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I'm thinking that money is such a big problem after all...I mean it wouldn't solve my problems but maybe eventually, I could feel much better and in peace... I could live in a nice quiet place, and taking care of me without worrying about anything. I wish I was rich. Unfortunately I see the moment to ctb nearer and nearer everyday. It's a shame wishing to live so bad but having no options and no possibilities to experience good things of life.
 
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It's hard to say really. It would certainly take a lot of pressure off of me. I guess my biggest reason for wanting to end it is because I'm failing at a creative freelance career. I know I need to get a more reliable job again and I know I'm going to hate it. I've already done that shit for 10 years. Still, if I had loads of money, maybe I just wouldn't bother working at all and creative work is the only thing keeping me going- other than feeling that I can't ctb while my Dad is still alive.

Money can be a huge problem when you don't have it but I don't necessarily think it can cure everyone's problems.
 
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I'm thinking that money is such a big problem after all...I mean it wouldn't solve my problems but maybe eventually, I could feel much better and in peace... I could live in a nice quiet place, and taking care of me without worrying about anything. I wish I was rich. Unfortunately I see the moment to ctb nearer and nearer everyday. It's a shame wishing to live so bad but having no options and no possibilities to experience good things of life.
I'd probably have my chauffeur convey me to the airport in my limousine, then book a trip to Monte Carlo, and go gamble. Next I'd take my personal jet to Paris to see the Mona Lisa. After that, I'd have my pilot fly me to London to tour the British Museum of natural history. Real money must be just so lovely! I'm hoping to reincarnate into a very very rich family, And I damn well better have blond hair, blue eyes, and size and strength that would make Conan the Barbarian look like Donny Osmond. IF not Ill be right back here in my next life to CTB again.
 
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It's hard to say really. It would certainly take a lot of pressure off of me. I guess my biggest reason for wanting to end it is because I'm failing at a creative freelance career. I know I need to get a more reliable job again and I know I'm going to hate it. I've already done that shit for 10 years. Still, if I had loads of money, maybe I just wouldn't bother working at all and creative work is the only thing keeping me going- other than feeling that I can't ctb while my Dad is still alive.

Money can be a huge problem when you don't have it but I don't necessarily think it can cure everyone's problems.
My main problem can't be solved with money. But I never had the opportunity of living in peace, when I was younger I lived with my family in a house, and later I've been living in buildings so despite I am on my own, my neighbours bother me too much. The thing is, I think that if I were able to live in peace for once in my life, I think could feel very free and happy. I really do.. I could get bored maybe, but I wish to experience what is to have peace. I know how to find inner peace but outside situations break it.
 
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My main problem can't be solved with money. But I never had the opportunity of living in peace, when I was younger I lived with my family in a house, and later I've been living in buildings so despite I am on my own, my neighbours bother me too much. The thing is, I think that if I were able to live in peace for once in my life, I think could feel very free and happy. I really do.. I could get bored maybe, but I wish to experience what is to have peace. I know how to find inner peace but outside situations break it.
Religious nut cases swear God does not want you to be unhappy! So, if that's true why are so many of us here suffering? Either there ain't no God, or he must absolutely hate a lot of us.
 
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My main problem can't be solved with money. But I never had the opportunity of living in peace, when I was younger I lived with my family in a house, and later I've been living in buildings so despite I am on my own, my neighbours bother me too much. The thing is, I think that if I were able to live in peace for once in my life, I think could feel very free and happy. I really do.. I could get bored maybe, but I wish to experience what is to have peace. I know how to find inner peace but outside situations break it.
Yes, I can completely relate to that. I've had lots of noisy neighbours but by far the worst was living next to a university campus. People shouting at 3am, 4am, 5am nearly every morning. It takes such a toll- I agree. Do you have enough money to maybe travel and try and experience peace somewhere- although, sadly- not sure where- you're right- solitude seems to require vast wealth.
 
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yeah. the reason i have to ctb is ultimately due to money. if i had a ton of money i'd be happy to keep living.
 
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My main problem can't be solved with money. But I never had the opportunity of living in peace, when I was younger I lived with my family in a house, and later I've been living in buildings so despite I am on my own, my neighbours bother me too much. The thing is, I think that if I were able to live in peace for once in my life, I think could feel very free and happy. I really do.. I could get bored maybe, but I wish to experience what is to have peace. I know how to find inner peace but outside situations break it.
Man, I understand you perfectly. I also grew up in a house, then I have lived in a couple of apartments and have had problems with very noisy neighbors. Finally, I decided to go live outside the city, to a quiet house in a village, I finally stopped hearing noisy neighbors. It has been one of the best decisions I have made in my life.
 
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Religious nut cases swear God does not want you to be unhappy! So, if that's true why are so many of us here suffering? Either there ain't no God, or he must absolutely hate a lot of us.
Well... Earth is hell for many people and most animals if God exists this place must be hell.
Man, I understand you perfectly. I also grew up in a house, then I have lived alone in several apartments and have had problems with very noisy neighbors. Finally, I decided to go live outside the city, to a quiet house in a village, I finally stopped hearing noisy neighbors. It has been one of the best decisions I have made in my life.
That sounds very good I'm happy for you. Yeah having neighbours is the worst, it seems that they smell the moment you are relaxed and peaceful to start fucking you up. And no matter where you go! It's a nightmare that follows you everywhere during your whole life in all the places you live in. And you start to wonder... What kind of person I could have became if I had had peace since I was a child. If I hadn't a stupid family, If I wasn't born in a stupid town... I fucking hate my small town and I'm Spanish from the south. People here is fucking noisy and retarded.
It's actually terrifying, the worst place I have ever lived in is the current one. There are lots of old people in my street who meet under my balcony everyday from 7am to 11pm. It's very hot this year in Spain and the summer don't stop. So they are always in the street screaming I can't understand why they don't go to the park or something. Apart from this, the couple who live under my flat, is fucking idiot and they are always making noise just to fuck me up. I had many healthy problems... Like urticaria, anxiety, and lots of things more and it's due to noise. I have to use ear plugs and headphones over them. And still this way I hear them. In my neighborhood many people have a dog in their balcony the whole day, and you can hear lots of dogs during the whole day. And there is also the fucking church bell. It's like a nightmare sometimes specially by summertime
I even almost had tinnitus cause of the fucking headphones. I almost got crazy and that's when I started a treatment. Because I was afraid of ending up in jail
 
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yeah. the reason i have to ctb is ultimately due to money. if i had a ton of money i'd be happy to keep living.
Me too bro, me too!
 
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So, my suicidal ideation has recently been exacerbated by a debilitating chronic pain condition. The condition has left me unable to provide for myself.

Money couldn't fix my health, but at least I could keep on living if I had tons of money and didn't have to work.
 
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Hard no, my problems cannot be fixed by money.
 
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I don't necessarily think it can cure everyone's problems.
this, money wont help my problems. the only thing it could help me with is i would basically pay my husband to leave me alone then take the rest to move. however i will still be suicidal and ill still probably kill myself so it didnt really help
 
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Well like most answers in this world, it depends on person to person but for most, yes, money will solve their issues.

Not mine though, I'm already fortunate enough to spend my life without really working but I am sore loser, so that's another thing coming for me.

Money doesn't necessarily give you good experience and happiness.
 
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So, my suicidal ideation has recently been exacerbated by a debilitating chronic pain condition. The condition has left me unable to provide for myself.

Money couldn't fix my health, but at least I could keep on living if I had tons of money and didn't have to work.
I'm sorry for you. I hope you find a way to fix
Haha, I agree with you on your last part, and I'm from Spain too! The flats here are very poorly built, you can hear everything, and there are many uneducated people, who can make your life miserable. Spain is one of the countries in Europe where the highest % of people live in flats, the majority of Europeans live in houses. While in Spain 65% live in flats, in countries like Ireland only 8% live in flats, in the United Kingdom 15%, in the Netherlands and Belgium 22%, in France 34%... that is, the vast majority of European live in houses, the opposite to Spain.

I had a neighbor who made noise at all hours, day and night, he created me a trauma with the tremendous noise... after that experience, I have lived in another couple of floors, but then I noticed that any noise made by the neighbors bothered me very much, from the trauma that the previous neighbor gave to me. In the end, the only possible solution was to buy a house, even if I had to leave the city.

If you have that possibility, I would recommend that you do the same, there are houses in villages that can be cheaper than a flat in the city. In my experience, living in a house gives you much more peace and tranquility. For those of us who have suffered this type of problem, the difference is abysmal, it gives you a much better quality of life.
No tenía ni idea de esos porcentajes... Eso explica muchas cosas. La verdad es que vivir en un edificio es muy triste y los andaluces son muy escandalosos. Me alegro de que encontraras tu lugar... Yo en todo caso me iría a vivir a la montaña cerca de un río o un lago. Si tengo que prescindir de vivir en una ciudad sería sólo para irme a un lugar idílico en el campo. De todas formas no tengo dinero y aunque lo tuviera no creo que eso solucionara mis problemas al final...
 
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I'd probably have my chauffeur convey me to the airport in my limousine, then book a trip to Monte Carlo, and go gamble. Next I'd take my personal jet to Paris to see the Mona Lisa. After that, I'd have my pilot fly me to London to tour the British Museum of natural history. Real money must be just so lovely! I'm hoping to reincarnate into a very very rich family, And I damn well better have blond hair, blue eyes, and size and strength that would make Conan the Barbarian look like Donny Osmond. IF not Ill be right back here in my next life to CTB again.
goddamnit this made me chuckle; this about sums up my reaction to the reincarnation argument lol... if it doesn't get better in the next life, I'll just off myself and spin the wheel of fortune yet again!
 
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Well like most answers in this world, it depends on person to person but for most, yes, money will solve their issues.

Not mine though, I'm already fortunate enough to spend my life without really working but I am sore loser, so that's another thing coming for me.

Money doesn't necessarily give you good experience and happiness.
But you could live in one of those houses that they create for the rainy videos of YouTube
 
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the money would probably keep me alive a bit longer, because I would want to spend some of it experiencing things my poor fucked off financially cursed self could never dream of... like an adult vacation (never had one they must be nice) along with trying to use the money to do something positive like start a non-profit to help people with mental illness/trauma. I would want to do something meaningful for people struggling out there. I always thought it would be beautiful to have this nature park complex with hiking trails, outdoor meditation and yoga, botanical gardens, edible gardens, art therapy, nature photography, and give people a place to learn a hobby, talk with someone, meet people who have been through similar traumas or experiences in a safe space where there is no threat of forced medical care or hospitalizations... a place to just exist in the moment and be chill. It would only cost a few bucks like going to a national park or something to be able to keep up the grounds and stuff. A no judgement healing zone. Idk if it existed I would use the last bit of money I have to travel there and at least experience some peace before I die.
 
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If I had enough to stop working and persue things I actually enjoy then yes it would make a big difference
 
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the money would probably keep me alive a bit longer, because I would want to spend some of it experiencing things my poor fucked off financially cursed self could never dream of... like an adult vacation (never had one they must be nice) along with trying to use the money to do something positive like start a non-profit to help people with mental illness/trauma. I would want to do something meaningful for people struggling out there. I always thought it would be beautiful to have this nature park complex with hiking trails, outdoor meditation and yoga, botanical gardens, edible gardens, art therapy, nature photography, and give people a place to learn a hobby, talk with someone, meet people who have been through similar traumas or experiences in a safe space where there is no threat of forced medical care or hospitalizations... a place to just exist in the moment and be chill. It would only cost a few bucks like going to a national park or something to be able to keep up the grounds and stuff. A no judgement healing zone. Idk if it existed I would use the last bit of money I have to travel there and at least experience some peace before I die.
Your idea is very good, Bill Gates should take notes.
 
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answer to the thread:
the money would probably keep me alive a bit longer, because I would want to spend some of it experiencing things my poor fucked off financially cursed self could never dream of... like an adult vacation (never had one they must be nice) along with trying to use the money to do something positive like start a non-profit to help people with mental illness/trauma. I would want to do something meaningful for people struggling out there. I always thought it would be beautiful to have this nature park complex with hiking trails, outdoor meditation and yoga, botanical gardens, edible gardens, art therapy, nature photography, and give people a place to learn a hobby, talk with someone, meet people who have been through similar traumas or experiences in a safe space where there is no threat of forced medical care or hospitalizations... a place to just exist in the moment and be chill. It would only cost a few bucks like going to a national park or something to be able to keep up the grounds and stuff. A no judgement healing zone. Idk if it existed I would use the last bit of money I have to travel there and at least experience some peace before I die.
I'd love to be rich enough to help the homeless people across America,
 
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Your idea is very good, Bill Gates should take notes.
Preserving nature, growing sustainable food, and helping the mentally ill, traumatized, and abused folks of the country all in one go... also giving people the opportunity to volunteer and teach a skill they are passionate about/get experience while also helping others gain useful skills, learn new hobbies, and cope with their suffering/illnesses/traumas etc... all without being a cult or affiliated with any medical institution or religious system! Hell of a lot more fucking useful than a suicide hot line. Maybe I should write some kind of self-published book before I ctb in hopes that some rich person would accomplish my dream lol.
 
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If I am rich, I will experience all good stuffs in this world, and also have easier access to better CTB methods when i have enough:D

(NEVER want to live long anyway)
 
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No, absolutely nothing could ever make me want to stay here. I believe that non existence is always preferable to any kind of life, no matter the circumstances. I personally despise life and I don't view life as being worth it in every single way. I could never want to exist in a world where so much endless cruelty and suffering exists and apart from that I view life as being so useless and tedious.

There is no value in staying alive, our only fate as humans is to age and then deteriorate from getting old, this is not desirable in any way. I find absolutely everything in this world to be tiring and I view the concept of life as being a tragic, unnecessary mistake. To die solves all problems anyway so of course it's preferable. And anyway, being rich doesn't guarantee that the person won't suffer to such a great extent in their life. The human body can torture people with incurable health problems, and this can happen to anybody, as after all life is unpredictable. But I just simply hate being alive, trapped in the prison that is consciousness. I wish for freedom from everything.
 
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Yes if I were rich I would have plenty of ways of enjoying myself spending money… Without money I have no freedom
 
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If my biggest concern was money I'd be on a site about getting money, not suicide.
 
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Being rich would make a lot of things in my life easier, though it would only help if I became retroactively rich. There were so many things that could've been prevented if I had the money back then. Even then, it wouldn't fix everything. And it definitely wouldn't mean much now. When they say money can't buy happiness, that definitely applies to me. Money can't get rid of my anxiety disorder nor can it remove my traumas and insecurities. It would only provide further escapism and negligence of my duties. Yes, I could pay off certain debts with ease but that's about it.
 
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