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SentimentalTrip

SentimentalTrip

Member
Mar 30, 2023
56
I would not pursue treatment. I actually have symptoms that are consistent with a specific form of cancer. I can't even express the intense relief I would feel if I were diagnosed with a terminal illness. Where I'm from, there is a law permitting terminally ill people to self-euthanize. I would not hesitate for a second to pursue that option if I had it.
 
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Azlia

Azlia

Member
Jan 21, 2025
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if it was something like a tumor that could be extirpated by surgery i would but no otherwise and not chemo i have seen how it affects people, i cannot bear that amount of suffering, already have a medical condition and do not want to stay if it gets incapacitating, i want to enjoy life while is enjoyable i would not cling to a small chance of success if it means that much suffering
 
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fedup1982

Arcanist
Jul 17, 2025
452
Ive been thinking about this a lot since all my failed attempts.

If I do get cancer, the options are either gruelling treatments or worse symptoms. And although Im a pussy and will probably go for life saving treatment, it wouldn't be to save my life, it would just be the path of least resistance. But if I could be guaranteed that they would make sure I dont suffer too much leading up to my death, I'd definitely opt for death.

43m for reference
 
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vira

vira

ideal method: hanging
Apr 28, 2025
119
My depression is so severe I am in bed mostly all day. A sudden heart attack is my dream. So for you older folks on here, do you bother with physical health checks or not care either?
yeah this post might not be directed towards me but ill still reply.

i would only seek treatment if it severely interfered with my life, to the point where i wouldnt be able to work and would have no choice. othrwise id just let it fester, see what happens, worst case i attempt treatment and get nowhere... in that case id just kill myself. i dont have the copious amount of money to pay fpr treatment anyway,,, so
 
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whywere

Illuminated
Jun 26, 2020
3,626
I have already written a post on here BUT something REALLLY bothers me, so here it goes and I would LOVE to mention that I am 100% pro-choice and everyone's ideas are great.

PLEASE do not give me crap and please be adult, as I love and care about everyone here, no matter if someone does not like me, do not care, we are ALL in this together.

I HAVE had gall bladder cancer. How did I find out? I had MASSIVE pain in my middle section, like 1 hour of sleep if that, food did not want to stay down and the DAMN pain, HORRIBLE!

When they said that it was cancer, the very 1st thing that came to my mind was NOT that I had cancer, but I REALLY wanted the DAMN pain to go away.

Dying from cancer is NOT a walk in the park, as if the pain I experienced probably would have been magnified if the cancer would have been left unchecked, and laying in a hospital bed waiting under MASSIVE pain killers for the damn rogue cancer cells to take my life, NO WAY EVER!

It is one aspect to say, cancer! HOORAY! Then when the slog of having to endure months, hopefully only weeks of HELLISH pain and laying in a bed waiting, at least NOT for me.

Now, like I mentioned earlier, PLEASE be kind and adult and if nothing else, just ignore me, thank you

Hugs to everyone!

Walter
 
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EmptyBottle

EmptyBottle

🔑 Can be offline/online semi randomly.
Apr 10, 2025
1,490
I have already written a post on here BUT something REALLLY bothers me, so here it goes and I would LOVE to mention that I am 100% pro-choice and everyone's ideas are great.

PLEASE do not give me crap and please be adult, as I love and care about everyone here, no matter if someone does not like me, do not care, we are ALL in this together.

I HAVE had gall bladder cancer. How did I find out? I had MASSIVE pain in my middle section, like 1 hour of sleep if that, food did not want to stay down and the DAMN pain, HORRIBLE!

When they said that it was cancer, the very 1st thing that came to my mind was NOT that I had cancer, but I REALLY wanted the DAMN pain to go away.

Dying from cancer is NOT a walk in the park, as if the pain I experienced probably would have been magnified if the cancer would have been left unchecked, and laying in a hospital bed waiting under MASSIVE pain killers for the damn rogue cancer cells to take my life, NO WAY EVER!

It is one aspect to say, cancer! HOORAY! Then when the slog of having to endure months, hopefully only weeks of HELLISH pain and laying in a bed waiting, at least NOT for me.

Now, like I mentioned earlier, PLEASE be kind and adult and if nothing else, just ignore me, thank you

Hugs to everyone!

Walter
Hope the pain goes away soon

People are quite interesting, they will reply that 1-2 nitro cylinder in a car might be "too unreliable", yet for cancer with unknown pain and timeline, consider avoiding treatment, which is even more unpredictable.

Maybe some will use the cancer as a push to CTB, though if one changes their mind after months of pain, they have delayed or prevented remission.

But it is also slightly hypocritical, since I have an asymmetrical, non-painful 2cm lump on the left of my neck for over a week and idk whether, when, etc to treat it (I want it gone, I just don't know how complex it will be)

Waiting until it gives a bit of pain, to get diagnosis / treatment (and confirm it is not something natural) isn't ideal.

Update: within hours, someone asked about it, felt the lump and a doctor's appointment is scheduled (after I posted the grey section in a chat with them).
 
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Nightfoot

Arcanist
Aug 7, 2025
441
I would not pursue treatment. I actually have symptoms that are consistent with a specific form of cancer. I can't even express the intense relief I would feel if I were diagnosed with a terminal illness. Where I'm from, there is a law permitting terminally ill people to self-euthanize. I would not hesitate for a second to pursue that option if I had it.
Does the law provide for medical assistance to self euthanize or are those permitted on their own to find peaceful methods? Does it allow them to purchase substances that would otherwise be banned?
 
Xiaojiu

Xiaojiu

Wizard
Mar 28, 2025
651
No especially if I'm told I have days - few months to live. I would try to last until my final day. But, if it gets too much, I'll CTB. Hopefully they give opioids when you're diagnosed because I would just hoard them and CTB via handful of opiate overdose
 
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58Alice85

58Alice85

Autogynephile
Aug 31, 2025
351
I've seen people "living" after chemo, absolutely awful.
I would not seek treatment.
 
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ChildrensITV

ChildrensITV

Arcanist
Mar 14, 2023
483
Great question. I feel like dying of cancer is probably the only guilt-free way of going. I wouldn't be committing the sin of suicide, and family couldn't call me selfish. Ofc, I would probably have to lie and say that the doctors couldn't do anything for me. My parents would do research on the cancer and probably find me out.

I wouldn't leave myself to get ravaged by cancer if it's one of those cancers that can result in you being maimed. Why would I want to survive with a worse life? The trouble with letting cancer take you out, is the pain and wasting away you would do before you die.

The life is really horrific for some: a constant catch22. A permanent rock-and-hard-place situation. It's actually a punishment for something I swear I didn't do. I didn't deserve this life. But I am expected to suffer it and shut the fuck up. People have literally no idea the effort it takes just to survive one hour as me. But they would be pissed at me if I let cancer take me out.
 
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doomedforsure

i cant handle this shir
Oct 13, 2025
30
never lol what a peaceful way too die
 
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KuriGohan&Kamehameha

KuriGohan&Kamehameha

想死不能 - 想活不能
Nov 23, 2020
1,818
No, I feel sorry for those who had to deal with it or died from it while they would have liked to survive. But for me personally it would be the..

Willy Wonka And The Chocolate Factory Charlie GIF

Your dark humour got a smile out of me 😅

For me personally, no, but that's because I got a taste of what treatment would entail after having non-cancerous tumors. Surgery was very intense and it took me a month before I could get back to my normal level of being able to walk to the shops or do things, and I was already chronically ill before, imagine how rough it is when your abdominal muscles have been cut through and you have to learn to sit up, walk, and clean yourself without help again.

I already hate feeling like I have no bodily autonomy but that was 1000x times worse when radiography techs, nurses and doctors suspected I could have cancer and there was no way to know for sure until the tumors were taken out and biopsied. Oh, you're howling in pain? We'll keep trying to jam an IV in anyway. Oh you're dehydrated because we told you to avoid food and fluid for hours? Just relax and quit making it hard on us, I've poked you 3 times with this long needle and still haven't gotten enough blood! Oh, we talked about you having PTSD before? Doesn't matter cause I'm going to make you wear a gown and throw it to the floor and be totally naked, cause we won't call someone else to help you put on clothes!

Screw that. I'm not going through any of that hell again. Right now I have a small, hard lump in my breast and I refuse to do anything about it. After my last experience with the healthcare (AKA HELLcare system) I'm not going through a traumatic surgery again to maintain an already piss poor quality of life. Yes, I would like pain management, but I'm not going through any treatment if I were to develop malignant tumors this time.

It seemed like all of the healthcare workers were way more antsy about the prognosis than I was about the whole thing.. I've been so ready to be gone for years that when I had to consider the possibility of the tumors being malignant, I wasn't scared about the possibility of death but I was scared of more suffering and pain.
 
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Carrot

Carrot

Mage
Feb 25, 2025
514
Cancer pain must be terrible, I'd probably ctb or get treatment, because I would not be able to handle the pain. Sounds like a terrible death.
 
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Vorty30

Vorty30

Sanctioned Extractor
Oct 10, 2023
100
With the current situation, me being bipolar and heavily depressed and alone... If I got cancer let's say right now, I would not treat it. No point.
 
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Nightfoot

Arcanist
Aug 7, 2025
441
I just found out a little earlier, on Facebook, an old school friend just received a diagnosis of Stage 4 pancreatic cancer that had spread to his liver and lungs, after being hospitalized for a series of strokes. I feel terrible for him but also had the fleeting thought that I wished it were me, instead. I have no doubt he is in lots of pain (but going into hospice) but he will be past all pain soon. For me, it seems like I will have to do something horrible to myself to get there.
 
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shampoo sniffer

shampoo sniffer

Terminally mentally ill
Aug 10, 2025
193
I've seen people "living" after chemo, absolutely awful.
I would not seek treatment.
Yes, if it's not the cancer that kills you, it's the chemo. Chemo is a nuke to the body.
 
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nullsoul

Member
Oct 8, 2025
54
나 53살
나 또한 병에 걸리고 싶어
자살 아니오
 
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whywere

Illuminated
Jun 26, 2020
3,626
I just found out a little earlier, on Facebook, an old school friend just received a diagnosis of Stage 4 pancreatic cancer that had spread to his liver and lungs, after being hospitalized for a series of strokes. I feel terrible for him but also had the fleeting thought that I wished it were me, instead. I have no doubt he is in lots of pain (but going into hospice) but he will be past all pain soon. For me, it seems like I will have to do something horrible to myself to get there.
My heart and soul go out to your friend with the pancreatic cancer.

I will say and have the loving soul in my prayers and dreams this evening when I retire.

Walter
 
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sorrowfullyliving

Always worried
Sep 2, 2025
57
Absolutely not, I'm just gonna let the illness takes me since euthanasia is illegal where I live. The bright side of dying by an illness is that there's no pro lifers that will criticized me for CTB
 
Ashu

Ashu

novelist, sanskritist, Canadian living in India
Nov 13, 2021
870
I've let a tumor continue to grow since I discovered it in two thousand twenty, so regardless of the eventual outcome, I guess the answer is no.
 
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ConstantPain

Sorry but cats are so much better than people
Jun 9, 2022
340
No, definitely not. I have refused all screenings and am thankful to have a doctor who understands. I told him once, why bother with screening if I am refusing treatment anyways. He didn't love it but did accept it.
I would welcome any terminal illness and just would want pain meds. It's good that I feel that way because I couldn't afford treatment anyways.
 
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LOPARDA

Member
Apr 24, 2023
12
Absolutely not. And I would also do anything to make sure that my loved ones never find out about diagnosis because I know they'll pressure me into getting treatment.
Absolutely not. And I would also do anything to make sure that my loved ones never find out about diagnosis because I know they'll pressure me into getting treatment.
 
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shampoo sniffer

shampoo sniffer

Terminally mentally ill
Aug 10, 2025
193
I just learned my uncle has been diagnosed with throat cancer and has about two months to live.

We're not close, I'm not really close with any of my extended family.

I'm really jealous (I know that sounds scummy but it is what it is). Wish we could trade places. I would willingly give up my life to someone who could do something with it.
 
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Surai

Surai

its all too much and there's nothing left
Mar 26, 2024
308
I would seek whatever would make this shit less painful
 
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anonymousperson

Member
Feb 27, 2025
51
As a dr, I've thought about this a lot. I would not.
 
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TBONTB

Enlightened
May 31, 2025
1,117
I just learned my uncle has been diagnosed with throat cancer and has about two months to live.

We're not close, I'm not really close with any of my extended family.

I'm really jealous (I know that sounds scummy but it is what it is). Wish we could trade places. I would willingly give up my life to someone who could do something with it.
It's nice if you can take that "I wish I could take your place feeling"
 
hmnow

hmnow

Experienced
Jul 29, 2025
242
If I was diagnosed with a progressive cancer that would end in death and treatment would only add a few months. I'd choose suicide
 
QuincyME

QuincyME

Member
Feb 23, 2024
98
I'm a 56(f). I never go to the doctor anymore and never had a mammogram. I would never put myself through crueling surgeries, chemo, radiation ect. anyway I also have a genetic condition I inherited from my father where I am very high risk for a younger age heart attack any day.(His started at 42) I stopped taking my meds for that and been eating like shit. I just don't care. My depression is so severe I am in bed mostly all day. A sudden heart attack is my dream. So for you older folks on here, do you bother with physical health checks or not care either?
Aside from a few diverticulitis attacks, I haven't been to a doctor since I was in my early twenties and I'm 56 now…same as you. Not for suicidal reasons, it was just never a priority for me. I've smoked on and off since high school (more on than off). Don't exercise and eat like shit. I'm hoping it catches up with me sooner than later. Every once in a while I get chest pains and I'm hoping it's the beginning of the end for me.
 

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