's very frustrating that I can't enjoy the life I once dreamed of. I'm angry at the whole world for being so unfair, but I can't change anything. I see only one way out.

You can't get an Exit Bag online, they're illegal, you must make your own--But you can get an EEBD hood as they talk about on the Inert Gas Exit Bag Megathread

 

[magick'sgone]

I am 23 years old and want to know some painless way to end my suffering. The main reason why I feel this way is that I have plagiocephaly, my face is deformed and it looks weird and crooked, I can't stand it. I went to several doctors, but they couldn't help me. I stay locked up at home for a long time, I don't appear anywhere in public and I end up going crazy. I hate myself and I hate this unfair world and I see only one way to end this endless pain. I actually didn't even realize what was wrong with my face before, even though I got comments from other people, but I just didn't think about it because I didn't think anything was wrong, but when I did, my life fell apart in that moment and I still feel that way. I also have erectile dysfunction, which doctors have also been unable to cure. My life has no future and is endless misery, I'm sure of it. I'm very afraid of dying, it's probably some human instinct that keeps me from taking any measures, but I can't live like this anymore. A lot of tears have been shed, even now as I write the tears are piling up. It's very frustrating that I can't enjoy the life I once dreamed of. I'm angry at the whole world for being so unfair, but I can't change anything. I see only one way out.

Hi mate, just wanted to say that I'm in a very similar situation and know exactly how you feel. It fucking sucks to feel like you need to die even when you don't actually want to die. I know the pain of being the weird face in a sea of normal ones. Even the "ugly" people stay within the parameters of human form. The erectile dysfunction is probably a result of you feeling unattractive and undesirable. Sadly, I have no solutions for you. Just wanted to say, you're not alone. I've been treading water on doing myself in for a while now. I just keep hoping a get a brain aneurism or something. Never happens.

 

[1amdone]

Much better than suicide bag less suffocation quick and fast.

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/inert-gas-with-diving-equipment-helium-or-nitrogen.94626/

Is there any step by step tutorial somewhere and where to get all the required equipment? Don't really want to mess this one up for obvious reasons. I'm new to this forum so I don't quite know where to look.

 

[steve_s5]

Is there any step by step tutorial somewhere and where to get all the required equipment? Don't really want to mess this one up for obvious reasons. I'm new to this forum so I don't quite know where to look.

I cannot send you a PM send me one i give you the guide

 

[KQuotientW]

You might want to read Carly Findlay's blog and her FB page. She has Icthyosis and has openly talked about it. She is a big supporter of facial difference acceptance. Carly has helped many with facial difference, or disabilities, feel more positive about themselves. It's not difference that's the problem, it's other people's rude attitudes. I don't have your lived experience; I do have people staring at me because of my disability which means I use a mobility aid (rollator-walker). I was born with a genetic, degenerative disability. About a month ago, when I was entering a department store, a man stared at me, then laughed at me. I'm not doing anything wrong and my disabilities don't make me less than any other person in that store. He's the loser, not me. I get stared at a lot and in my small, insular, tiny, country town, it's their ignorance and not me. I had to learn that I'm not less than anyone else and that it's other people's rudeness, not me. I hope others reading this learn that their attitudes are what makes us suffer, more than the difference or, in my case, disability itself. Fk what other people think You're awesome just the way you are.

Edited: because my phone added a word and likes to autocorrect things.

 

[wanttodie]

whats a suicide bag?

 

[locked*n*loaded]

May I ask you a personal question. If not, that's OK and I understand. Just ignore what follows.

Is there any reason why your parents didn't have your plagiocephaly treated while you were a baby?

 

[1amdone]

May I ask you a personal question. If not, that's OK and I understand. Just ignore what follows.

Is there any reason why your parents didn't have your plagiocephaly treated while you were a baby?

In fact, I think that when I was little, this problem was not so serious, maybe not even noticeable, because when I look at my childhood photos, everything seems to be normal but I'm not sure since I don't have many photos from my childhood. I think my skull was deformed due to the way I slept growing up. Even all indications seem to be that this is the case, as I have always slept on my stomach and on the same side of my face. Maybe it wouldn't even be called plagiocephaly in the medical term, I'm not sure, but the result is still the same. I wouldn't say it's a severe case, more like a medium one, but it's noticeable to people and that's enough for me. My parents are really very caring and I love and respect them a lot, so that's one of the big reasons why I don't want to do it, because I know it would affect them badly, but I can't live only for them, so I keep trying to convince them, for them to come to terms with the idea, because sooner or later it will happen anyway. They are trying their best to help me in this difficult time, but I'm almost out of options, there is only one left.

 

[outrider567]

whats a suicide bag?

He means 'Exit Bag', a plastic bag used for Nitrogen CTB--

 

[locked*n*loaded]

In fact, I think that when I was little, this problem was not so serious, maybe not even noticeable, because when I look at my childhood photos, everything seems to be normal but I'm not sure since I don't have many photos from my childhood. I think my skull was deformed due to the way I slept growing up. Even all indications seem to be that this is the case, as I have always slept on my stomach and on the same side of my face. Maybe it wouldn't even be called plagiocephaly in the medical term, I'm not sure, but the result is still the same. I wouldn't say it's a severe case, more like a medium one, but it's noticeable to people and that's enough for me. My parents are really very caring and I love and respect them a lot, so that's one of the big reasons why I don't want to do it, because I know it would affect them badly, but I can't live only for them, so I keep trying to convince them, for them to come to terms with the idea, because sooner or later it will happen anyway. They are trying their best to help me in this difficult time, but I'm almost out of options, there is only one left.

The brief reading I did on plagiocephaly does say it is usually from positioning in the womb, from positioning in one place for too long. Maybe how you slept as an adolescent aggravated your condition some and made things worse? IDK I would never have been able to have a conversation with my parents telling them that I felt the need for suicide. I can't imagine how that would have went over. You are lucky that you have some great parents that are trying to help you through your darkest times. It's good to have support.