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Riley [CTBus]

Riley [CTBus]

Wizard
Aug 8, 2020
604
Can we pretend that airplanes in the night sky are like shootin' stars!
I could really use a wish right now, wish right now, wish right now!
 
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xXiloveyouXx

xXiloveyouXx

Nothing at all
Jul 27, 2024
218
previously yes. but now, no. if even the person i loved so much appeared and wanted me back it still wouldnt be enough
 
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Canto XIII

Canto XIII

Bottom of the barrel
Jul 4, 2026
316
I'm broken no matter what happens outside of me. My last crush was already dating a great guy, and honestly it was way better that way.

Love is a strong and domineering emotion, but can often be reigned in by reason.
 
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Bootleg Astolfo

Bootleg Astolfo

Glorious Bean Plushie
Oct 12, 2020
1,219
Can she count ? If yes i'd happily just scam people with her forever.
360
 
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LastNite

LastNite

How come I end up where I started?
Mar 31, 2025
953
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Agnes Tachyon

Agnes Tachyon

dont pm me. i have agoraphobia thx.
Jun 10, 2026
39
it would be a double suicide then.​
 
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notsosillybilly

notsosillybilly

dear princess celestia i wanna kms
Apr 8, 2026
43
if zendaya walked in the room right now and confessed her love to me HELL NAH I'M NOT KILLIN MYSELF 😭
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
15,819
At one time, it likely would have changed everything. More recently though, I've been happy for any crushes I had to be purely fantasy.

I'm so far from normal now. I struggle so immensely to do the things expected of us- get up, wash, work, keep my environment clean and tidy. I'd hate for another human to see it or me. No one in their right mind would want to live like this.

A partner would either be kind and help me tidy or, do it all or, they would become frustrated with me that it was so bad!

Either way, I don't have the energy for all that now. If it means I can rest, I don't mind letting things fall apart. Plus, I'd feel so guilty, ashamed and in their debt if they did it all for me. I'm used to being independent. It feels uncomfortable if/ when people do help.

Having a partner and being fair to them- to my mind would mean a forced recovery- which I'm really not interested in.

Thankfully too- I can sate my romantic needs with my imaginary crushes.

I'm so selfish too. So used to living alone, doing what I want, when. It would be so weird to have someone else to have to consider the whole time/ feel bad if I was inconveniencing them/ become annoyed if I continually had to bend to their will. I'm not convinced that real relationships work. In observing others, one partner was usually being dominated over by the other.
 
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Macedonian1987

Macedonian1987

Just a sad guy from Macedonia.
Oct 22, 2025
1,340
My celebrity crush which sadly passed away many years ago might push back my ctb date for a few years, but I will still do it in the end. Her love would mean a great deal to me, but no matter how hard she tried she wouldn't have been able to cure my health issues.
 
roastedpotato5230

roastedpotato5230

fuĉk it we ball
Jul 5, 2026
33
hell yeah im aro nothings changing
 
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Bitter Almonds

Student
Jan 16, 2026
140
Yeah, probably. No matter who loves me, my problems are bigger than love.
 
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Forveleth

I knew I forgot to do something when I was 15...
Mar 26, 2024
4,977
Yes. I am tired of living regardless of my life situation.
 
buriedinmyhead

buriedinmyhead

If pain can purify the heart, mine will be pure
Mar 24, 2026
222
Yes because I'll never feel good enough, and love won't save me from my genetics
 
HollowSoul

HollowSoul

Member
Apr 14, 2026
96
It would give me something to hold on a bit longer...
 
hughmun9

hughmun9

Experienced
Feb 22, 2023
210
Even if they loved me back I don't think I'm in the mental state to be able to enjoy that and create beautiful moments with them.
 
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