If you died a year ago, what would you have missed out on?

[alizee]

Wish I was dead 7 years ago.

 

[andy69]

Having my heart broke by the only man I ever loved.

 

[Oblivion Lover]

Not so much... The only big thing I'd have missed out was my first suicide attempt and survival and literally nothing else.

 

[Nihil]

Good
A very nice job near the top of a skyscraper.
A very sexy .44 Magnum revolver.
A nice used car.

Bad
Nasty relationship fallout that would cost me the majority of my possessions, and my sanity.
Developing severe PTSD, generalized anxiety disorder, and psychotic depression.
Watching my grandfather die from COPD and seeing his body be incinerated in a crematorium.
Crippling student debt.
Threat of homelessness for nearly a whole year, along with the worst poverty conditions I've ever been through.
Unemployment for 10-11 months.
Being treated like subhuman garbarge by relatives and others that know I'm trans because being female is worse than being a killer apparently.

 

[Lifetimepunishment]

stranger Things season 3 lol

 

[Painted Bird]

Bad things: suffering and bad decisions in general, obviously (not going into details right now).
Good thing: Starting to draw pictures few months ago.

 

[mathieu]

My grandpa dying, my mums dog dying, horrible anxiety.

 

[suffering]

Efforts, hard work, boredom, futility, etc.

 

[Suicidal4Ever]

Avengers Endgame

 

[Strumgewehr]

A girl that likess me for who I am.

 

[BaconCheeseburger]

Good things I'd have missed out on: watching my nephew grow up through his first year of life, travelling with my boyfriend to places to ease my travel anxiety, making new friends, visiting the cat cafe.

Bad things: moving from job to job and getting a lot of stress related illnesses as a result. Still living with my parents and being unhappy here. Feeling sad for no reason.

 

[KipLovesYou]

Many tears, heartache, drunken karaoke, hangovers, a job I hate, loneliness, more tears
I would have actually missed the sweet times with the kids though

 

[Kdawg2018]

Living, loving, heartbreak, suffering, new friends, beautiful days

 

[Echofox7]

Couple of movies, my life is extremely boring. Movies are the only things i look forward to after a good session at the gym.

 

[Loli]

GOOD: learning to play violin

The rest doesn't matter. My violin became my best friend and safe space. I fucking love it even though I'm a rookie.

 

[eewlife]

Maybe finding out my favorite band that i listen to them now nothing much

 

[LaBrava]

Couple of movies, my life is extremely boring. Movies are the only things i look forward to after a good session at the gym.

Just movies for me too. But I just can't concentrate on them lately, so haven't watched anything in months.

 

[Rollinggirl]

The agonising suffering

 

[namelessX8]

Sanctioned Suicide

 

[Kikoo Loool]

I wouldn't have met great people here.

 

[HGL91]

Oh, if I could go back in time and die a year ago, I so would. The emotional and psychological pain I felt from December until April was the worst I ever experienced and I want to die before I ever have to experience anything like that again.

Thinking about it, I'm not full-on crying, but tears are leaking from my eyes right now. :(

 

[kolski]

I don't want to sound dramatic, but, there's nothing good I would have missed. Life has been shitty for 6/7(??) years now. Especially this last year. I would have saved myself years of grieve if I had only ctb right back in 2015.

 

[Final Escape]

I can't think of much positive :( I haven't made any progress besides that I haven't been using adderall as much but I have slipped. I almost went right back down the rabbit hole again. This year is like a repeat of the last. It's hellish. My life is like Groundhog Day lol!

 

[SelfHatingAspie]

Positive? All the nope.

On the negative side, I would have missed out on losing my job and being admitted to a psych ward.

 

[Intelligent_Lobster]

Both good and bad

THe only good thing would have been adopting my cat.

Besides that? About 4,000 stolen from me, by family and friends

 

[Going Home]

I would have missed out on all the, "how could you not knows", "you're stupid for not knowing", being excluded from important meetings, invasions of privacy and other unknown injustices. Who'd want to miss that?

 

[oxymoron]

A year of suffering and depression

 

[Halo13]

I would've missed out on my diagnosis of an incurable disease and other serious problems. On one hand I felt validation to confirm that I was right, something had been quite wrong with me for years. On the other hand, I am livid I wasn't treated or believed by the doctors much sooner. A year ago, doctors wouldn't give me the time of day and now I am constantly overwhelmed with appointments for specialists.

I will ctb knowing I advocated for myself and proper medical treatment. So at least there's that.

 

[Xaphous]

Actually, literally nothing just more housebound isolation and joblessness like every other year. Every damn year I should have gone because there isn't opportunity for anything.

 

[iinner]

Absolutely nothing.