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dust-in-the-wind

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Aug 24, 2024
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I'm a 56(f). I never go to the doctor anymore and never had a mammogram. I would never put myself through crueling surgeries, chemo, radiation ect. anyway I also have a genetic condition I inherited from my father where I am very high risk for a younger age heart attack any day.(His started at 42) I stopped taking my meds for that and been eating like shit. I just don't care. My depression is so severe I am in bed mostly all day. A sudden heart attack is my dream. So for you older folks on here, do you bother with physical health checks or not care either?
 
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kopebaldy

Dovahkiin
Jul 5, 2025
420
Treatment? With what money lol?

Me the moment I'm diagnosed with any expensive illnesses:

1000002910
 
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Mr. Snrub

Mr. Snrub

Specialist
Aug 10, 2025
318
If there was a reasonably good chance of complete remission yes. I don't want to die of cancer. Not so much that I would stop smoking or anything CRAZY like that but still, it seems like a shit way to go.
 
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itsgone2

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Sep 21, 2025
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My depression is so severe I am in bed mostly all day.
Me too. Right now my back kinda hurts anyway, no I don't care about my health but people do incredibly bad things to themselves and still live. But no I wouldn't seek treatment.
 
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dust-in-the-wind

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Aug 24, 2024
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If there was a reasonably good chance of complete remission yes. I don't want to die of cancer. Not so much that I would stop smoking or anything CRAZY like that but still, it seems like a shit way to go.
I don't want to die of cancer either but I figure when I had less than 6 months to live I can do death with dignity in the US before the cancer got real bad.
 
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TBONTB

Enlightened
May 31, 2025
1,114
Tough call. My Mom basically took the cancer-as-suicide plan. She became ill and never pursued a diagnosis. She wasn't very comfortable with the 9-12 months befor her death. But she didn't want to keep living either. It's not the most efficient way to CTB. But yeah. I haven't don't my screenings for the last couple of years.
 
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dust-in-the-wind

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Aug 24, 2024
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Tough call. My Mom basically took the cancer-as-suicide plan. She became ill and never pursued a diagnosis. She wasn't very comfortable with the 9-12 months befor her death. But she didn't want to keep living either. It's not the most efficient way to CTB. But yeah. I haven't don't my screenings for the last couple of years.
Do you live where MAID(canada) or Death with Dignity allowed(some US states) ? I'm sorry about your mom:(
 
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divinemistress87

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Jan 1, 2024
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If it was terminal no then I could get euthansia
 
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TBONTB

Enlightened
May 31, 2025
1,114
Do you live where MAID(canada) or Death with Dignity allowed(some US states) ? I'm sorry about your mom:(
Yes I do. And I would use it in a heartbeat, but frankly I'm hoping to be a bit more proactive.

Once my Mom finally was diagnosed we asked her if she was interested and she didn't really seem to be. Which was interesting because she was super clear on being ready to die. Thanks for your condolences. She lived a really good life and was ready to go.
 
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Hollowman

Empty
Dec 14, 2021
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I'm a few years younger than you. I haven't had a check up in 4 years, I don't care at all anymore. If I found out I had cancer I'd hang myself immediately.
 
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dust-in-the-wind

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Aug 24, 2024
925
If it was terminal no then I could get euthansia
What if it was treatable but if you don't treat it then will become terminal? Then get the euthanasia.
I'm a few years younger than you. I haven't had a check up in 4 years, I don't care at all anymore. If I found out I had cancer I'd hang myself immediately.
Same
 
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Dejected 55

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May 7, 2025
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So, not cancer, but I can speak from recent experience.

A couple of weeks ago I woke up on Monday with major abdomen cramps that stayed with me all day. Tylenol gave minimal relief. I barely ate, for fear I was constipated and already feeling gassy... but nothing happened, just pain. I barely slept, and Tuesday the pain was worse. I lay in bed Tuesday morning trying to decide what to do. I want to die. But I do not want death to be painful, and whatever was wrong with me might not have been terminal, but it definitely was painful.

I knew it was crazy to seek treatment for something when I was hoping to die in a couple of weeks... but I thought, "what if" this pain just continues and I can't sleep or eat and then what if my method fails?

So, I called for an ambulance, and went to the hospital. I was in the hospital from Tuesday morning through Saturday afternoon of last weekend. They found I had a kidney stone, at least partially blocking my left kidney. They had to give me pain killers while I was in there, until they inserted a temporary stent in my left kidney to open it up for it to drain more normally and hopefully help the stone to pass. I also had been running a low fever and had evidence of a decent infection brewing inside of me.

In the week since coming home... no pain, but not completely normal. I also have a temporary stent that the doctor said needs to come out within a month of putting it in there... and if the stone hasn't passed by then he would try and break it up while he removed the stent. They even called on Thursday asking about scheduling the procedure, but I didn't answer and haven't called them back.

When I was in pain, I wanted relief... but if I can die before I need to get this stent out of me, and not have pain in the meantime... then I'm thinking why bother with that needless procedure just to die.

I don't know if that exactly answers your original question, but that's sort of my very recent experience with making a similar decision.
 
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gottacheckout

COB
May 20, 2025
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I have actually been thinking about this lately. Both parents had cancer. My Dad was caught early and he had treatments for 10 years, he was good for 8 of those then he started having some pain. The doctors were able to control it so it wasn't too bad. When the pain got to much he took the death with dignity route and died peacefully in my arms. My Mom wasn't diagnosed until it had spread and she was given 3 to 6 months to live. She chose to die naturally and I was able to keep her pain free. 3 months later she died sitting in her favorite chair with me holding her. It was also very peaceful.

I'm getting up in age and I don't think I'd seek treatment for it. My only family is an ex wife and her parents. Well I do have 2 cats and The Lunatic and they give me endless love, honestly they are what is keeping me going.
 
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rainatthebusstop

feel free to kill me
Aug 20, 2025
214
I am probably waaayyy to young to answer this but if you still want my opinion:
Fuck no. That's a painful way out, but radiation therapy and morphine and possibly surviving seem even worse to me. Like cancer is awful, but fighting and beating it sounds like medical depth and agony. No thanks
 
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dust-in-the-wind

Animal Lover
Aug 24, 2024
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So, not cancer, but I can speak from recent experience.

A couple of weeks ago I woke up on Monday with major abdomen cramps that stayed with me all day. Tylenol gave minimal relief. I barely ate, for fear I was constipated and already feeling gassy... but nothing happened, just pain. I barely slept, and Tuesday the pain was worse. I lay in bed Tuesday morning trying to decide what to do. I want to die. But I do not want death to be painful, and whatever was wrong with me might not have been terminal, but it definitely was painful.

I knew it was crazy to seek treatment for something when I was hoping to die in a couple of weeks... but I thought, "what if" this pain just continues and I can't sleep or eat and then what if my method fails?

So, I called for an ambulance, and went to the hospital. I was in the hospital from Tuesday morning through Saturday afternoon of last weekend. They found I had a kidney stone, at least partially blocking my left kidney. They had to give me pain killers while I was in there, until they inserted a temporary stent in my left kidney to open it up for it to drain more normally and hopefully help the stone to pass. I also had been running a low fever and had evidence of a decent infection brewing inside of me.

In the week since coming home... no pain, but not completely normal. I also have a temporary stent that the doctor said needs to come out within a month of putting it in there... and if the stone hasn't passed by then he would try and break it up while he removed the stent. They even called on Thursday asking about scheduling the procedure, but I didn't answer and haven't called them back.

When I was in pain, I wanted relief... but if I can die before I need to get this stent out of me, and not have pain in the meantime... then I'm thinking why bother with that needless procedure just to die.

I don't know if that exactly answers your original question, but that's sort of my very recent experience with making a similar decision.
I hear kidney stones are excruciating pain so It's good you went to the hospital.
 
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Dejected 55

Visionary
May 7, 2025
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I hear kidney stones are excruciating pain so It's good you went to the hospital.
It just felt so stupid. When I was being checked in at the emergency room they were asking about DNR and I said definitely DNR... and the doctor was like, but what if its only briefly and we can bring you back with no loss of quality of life, since you're otherwise healthy except for your current problem... and I told him "quality of life" was a bad choice of words for me, because... honestly, if you're working on me and my heart stops, I would consider that an absolute win!

He basically ignored me... I was trying to say without saying how I would be fine dying, and absolutely DNR was my choice.

So I felt stupid the whole time there... hating being in pain, but also wanting to die.
 
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Nightfoot

Mage
Aug 7, 2025
549
My depression is so severe I am in bed mostly all day. A sudden heart attack is my dream. So for you older folks on here, do you bother with physical health checks or not care either?
My depression likewise has me mostly bedridden. I haven't had a physical health check this year because I don't have the energy or concern. Also, a sudden, fatal heart attack would be okay with me.
 
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LastNite

I love you!
Mar 31, 2025
663
I am probably waaayyy to young to answer this but if you still want my opinion:
Fuck no. That's a painful way out, but radiation therapy and morphine and possibly surviving seem even worse to me. Like cancer is awful, but fighting and beating it sounds like medical depth and agony. No thanks
Whats painful is the bill afterwards.
 
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badatparties

Elementalist
Mar 16, 2025
814
If it was terminal no then I could get euthansia
I might just let mine get terminal if it's not causing too much pain, or just get on pain management in the meantime. Then off to Switzerland for the holy grail N.

I really don't think i could handle chemo and all the associated bullshit.
 
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Pluto

Cat Extremist
Dec 27, 2020
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Cat No GIF
 
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shampoo sniffer

Terminal
Aug 10, 2025
285
Lol you're asking a forum of suicidal people this question :haha: I think the answer is gonna be obvious.
 
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whywere

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Jun 26, 2020
4,003
I had gall bladder cancer and for me YES was the answer.

With all the new everything now days, I would NOT let some dumb ass rogue cell get me, NOPE, NEVER!

Walter
 
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Animal Lover
Aug 24, 2024
925
Lol you're asking a forum of suicidal people this question :haha: I think the answer is gonna be obvious.
Surprised. Read the replies. Some would/did treat their cancer.
 
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locked*n*loaded

Archangel
Apr 15, 2022
9,598
Nope. Definitely no treatment. Have thought about exactly this many times. It would give me the impetus to leave even sooner before things really got bad. I'm hoping to avoid all the really bad things that come with aging. I need to be gone within the next couple years and that's what I'm working towards.
 
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Aug 24, 2024
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It just felt so stupid. When I was being checked in at the emergency room they were asking about DNR and I said definitely DNR... and the doctor was like, but what if its only briefly and we can bring you back with no loss of quality of life, since you're otherwise healthy except for your current problem... and I told him "quality of life" was a bad choice of words for me, because... honestly, if you're working on me and my heart stops, I would consider that an absolute win!

He basically ignored me... I was trying to say without saying how I would be fine dying, and absolutely DNR was my choice.

So I felt stupid the whole time there... hating being in pain, but also wanting to die.
I would definitely be a DNR to any procedure too !
 
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dust-in-the-wind

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Aug 24, 2024
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My depression likewise has me mostly bedridden. I haven't had a physical health check this year because I don't have the energy or concern. Also, a sudden, fatal heart attack would be okay with me.
I'm so sorry. It's a tortured living hell to be this depressed.
I have actually been thinking about this lately. Both parents had cancer. My Dad was caught early and he had treatments for 10 years, he was good for 8 of those then he started having some pain. The doctors were able to control it so it wasn't too bad. When the pain got to much he took the death with dignity route and died peacefully in my arms. My Mom wasn't diagnosed until it had spread and she was given 3 to 6 months to live. She chose to die naturally and I was able to keep her pain free. 3 months later she died sitting in her favorite chair with me holding her. It was also very peaceful.

I'm getting up in age and I don't think I'd seek treatment for it. My only family is an ex wife and her parents. Well I do have 2 cats and The Lunatic and they give me endless love, honestly they are what is keeping me going.
I'm so happy to hear your parents had relatively painless deaths. I hear so many horror stories and ir scares me.
 
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Kali_Yuga13

Warlock
Jul 11, 2024
745
It all depends. Some of the abdominal and organ cancers are terribly painful. For the late stages sometimes chemo is given as part of palliative care to mitigate the cancer symptoms and perhaps buy a few months without any expectation for remission and they give pain meds like oxys and fent patches which can be stockpiled..

I object to the parentification of the state and medical industrial complex to gain their "permission" to die so I'm averse to the death with dignity application process and cocktail. Going to Switzerland to be "allowed" to die on my own terms is also unacceptable to me. Though I understand most people aren't as ideologically inclined as me and those services are useful in the larger cause for the right-to-die.

As far as catching a cancer early where treatment may mean decades more life, that's a tough call right now.
and I told him "quality of life" was a bad choice of words for me, because... honestly, if you're working on me and my heart stops, I would consider that an absolute win!
Be careful what you say to them, doctors can make judgment calls with DNR's if they think your depressed and not of a sound mind.
 
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tercermundista

I really hate Argentina
Apr 23, 2024
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NO!
 
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