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Umbreon

Umbreon

Weed Addict
Aug 20, 2020
90
not having more sugar daddies when I was hot
 
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filthyrottendirty

Experienced
Feb 20, 2021
222
Not playing a specific game or watching the world cup
 
OnlyWinOnce

OnlyWinOnce

Member
Mar 19, 2022
27
There are many things I regret not doing—but in regards to CTB, not having done it sooner.
 
FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
42,492
I only regret not leaving this world at an earlier age, that is all. It would have prevented a lot of suffering. Apart from that I do not really regret anything as all life is completely meaningless, nothing really matters after all. It does not matter what I did in my life, we will all cease to exist eventually someday.
 
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Journeytoletgo

Broken and hated 7-14 years long overdue
May 14, 2018
1,608
For not finding a way to execute CTB in teens ages 14-19, or to stay away from men period until I sort through bullying and childhood neglect
 
LeavingEarly

LeavingEarly

Specialist
Mar 19, 2022
301
Not staying sober. Wish I had stayed sober because the alcohol and weed dug up some bad under lying mental conditions.
 
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Depressed hamster

Member
Apr 26, 2022
8
A few travels I missed out on, telling my parents and grandma how amazing they were while I lived with them, not breaking up with my boyfriend before I got sick.
 
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JinnDX

Member
Apr 26, 2022
31
Never had a loving relationship in my life m.

I feel like I have missed out on a big essential part of life. I was so close to get one… now I am sick and disabled. Dating will be impossible.
 
kosameAmagai

kosameAmagai

Member
Apr 25, 2022
50
So yeah I'll start as I think I'll ctb in a short while (very likely in less than a month).

I think my biggest regret is not having had one very close connection with someone.

That will be my biggest regret and the reason I would say that I have not lived.

What about you?
probably not watching all the good anime/series out there
 
Fadeawaaaay

Fadeawaaaay

Visionary
Nov 12, 2021
2,160
I regret never finding myself and my purpose
 
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Experienced
Mar 5, 2022
226
Do NOT get me started
 
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DynamicDepression

Deranged
Mar 28, 2022
352
Never getting to hold the person I love.
 
WorthlessTrash

WorthlessTrash

Worthless
Apr 19, 2022
2,429
Maybe not being able to tough it out. Then again, how could I?
 
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outrider567

Visionary
Apr 5, 2022
2,824
No regrets here--I retired young at age 43, almost 25 years ago--More importantly, my long 35 yr relationship with Patti was a Godsend, a really wonderful person and companion who was the best thing that happened to me--Of course the downside is since she suddenly died, I want to die too and I definitely will CTB before this year is out
 
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Hurt

Paragon
Nov 13, 2020
905
Not getting a degree nor having a gf would be my biggest regrets. But I don't care about that anymore I only want to die. It's like my mind is focused on dying and nothing else.
 
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Ashu

Ashu

novelist, sanskritist, Canadian living in India
Nov 13, 2021
761
Not having faced down obsessional fear when it began to afflict me in adolescence. All my other innumerable regrets flow from that one.
 
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ThePhoenix

ThePhoenix

Member
Apr 22, 2022
49
Being such a failure to my family
 
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Jred

Sadness covers me like a blanket.
Apr 26, 2022
33
When I do, I'll still have a whole list of countries I would have loved to visit, at least once.

not having more sugar daddies when I was hot
Dang, now I have this regret too. Bet if I had sugar daddies, I would have traveled all over the world by now.
 
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gottablast888

Student
Apr 15, 2022
171
making my family happy & proud other than that nothing
 
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stupid little girl

always sad
Nov 28, 2019
35
My biggest regret would be having not done anything significant with my life. I don't know. The odds of even living are so small and there were tons of things that could've happened during my mother's pregnancy, my childhood, my teen years, etc. that could've ended my life. Yet, here I am and still I have not done anything worthwhile. So, if I do ctb my biggest regret will have been that I didn't do anything with my life. I wasted my (probably) only chance at life. Everything my ancestors, grandparents, parents, etc. did would have been all for nothing. Well, I guess not entirely. I do have two siblings so they could do something with their lives and carry the torch so to speak. But I am a waste of an opportunity.
 
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locked*n*loaded

locked*n*loaded

Archangel
Apr 15, 2022
8,447
Not getting together with Tanya Memmee and having uninhibited, juicy, squirting all over the place, hot, monkey sex, hands down.
 
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SofterSoftest

SofterSoftest

Student
Dec 30, 2021
186
I wouldn't choose this life and body if I had the opportunity to live again (if being born can be considered a regret). That being said, given the weird/bizarre circumstances of my life, everything has turned out way better than I ever imagined. It's still not enough for me to not want to CTB, but I don't have any regrets. I will probably regret CTB because of the damage it will cause people in my life, but beyond that, I don't think I could have done anything differently given what I was dealt with.
 
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locked*n*loaded

Archangel
Apr 15, 2022
8,447
My biggest regret would be having not done anything significant with my life. I don't know. The odds of even living are so small and there were tons of things that could've happened during my mother's pregnancy, my childhood, my teen years, etc. that could've ended my life. Yet, here I am and still I have not done anything worthwhile. So, if I do ctb my biggest regret will have been that I didn't do anything with my life. I wasted my (probably) only chance at life. Everything my ancestors, grandparents, parents, etc. did would have been all for nothing. Well, I guess not entirely. I do have two siblings so they could do something with their lives and carry the torch so to speak. But I am a waste of an opportunity.
Actually, that sounds like being a survivor to me.
 
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stupid little girl

always sad
Nov 28, 2019
35
Actually, that sounds like being a survivor to me.
Eh, I wouldn't call it being a survivor. I don't mind if you do though. I look at it as I was lucky enough to be born, but unlucky enough to end up in the position I'm in.
 
locked*n*loaded

locked*n*loaded

Archangel
Apr 15, 2022
8,447
Eh, I wouldn't call it being a survivor. I don't mind if you do though. I look at it as I was lucky enough to be born, but unlucky enough to end up in the position I'm in.
Huh, I think every day we stick around in our despair, our misery, our hopelessness, we are survivors.
 
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S like Siren

Enlightened
Apr 29, 2021
1,556
I think my biggest regret is not having had one very close connection with someone.

Also not throwing myself into a hobby or passion when I was little. Would have been interesting to see it blossom. Possibly gain some confidence from it.

I regret not having found true love during my life.

Being in true love. I was in several relationships but they were not even close to the love.

Also just never truly feeling at peace and pure happiness and relaxation. I just see so many people that appear to be happy, and whether it's at a bar or restaurant or at the lake or with their partner at a concert or a firepit or something...just truly blissfully enjoying the moment without anxiety and worry.

Personally, I don't know how anyone can feel that in this world, knowing what you can know, but I envy those people. I wish I could have had those things in this life. But it looks like I'll never get to shed that anxiety and existential dread until I'm gone.

Not dying sooner, as originally intended.

Having Children or adopting.
my biggest regret? Not having lived I guess. I am 26 and had one bad relationship, no close friends just feel like I missed out on the big and important parts of life. Not having loved would be my biggest regret.

I regret never finding myself and my purpose
I relate a lot to these and also i regret not tried theater school when i was younger,it was the only thing that i ever liked or had a little interested in but my parents killed it telling it was nonsense and i always felt worthless and dumb in everything to try
 
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Wizard999666

Member
May 26, 2020
60
I don't regret much as I've gotten ill as I aged, everything was rigged against me from the beginning. I regret not finding my passion at a young age and devoting myself to that, that would probably be writing or drawing. Maybe I could have produced something worthwhile while I was still functioning in this shithole. Then I could kill myself after that, once things started going downhill. Instead I wasted all my time on video games, internet and TV, before ending up as the walking corpse that I am now.
 
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Life interrupted

Life interrupted

Trapped in life
Mar 18, 2022
139
Not doing anything interesting in life except worrying about a future that will never come!
 
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hellispink

hellispink

poisonous
May 26, 2022
1,229
I don't think there is anything I would be missing. The world has been horrible since it was created and humans too. So it is like nothing will change, it will continue the same way.
 
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