Im a chickenshit

[dust-in-the-wind]

I'm so jealous of anyone that has the guts to cbt. I want to die so badly. My major depressive disorder has me practically bedridden and non functional. I have no will to live but currently lack the courage to cbt. I pray every night that I don't see another day. Mental illness is brutal. Wishing you all peace and love.

 

[davidtorez]

I completely understand how you feel. My own mother ended her life back in 2017 at the age of 61, I admire her courage and wish I could find it in me to end my suffering asap

 

[thenorthern]

I get sick thinking about drinking my SN. It is unfortunate.

 

[dust-in-the-wind]

I completely understand how you feel. My own mother ended her life back in 2017 at the age of 61, I admire her courage and wish I could find it in me to end my suffering asap

I'm a 55f did she suffer from depression?

 

[SpeckofDust]

I totally get it! I was supposed to CBT this morning, but I didn't. I spend 90% of my days lying on the couch or in bed. Depression and chronic pain are sapping all energy and interest. I am going to try again for next Monday morning.

 

[A Dream of a Dream]

I'm in the same club. I ordered SN a short while ago, will see what comes of it. My MDD ultimately took everything from me.

 

[davidtorez]

I'm a 55f did she suffer from depression?

Depression, ridiculous anxiety and panic attacks and came from a broken neglectful family life .

 

[dust-in-the-wind]

I'm in the same club. I ordered SN a short while ago, will see what comes of it. My MDD ultimately took everything from me.

I'm so sorry. MMD has taken all from me as well. No one understands.

I totally get it! I was supposed to CBT this morning, but I didn't. I spend 90% of my days lying on the couch or in bed. Depression and chronic pain are sapping all energy and interest. I am going to try again for next Monday morning.

I'm so sorry you suffer as well. I wish you be best.

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand, I also just wish to be free from all the suffering in this cruel, painful existence, I just hope to never exist again, I'm always wishing to fall into an eternal, dreamless sleep. I certainly get it's so dreadful, torturous and tiring feeling trapped here, but anyway I hope that you find peace.

 

[NegevChina]

I'm so jealous of anyone that has the guts to cbt. I want to die so badly. My major depressive disorder has me practically bedridden and non functional. I have no will to live but currently lack the courage to cbt. I pray every night that I don't see another day. Mental illness is brutal. Wishing you all peace and love.

I so much understand how you feel. I'm 57m, past few months since i lost my job i'm 90% of the time in bed, depressed, understand i must CTB but delaying it each time because i don't have courage. I've got a few health issues that got my childhood CPTSD back out to an unbearable magnitude. I think I will soon jump though.

 

[sevennn]

I get sick thinking about drinking my SN. It is unfortunate.

yes me too

 

[Zanmato]

I'm so jealous of anyone that has the guts to cbt. I want to die so badly. My major depressive disorder has me practically bedridden and non functional. I have no will to live but currently lack the courage to cbt. I pray every night that I don't see another day. Mental illness is brutal. Wishing you all peace and love.

I can completely understand you.
Some days it gets worst and worst, and I really hate that I haven't that courage.

Then, some people say: "It gets better".
Yeah, maybe, until the next relapse, that will surely comes after a few months.
And I wonder: Should I really stay here, alive, in this condition?