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Ambivalent1

Ambivalent1

🎵 Be all, end all 🎵
Apr 17, 2023
3,278
I crave meaningful, lasting connection but in light of death, it feels pointless.
 
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sserafim

sserafim

they say it's darkest of all before the dawn
Sep 13, 2023
9,012
I don't even know what my greatest desire is. Probably to be a NEET forever, have unlimited money, and not age past 25. I crave freedom (from work and society). I don't want to be a slave to the system
I crave meaningful, lasting connection but in light of death, it feels pointless.
Why do you crave connection?
 
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iloverachel

Enlightened
Mar 7, 2024
1,217
It might make a difference, but not enough for me to want to stay in this hellish world
 
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Lost in a Dream

Lost in a Dream

He/him - Metal head
Feb 22, 2020
1,820
I don't have any desires outside of escaping from life and being dead. I suppose if I got my biggest wish, it would just be that.
 
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watchdog

watchdog

watch-dog
Mar 24, 2023
87
I think my earthly desire would be to not be forgotten. I hate the idea of it, it makes me want to cry. Knowing that I will be remembered for at least a couple of lifetimes is good enough for me to want to continue living I guess..
 
Eudaimonic

Eudaimonic

I want to fade away.
Aug 11, 2023
865
Indeed, it would, at least for a time.
 
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thenamingofcats

annihilation anxiety
Apr 19, 2024
482
For me it would have been to continue on in my career and contribute something. Before the shit hit the fans I was really passionate.
 
endless-void

endless-void

Void
Jul 31, 2023
47
Although my financial status right now causes me a lot of distress I don't believe having money would stop me from commiting suicide. My suffering goes beyond any physical or external matter.
 
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Guy Smiley

Guy Smiley

Just another lost soul
Jan 4, 2024
456
My only remaining desire in this world is to break free from all attachment to earthly desires. Though I'm failing HARD at this.
 
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RW__Asher23

Experienced
Dec 11, 2022
203
Straight simple honest answer NO. That one thing I desired is gone from this world already.
 
Dr Iron Arc

Dr Iron Arc

Into the Unknown
Feb 10, 2020
21,387
I honestly think it would, but that kind of weakness on my part is still why I need to be killed in the first place. I'm sure if I get the one thing I do desire (a loving girlfriend who eventually becomes my wife) then I'd be evil enough to go on and create a kid or two and that could possibly lead to other unethical acts occurring like contributing to climate change or simply making someone feel bad because I exist.
 
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yeh it's all gucci

yeh it's all gucci

I only care about cats eating corn on the cob.
Mar 4, 2022
171
Idk @Ambivalent1 but I love to see your pfp, Lumalee is such a vibe. So unhinged.
"Time, Like Hope, Is An Illusion."
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
12,324
I'm the same as you in that I always had a hope that I'd find a partner and it would be rainbows day after day from there on. Well- not that cheesy but maybe to some extent. I think that's likely fairytale thinking though. I doubt the real thing is like that at all. It probably just invites a whole load more complications into your life.

In other ways, I got what I wanted in life to a smaller degree. For now anyhow. I'm able to do the creative job I want to do for at least the short-term. I used to think that would be all I needed and wanted. I don't really think it is now. I have a horrible feeling that that's our lousy human nature. When we get what we want, we end up wanting something else or something more. Maybe I would actually be ok if I felt confident my longer term job prospects were ok but, they're not at all. So yeah- none of the things that would possibly help me feel realistic.
 
Abyssal

Abyssal

Probably gonna die soon maybe?
Nov 26, 2023
1,326
To refresh my life attractive would be so good I hope I'd not have issues with feeling loved I might live idk
 
SomewhatLoved

SomewhatLoved

all bleeding stops eventually...
Apr 12, 2023
391
I think it depends what you consider worldly.

I feel like I always thought of worldly desires as money, physical objects, promiscuous sex. I don't think that would change anything, might even just make me feel more lonely and sad lol.

If you expand worldly desires to include healthy romantic relationships, work-life balance, friendship and a feeling of belonging, then yes I think it would change things
 
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Lifeaffirmingchoice

deserved so much better
Mar 22, 2024
327
Retributive justice would make me not want to ctb, yes.
 
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lostintheloop

Enlightened
Apr 14, 2023
1,228
No as there's nothing I want out of life. I have no desire for anything. I don't want things to be different, I just want to be dead.
 
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leavingthesoultrap

leavingthesoultrap

(ᴗ_ ᴗ。)
Nov 25, 2023
1,212
Yes it would. If I got enough money to not worry about anything it would improve my life
 
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Praestat_Mori

Mori praestat, quam haec pati!
May 21, 2023
12,854
My biggest earthly desire was and still is money bc it's the fuel of life in our society and the world we are living in - it enables me to live a life I wanna live!
 
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HappyForever?

Love from the deepest dream
Feb 14, 2021
326
Yes. In that case I would be tall and attractive and I would never have another worry again, or at least as long as my looks last.
 
ijustwishtodie

ijustwishtodie

I have finally found my ultimate bliss
Oct 29, 2023
5,796
I desire nembutal the most; you can connect the dots from there.
 
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Ambivalent1

Ambivalent1

🎵 Be all, end all 🎵
Apr 17, 2023
3,278
Idk @Ambivalent1 but I love to see your pfp, Lumalee is such a vibe. So unhinged.
"Time, Like Hope, Is An Illusion."
I want a Lumalee tattoo or to die while wearing a Lumalee shirt.
I don't even know what my greatest desire is. Probably to be a NEET forever, have unlimited money, and not age past 25. I crave freedom (from work and society). I don't want to be a slave to the system

Why do you crave connection?
Because it's a human need so I guess to be dead is to not be human and to not need it. If you were able to even have it while dead, you wouldn't want it because you're no longer human. Hmm
 
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bipbapbop

Experienced
Mar 7, 2024
276
Yes, if he came home I would never come back here again.
 

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