Mooseanonsky

Mooseanonsky

Member
Apr 13, 2018
52
Go back 11 years ago and go to college and get an English literature degree. Get better at writing. I dropped out of community college twice—I just wasn't interested in animation or cyber security. Adhd probably contributed to that, but I got diagnosed waay later in life with that.
 
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zxcvb

Member
Jul 5, 2020
63
Too many mistakes to be fair.
 
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Scorpio moon gal

Scorpio moon gal

Member
Apr 26, 2024
37
I would have begged to stay with my mother more. I am a girl and I needed my mother in my life, but instead, I agreed to stay with Dad 😞it is eating me up inside every single day...now that she's gone, I feel so bad when I remember her crying and asking me why I didn't stay with her...it really hurts, I wished I had stayed with her, to the end of her life 😞💔
 
yeaimhere13

yeaimhere13

why me?
Sep 14, 2023
41
hmmm id say i wish i could go back to my childhood and surround myself with different individuals. i was best friends with this girl that lived in my neighborhood at the time and she basically exposed me to porn at the ripe age of nine. since then, ive struggled with OCD involving extreme sexual intrusive thoughts. its completely ruined my life and mental well-being and is also one of the reasons i have this account.
 
Proxar

Proxar

Member
Nov 21, 2024
23
i would go back to those years where my dad treat me like trash for not knowing how to do the school chores or having bad grades and just focus on school. That was the start of my end. I would stop myself for beeing on the internet all day and just do something with my life. I now have this fucking pain issues when im fucking sitting, i cant even do internet without feeling like shit, i cant even shit properly becouse i dont know what happend to my body, this is driving me insane.
 
MatrixPrisoner

MatrixPrisoner

Enlightened
Jul 8, 2023
1,618
Not CTBing sooner
 
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saturn1402

Member
Sep 13, 2024
25
I would either start my previous relationship differently or choose to not meet him at all. Up until now I don't know if he was so cruel all because of me or because he is indeed a liar and cheater by nature. I wonder if I was softer, kinder, more loving he would have not done what he did. I guess I'll never know tho 😞
 
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Dot

Info abt typng styl on prfle.
Sep 26, 2021
2,941
Slf wld tll famly abt an SA bcse thy wld hve backd slf up bt tbf slf ws 8 y/o & hd alrdy bn shoutd dwn b/ th/ attackrs mothr & forcd 2 apolgse fr 'lyng' s/ slf burid th/ whle xpernce aftr tht & thre ws lts of drma happng @ hme whch slf dd nt wn2 add 2

Bt am cnvincd mny of slf currnt lfe issus wld nt xist if attackr mothr hd nt givn tht reactn aftr sh/ hrd abt th/ attck


Othrwse slf wsh tht hd nt bcome as crried awy in Chrch bcse slf tramtisd slf evn mre whn tryng 2 'frce' healng whch cre8td a furthr tme-lne of issus

= dffclt 2 sy tht slf regrt certn choics whn mst of thm wre mde whn slf ws backd in2 eithr physcl or metphorcl/emotnl cornrs
 
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astr4

astr4

memento mori
Mar 27, 2019
509
would have idk. probably the biggest one was dating someone in first year university. when i got dumped i tried to kill myself, took a year off from school, but felt like too much of a failure to ever really succeed again. (it was a small program so everyone knew everyone, all the first years that started in the year i took off knew each other, and i was just a random new person that suddenly appeared, all my old peers were suddenly in different classes than me. i just never recovered from that i think. my self esteem has been chronically low all my life, but i think if i at least got a degree i could be doing a meaningful job and maybe wouldn't feel so… idk. so awful about myself. like maybe the external validation is something i actually really need in order to function… so yeah if i never dated that guy i would have finished my degree probably. maybe i would have done a teaching degree after that or something idk.
 
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yariousvamp

yariousvamp

Misanthrope vampire
Sep 8, 2024
62
Can I possibly prevent my own birth?
 
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Praestat_Mori

Mori praestat, quam haec pati!
May 21, 2023
11,427
There's not that one mistake that ruined my life. It's a sequence of too many small mistakes that ultimately led to the situation I'm in now.
 
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Лена

Member
Apr 18, 2024
32
Going to the cosmetologist who disfigured me
 
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danfritz

Member
Nov 24, 2024
27
Don't marry or date. You have serious emotional problems and are not suited for a relationship.
 
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hereornot

Student
May 16, 2024
100
I would have abandoned my mother and brother while there was still time
 
OptingOutSmiling

OptingOutSmiling

Member
Nov 25, 2024
39
Not realising sooner, the depth of what love can be. And that someone could actually love me back. I made the mistake of not allowing that person inside the walls which I built around me. I don't know why I had these walls and did not even realise I had them. Until it was too late, and the person decided to leave me. I experienced for the first time the most intense feelings of loss I never imagined even possible. My world ended, because I was too late in accepting and receiving love. I would go back and never allow anything to happen to make us lose each other. The ripple effects of this wrongness are just unbearable.
 
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Sutter

Sutter

Student
Oct 21, 2024
146
The whole lot.

Snatching my cursed pipe and not giving a dam for the fashion of the time but well shaved, I'd head back to my 16 year old self and begin to fix the whole lot, hard to argue with a future self. I would save lives, love sooner, be clear about what is of value, and say it is never wrote in stone until you write it.

Let him know as well some curses were meant to be born and when next he meets the cursed pipe he should pick it up. Need a cursed pipe to fix the whole lot.
Not realising sooner, the depth of what love can be. And that someone could actually love me back. I made the mistake of not allowing that person inside the walls which I built around me. I don't know why I had these walls and did not even realise I had them. Until it was too late, and the person decided to leave me. I experienced for the first time the most intense feelings of loss I never imagined even possible. My world ended, because I was too late in accepting and receiving love. I would go back and never allow anything to happen to make us lose each other. The ripple effects of this wrongness are just unbearable.
I should have read your post first. Sometimes no further words do justice and I found mine like confetti next to the hard currency you put down. Thank you.
 
OptingOutSmiling

OptingOutSmiling

Member
Nov 25, 2024
39
The whole lot.

Snatching my cursed pipe and not giving a dam for the fashion of the time but well shaved, I'd head back to my 16 year old self and begin to fix the whole lot, hard to argue with a future self. I would save lives, love sooner, be clear about what is of value, and say it is never wrote in stone until you write it.

Let him know as well some curses were meant to be born and when next he meets the cursed pipe he should pick it up. Need a cursed pipe to fix the whole lot.

I should have read your post first. Sometimes no further words do justice and I found mine like confetti next to the hard currency you put down. Thank you.
Thank you. And never underestimate your words, or anything for that matter. I sincerely appreciate your kindness, more than you will ever know 💛
 
merc5361

merc5361

Member
Aug 8, 2024
25
Leaving my job in a country I love to do my masters somewhere else. Biggest mistake of my life. I don't think I'll ever have the opportunity to go back to that country because of my passport.

I might even fail my masters, waste 2 years and all my life savings. I'm 25, and it's looking like the end honestly.
 
OptingOutSmiling

OptingOutSmiling

Member
Nov 25, 2024
39
Leaving my job in a country I love to do my masters somewhere else. Biggest mistake of my life. I don't think I'll ever have the opportunity to go back to that country because of my passport.

I might even fail my masters, waste 2 years and all my life savings. I'm 25, and it's looking like the end honestly.
You are so young, and I'm sorry about where you are now. I know the way out of your current situation seems impossible, but I hope that the near future may reveal something for you and open a door, even if on a different path. All the best.
 
EvisceratedJester

EvisceratedJester

|| What Else Could I Be But a Jester ||
Oct 21, 2023
3,579
I'd go back in time and hand my parents these things: 1732726208737
1732726258995
 
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calebzz1

Member
Jan 6, 2024
67
I would have never gotten my LASIK surgery done.

I'm now facing disability, hopefully not forever due to developing severe eye misalignment issues from it.
 
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howunfortunateforme

Experienced
Oct 2, 2024
256
Taking that first psych med
I would have never gotten my LASIK surgery done.

I'm now facing disability, hopefully not forever due to developing severe eye misalignment issues from it.
Can fix with strabismus surgery
 
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kitkat9234

Member
Nov 27, 2024
60
I wish I had never done drugs/alcohol/cigarettes. Would have prevented a whole bunch of my fucked up decisions. Just say no kids.
 
TheHolySword

TheHolySword

empty heart
Nov 22, 2024
241
Recently, I wish I could undo the sabotage I have done this year. I destroyed everything. My love life, my best friend, anything worth living for that isn't family is gone. And some days I wish I could take it all back. I want to call her on my drive home from work and tell her all about my day and settle in to watch a movie and fall asleep with her again. But I know what I did was for the best because I could not bare to leave her in the pain of a suicide.

I think maybe though that I would stop myself from going online the way that I did. I became consumed with the internet from too young an age. It fucked my development and social life and it just gave me traumas and bad experiences. All the years I spent online and now I'm all alone waiting to die alone.
 
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Tig

Tig

Member
Oct 17, 2024
40
My wife dying, without me being at her side.
Been all I thought about for a decade now.
 

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