I'm still gonna go for the yew. Too many methods, imo, are rather lacking in personality or spirit. Yes, they can be effective, but the way I see it, the reason things are abysmal nowadays is because things are becoming too logical and scientific. Yes, science and analytical stuff is important, but too much of it leads to nihilism, where everything loses meaning and people live and die unfulfilled. To add something that's of a spiritual and holistic element... like plant methods is what brings about healing. And crafting the perfected yew tincture is the one thing that's been giving my life meaning to the point I sorta don't want to die. Not to say I would never kill myself, but it's more of the fact that I don't care about whether I live or die; I just want to live the life I dreamed of for so long, and nothing is gonna stand in my way. And I think everyone should apply to that.