If you had N right now how soon would you take it?

[venin]

Tonight.

 

[アホペンギン]

I'd need to get antiemetics first but as soon as I get my hands on them I'd take the N. Not a second thought involved.

 

[NoHorizon]

Right now.

 

[FuneralCry]

As soon as I could, if I had the option of a method as peaceful as Nembutal I would feel so incredibly relieved and there would be no reason to delay the inevitable and suffer more in this process of just waiting around to die anyway. Only eternal sleep is beautiful to me and I've only ever wished for true peace from this existence, there's nothing appealing about having the ability to suffer endlessly in this world filled with cruelty and harm, only death can bring me the relief I search for.

 

[josephk]

Rather quickly

 

[Gaga786]

I don't know.I want to leave ASAP, but there's a part in me which prevents me to plan or even do anything regarding it. I somehow delaying my fate. I wish it was as easy to just chug it down. However, there's something conflicted within me

 

[020x]

When I'll be ready. Probably as soon as possible.

 

[soonatpeace777888]

Within a day or two for sure.

 

[bluebus]

Once I finish my painting and my poems, probably another few days or couple weeks at most. I can't die with these unfinished projects, it'll haunt me lol

 

[venin]

I don't know.I want to leave ASAP, but there's a part in me which prevents me to plan or even do anything regarding it. I somehow delaying my fate. I wish it was as easy to just chug it down. However, there's something conflicted within me

It's the same for me

Once I finish my painting and my poems, probably another few days or couple weeks at most. I can't die with these unfinished projects, it'll haunt me lol

 

[sanction]

In the very near future

 

[ihatethisplanet]

I'd want to do it right away, but I'm not sure if I'd have the courage. Another argument with my husband would probably work me up enough to do it once he was out of the house.

 

[venin]

I'd want to do it right away, but I'm not sure if I'd have the courage. Another argument with my husband would probably work me up enough to do it once he was out of the house.

I'm sorry it's that way…

 

[iwanttoleave2000]

For SN CTB you are supposed to have other things right? Like benzo and the antimeic (however it's spelled)

In any case I have a hard time imagining I wouldn't attempt to right now. I have diphenhydramine which I believe is an antemic. I am really sad right now and have been for a long time and it is only getting worse. I would cherish the oppertunity.

 

[venin]

For SN CTB you are supposed to have other things right? Like benzo and the antimeic (however it's spelled)

In any case I have a hard time imagining I wouldn't attempt to right now. I have diphenhydramine which I believe is an antemic. I am really sad right now and have been for a long time and it is only getting worse. I would cherish the oppertunity.

I know what you mean

 

[TapeMachine]

This coming winter, more than likely. I always get super melancholy during winter, particularly Jan-Feb.

The weird thing is that I actually love the cooler temperatures; it's the significantly diminished daylight and the lack of color in nature that really take a toll on me.

This past January (good ol' winter) was when I joined the forum. I hope this upcoming winter isn't nearly as mentally and emotionally paralyzing, because the only reason I made it out of the last one alive was the unexpected death of one of my brothers in February, which changed everything...

 

[EndJstifiesTheMeans]

Nano-second

 

[tpboy]

I do not know why N is even ever mentioned on here. For what i have gathered it's just not a option. Usually if you can get your hands on some money, things become possible. Not in the case of N. No matter how much money you have. Even the Swiss option is a long shot, especially if you are unable to travel like me. I wonder if N has just become more of a fantasy than a option on here? BTW SN is becoming the new N looks like.

 

[parader]

i'd probably throw it away before i manage to take it because my SI is that terrified :'')

 

[TapeMachine]

I wonder if N has just become more of a fantasy than a option on here?

Yes, I'd say that is the case. Just a fantasy what-if.

I'm pretty sure most of the people here realize that N is not an attainable method for them.

 

[venin]

i'd probably throw it away before i manage to take it because my SI is that terrified :'')

Great picture

 

[chop]

Next mistake that happens in my life, I've already had 2 huge mistakes that caused the relationships in my life to break and break, 1 more I might actually consider it I'm trying my hardest not to let it happen though.

 

[venin]

Next mistake that happens in my life, I've already had 2 huge mistakes that caused the relationships in my life to break and break, 1 more I might actually consider it I'm trying my hardest not to let it happen though.

Hoping things get good for you ♥

 

[pyroxenic]

Personally itd be ASAP. But id have to plan the timing, most likely when everyone is sleeping so i cant be found fast. But god i wish options like N were easily accesible.

 

[amia77]

i think id do it now, i really just want it all to stop, but i don't know how i would get my hands on anything like that

 

[Ernest1964]

I've had two bottles of N and one package of Meto. since January and I am just holding on to them for when I am ready. I just started a new job and so there is "hope" on the horizon. We'll see. It is a comfort to have these items here with me.

 

[day]

I would likely just wait till night and give myself a good day and peaceful environment to rest in. Something as peaceful as N sounds so ideal I can't think I'd want to delay it at all.

 

[ultrasharpy123456]

I'm starting to think I would tbh.

 

[vcregs]

I have it and it's been nine years. If I had no family i might have taken it immediately upon delivery. But the feelings of guilt are strong. Also I'm so low energy and apathetic that just existing is easier than planning an exit and following through.

 

[venin]

I've had two bottles of N and one package of Meto. since January and I am just holding on to them for when I am ready. I just started a new job and so there is "hope" on the horizon. We'll see. It is a comfort to have these items here with me.

That's awesome. Good luck with the new job

I would likely just wait till night and give myself a good day and peaceful environment to rest in. Something as peaceful as N sounds so ideal I can't think I'd want to delay it at all.

Feeling you

I have it and it's been nine years. If I had no family i might have taken it immediately upon delivery. But the feelings of guilt are strong. Also I'm so low energy and apathetic that just existing is easier than planning an exit and following through.

I hope it doesn't come to that