Venting I'm gonna say it, I wish I'd be broken up with so I can commit already.

[chasingfireflies]

Basically title. I can't do it when I'm with him, its unfair. When I'm suicidal I wish he would break up with me so I can end myself. Sometimes I even think of a scenario where I initiate the break up so I can finally commit later. The only thing holding me back is the fact that he's the only person in my life who makes it worth living. Still, those suicidal moments really get to me, I feel like I'm condemned to a life of pain and suffering and want to escape it so badly. Anyone relate?

 

[ChainedCrow]

Dont feel guilty for wanting to CTB because of how horrible life has been to you. Unfortunetly for a lot of people there are people who are important to us but u shouldnt feel guilty for wanting to chose your own peace, u cant live for someone else its too shallow and people should understand that u had no way out of the nightmare your life has been. Much love and good luck with whatever u chose to do in the future