They won't force feed you in a psych ward. Food might not be great but most people's experience I think is boredom and missing some freedoms and conveniences. It can really suck but it won't last forever. Unsuccessfully CTBing will just make you stay for longer, with tighter restrictions, so personally I wouldn't risk it, I think GoodPersonEffed made some good points, you need to take time over all the decisions that you need to make. Doing it while emotional, without thought all round, could lead to very bad places. There are no easy or simple ways to CTB