Sadly, yes. My wish isn't to become a part of society that is more privileged. My wish is for my mental and emotional trauma to end. Money won't ever take away the abuse and unlove my mother showed me. It won't remove the pain of abandonment by my father. It won't fill the void of rejection in my life. My wish is for LIFE, everywhere, to get better. My wish is to have REAL, SUBSTANTIAL LOVE in my life. To be able to have children and raise them in a world that is expanding and improving, not dying. I want my own little happily ever after. That doesn't mean a mansion. The money would be nice, but I still live in THIS world. The post-COVID world. A dying world. Air is polluted. Water is undrinkable. Food is killing people. Humans are more unsavory and insufferable than I ever remember. But... I can comfortably go to Target and buy stuff... while society is still functioning.
From my perspective, this whole situation (life) is fucked. Whether you're rich or poor. That fact is starting to rear its ugly head. Look around. Everything is collapsing. Humans are DEVOLVING. Even money is changing. I don't consider being (temporarily) privileged in a hellscape will sway me from my decision. If I could actually achieve a peaceful life with a woman who loves me dearly and sincerely, if I could bring children into a world where they can flourish and actually have a chance to solve problems rather than pass down an unwinnable, futile fight for survival, if I could have a simple life to take care of my family and be a part of an actual, functional community... if the lottery could get me that...
Maybe.