If you died today, how many people would truly mourn your death?

[epic]

I've recently had a failed attempt, so I have figured it out.

Immediate family. No real friends. Wife. Nobody in the wider community.

My two small sons are the ones keeping me here, and the ones who would miss me most. They are 4 and 6, gorgeous children. Pity that Dad is a basketcase.

I draw scenarios in my head about their happy ending. My wife mourns, then meets another guy. He's awesome. Nice house, car, boat. Coaches the sports team. Soon enough they call him dad. When people ask my sons about their real dad, they will be like "oh, my real dad died when I was 4, its OK, (new dad) is my dad, he's all I've ever known"

Kinda fucked up right? I've got DEEEEP depression and anxiety issues, and I've normalised these thoughts and others. I'm ready to go

You are not a basket case. You obviously love your children.A loving father is always a good father.

 

[tehdisturbedone]

I think the majority of us feel the world is out to get us; none. I think every living person I know and fate/destiny hate my guts. I'm a ugly human inside and out

 

[lucines]

Around 7 people maybe? Just imagining there being only seven people at my funeral makes me laugh, truly a sign of how unimportant, worthless and pathetic I am as a person.

 

[837]

No one. except the people who pretend to care for a week and forget you after. Makes my ctb faster

 

[LMLN]

My parents, my son. My small handful of friends. This makes me feel guilty for considering cbt. I dont ever want to hurt them.

 

[GreyMonkey]

Too many unfortunately. Makes it really difficult.

 

[metalchic_74]

Definitely my 2 daughters, my sister, my ex husband and a few other friends not many though

 

[Hotsackage]

My whole family would follow me. Mom would have a heart attack, dad would overdose, brother would hang himself, and my niece would prob find some way to do it. So you can see my dilemna

 

[Essence]

A handful would miss me, quite a few would find it gobsmacking and tragic, but they wouldn't shed any tears.

 

[Taki]

The same number of people who'd be upset if I died by natural causes.

 

[howard]

Sadly none
All my family are dead and I have no true friends anymore.

 

[AnnaJaspers]

My estranged brother would be gleeful while hating the "stigma" of his sister's suicide.

Only one friend, but he knows how much I have been wanting to exit this world so he would rightly feel, hopefully, a measure of relief and happiness for me.

 

[BridgeJumper]

4 people. My best friend, my dad, my grandma, and my other grandma.
The rest, theyll forget Im gone after like a week, and the staffin the psych ward I used to go to and my abusers woould probably throw a party

 

[RecycledAtoms]

My irrational self says only 3 people would care. If I'm to be honest, I'd have to say several people would be affected.

 

[TimeToBiteTheDust]

My family and some friends. I know they love me but I can't be here anymore.

 

[hobbydevil]

My parents, my sister, my grandparents... probably a couple of friends, though I'm pretty isolated from most of them these days... My therapist has also told me it would haunt her forever. Dunno how true that is, but strangely enough that makes me want to keep trying to stay alive as I don't want to disappoint her. But I don't think I can hold on much longer...

 

[throwaway123]

I honestly don't know. It might be a few persons or none. I can't tell. Everything's so fake nowadays.

 

[ReadyToMeetMyMaker]

My soon to be ex would probably be grateful. I know my family and two boys (2 and 5yrs old) would be devasted, however, I can't live in my misery any longer. My divorce and losing my business has gotten me to this point of not wanting to be here any longer.

 

[Lonely789]

My 3 beautiful boys. My mom. Others will just get over it sooner then later.

 

[jefferson]

About 2 dozen probably

 

[woxihuanni]

Nobody. Ss friends may be sad, that s it.

 

[Ratherbeskinny]

I honestly think there are quite a lot of people who would feel sad or like crap for a little while, but there are only two, maybe three people who I think actually could barely deal with it. One of them would eventually kill themselves, that's for sure. Knowing that is holding me back but at the same time it's a comforting feeling; knowing I won't be alone very long. Knowing this person truly loves me as much as they always said they did.

 

[LivingToLong]

"truly" mourn me? I don't know. It's a good question - because it's made me think. Maybe 2 or 3 would shed a tear I guess. A handful more might be shocked. I guess it depends on what you think 'truly' means. I think it's impossible to say really and, you know, I don't think I've ever really thought about that aspect of my ctb.

Maybe I'm just selfish (ok, yes, I am, I know I am) but I don't even really think about it - except for now that is, when asked the question. If and when I (metaphorically) pull the trigger, I don't think I'll even consider it's effect on others - with the exception of the person/people that'd find my corpse. I DO think about them because I don't want to upset them too much, but as for the people who might mourn me - no, I don't think about that much at all. I know some would think that wrong.

 

[a_strange_day]

None. I'm pretty sure a few people would actually feel relieved, and I can't blame them for that.

 

[MourningHeart]

My mother, she already lost my father due to heavy heartattacks and woke up beside his corpse in bed. Still mourning.

My sister, she was always depressed and is still likely suicidal.

My other sister but she is quite happy with her own family.

Since i isolated myself the whole life and never visited any of them, my death will fortunately not have a huge impact as i could have been a much better son/brother. They are family of course but in the end, noone truly likes me as im sh*t. Besides my wife maybe but she wont care anymore.

 

[WhiteDespair]

10-20 rough estimate.

 

[Élégie]

My parents... and maybe my grandma. The other people that cared about me are dead now anyway (my grandpa and 2 of my aunts). As for the rest of my extended family, I don't know. I'm not close with them anymore, so I don't think it would affect them that much.

 

[noctiva]

None.
People will pretend to grieve, but no one cared while I was alive and repeatedly asked for help, no one cared when they were explicitly told that I will kill myself. So anyone saying they didn't see it coming and pretending they are affected by my death will not be truthful.

 

[ihatemylife]

No one for real. Anyone who pretends to mourn my death is a phony. Anyone close to me know how miserable I am and had plenty of opportunities to help but didn't.

 

[whatevs]

I don't understand why people think this matters. You're dead, bro. Like, gone, y'know.