Tyra
Pic is from Shawshank Redemption after he escaped.
- Jul 22, 2026
- 213
Because my SI is always finding new fake reasons to live.
So I'm just going to start telling myself that I'll never be fully okay with doing it.
I don't care if I 80% want to CTB. I know deep down it's right for me.
My SI is constantly circling ideas of why I should stay alive. When I finally think it through and realize that it's fake, my SI comes up with a new reason. And it repeats reasons that I realized we're fake before, because I end up forgetting my proofs that it is fake.
So I'm just going to start telling myself that I'll never be fully okay with doing it.
I don't care if I 80% want to CTB. I know deep down it's right for me.
My SI is constantly circling ideas of why I should stay alive. When I finally think it through and realize that it's fake, my SI comes up with a new reason. And it repeats reasons that I realized we're fake before, because I end up forgetting my proofs that it is fake.
