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paroxysm

paroxysm

I Felt Nothing
Sep 17, 2023
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i ordered razor blades and pills and they come today. my sister thinks i am applying for jobs but i'm not sure if i should actually submit them since i am going to CTB very soon. anyone have any tips? i have made sure no one knows my plans and what i'm doing.
 
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Oct 11, 2023
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i ordered razor blades and pills and they come today. my sister thinks i am applying for jobs but i'm not sure if i should actually submit them since i am going to CTB very soon. anyone have any tips? i have made sure no one knows my plans and what i'm doing.
Do you have other options than razor blade? Maybe you could order SN? I don't know your situation though I can't judge you.
 
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Mori praestat, quam haec pati!
May 21, 2023
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I'm sorry that life brought you to this point. It's so awful that you have no other option but blades. I wish you had access to better methods when there's not other way out. I wish u all the best and may you find peace. Good luck!
 
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paroxysm

I Felt Nothing
Sep 17, 2023
117
Do you have other options than razor blade? Maybe you could order SN? I don't know your situation though I can't judge you.
sadly no but i have self harmed before so i know some methods to make a clean cut.
 
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FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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I hope that you find the freedom you search for, best of luck with your plans.
 
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username8888

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Oct 11, 2023
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sadly no but i have self harmed before so i know some methods to make a clean cut.
At least you have good taste because you put Makima in your profile picture.
 
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Bruce

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Sep 22, 2023
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@paroxysm Wow! It's one thing to know the procedure but to have the courage to do this.. You are a very brave person!
 
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