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shampoo sniffer

shampoo sniffer

Terminal
Aug 10, 2025
285
I dunno, maybe. For myself, I would get decent health care (i.e private). I would choose somewhere really nice to live, in the countryside where's nice and quiet which would help with my anxiety.

And having lots of money would mean that I could afford to go into a nice, non abusive care home when I get old (as opposed to the state owned ones which tend to be run by people who don't care). Peace of mind in a wonderful thing.

I grew up in poverty and I attach a lot of value to money. My dad never learned how to manage money properly and was always spending it on frivolous things when he should have been investing in his family's future.
 
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darksouls

darksouls

Illuminated
May 10, 2025
3,383
no money in the world can make me healthy
my time is up
 
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LetMeOut67

LetMeOut67

Mage
May 7, 2025
569
Probably
I'd move to somewhere with much better weather than northern England
 
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livefastdieyoung

livefastdieyoung

Member
Aug 5, 2025
82
I think money would make me stick around for a lot longer, but in the end I'd go back to feeling this way.
 
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kopebaldy

Dovahkiin
Jul 5, 2025
420
The feelings won't change, but it's nicer to cry in a Ferrari I guess.
 
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badatparties

badatparties

Elementalist
Mar 16, 2025
814
The feelings won't change, but it's nicer to cry in a Ferrari I guess.
This. Kurt Cobain, Anthony Bourdain, Chester Bennington etc. For some people, there are just things that money can't fix.
 
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JayJay84

Member
Aug 17, 2025
12
NO, nothing would change for me, because my problem is not about money
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
15,359
It would certainly make things easier for a while. I'd like to just fully relax and shed my responsibilities to financially support myself. I'd probably still prefer to die than see old age/ illness though.
 
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Forveleth

I knew I forgot to do something when I was 15...
Mar 26, 2024
4,013
It would change where and possibly how I kill myself but not that I would. I want to be done living, money has nothing to do with that.
 
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pthnrdnojvsc

pthnrdnojvsc

Extreme Pain is much worse than people know
Aug 12, 2019
4,344
A lot of Money would make it a billion times easier to kill myself. my suicide asap is my top goal and getting a lot of money won't change my goals but would make it easier to execute because you can buy things like guns, poisons etc. . I wouldnt have to work so i could spend more time on getting my suicide plan ready to go. For example i could buy or rent an isolated cabin for a long time. isolation would help me achieve suicide because other humans would be less able to interrupt me.
That's what I would use extra money for killing myself asap

i don't care about anything else in this evil world or evil life except me suiciding asap. i would buy only things that could move me closer to suicide

plus also i could be "enjoying" some bs with the money and get a stroke so then i wouldn't be able to kill myself with brain damage and i would lose all the money and get it stolen end up on the streets cause of brain damage suffering torture on the streets with no means and much less ability to kill myself .
 
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chakravyuh

Member
Aug 1, 2025
36
If this happens for me though it would temporarily solve my problem but people who are out there to hurt me and destroy me would not be content. Only with my death they would gain peace.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
48,185
No, I don't wish for that rather all I want is to not exist, I just hope to never suffer in this torturous, cruel and deeply undesirable existence ever again, I'd never wish for the dreadful burden of existence that just causes harm and suffering.

I see existence as a mistake and for me non-existence is all that's positive, only non-existence can bring me the peace I search for from this existence that was so tragically imposed in the first place and I suffer simply from existing.
 
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Unicron

Unicron

Member
Oct 28, 2021
92
Nothing would change for me. The only thing I crave is N.
 
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Eternal Disaster

Eternal Disaster

IHaveDemonsInMyHead
Aug 3, 2025
113
It will change nothing for me. I am getting more miserable with each passing day.
 
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deep-sleeper

deep-sleeper

Member
Aug 16, 2025
94
If that money allowed to completely disappear and start a new life with a new identity I think I would change for the better
 
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bloominghopelessne

bloominghopelessne

Member
Aug 9, 2025
27
Then I definitely set aside money for funeral services and for gifts to those around me.
 
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Praestat_Mori

Mori praestat, quam haec pati!
May 21, 2023
13,369
I would get back a life!
 
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kcon1243

kcon1243

Student
Apr 7, 2024
117
I would take that money, find a way to get my hands on nembutal and dip. It would absolutely help expedite my departure.
 
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Dejected 55

Dejected 55

Visionary
May 7, 2025
2,644
It would improve my financial situation and relieve those burdens. I could maybe help some other people as well. But I would still be miserable the rest of my life, whether that was a short time or longer because of the lack of incentive to do it before I lose my house.
 
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usernamesarehard

usernamesarehard

Life sucks and then you die
Dec 22, 2021
308
I'm not sure. Maybe, maybe not. Probably not though.

I could leave the city I'm in and move to a nice area relatively close to here so I could keep my job. I could get a dog, which would help with the loneliness. But right now I'm pretty depressed that I can't get a partner and I think these feelings would come back eventually.

There's only so much money can do to help with loneliness.
 
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Dusk till dawn

Dusk till dawn

Experienced
Sep 7, 2018
283
It'll just delay the inevitable, infinite wealth is not going to fix social isolation/loneliness and bad social skills, however it'll delay the inevitable and improve my life
 
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ManchildLoser

Member
Jan 16, 2023
83
No amount of money can fix you when you have never been loved.
 
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tooBadTooLate

tooBadTooLate

Member
Aug 16, 2025
99
Yeah, I think it would. My financial problems seem to be making my ideation worse at times, not to mention that it'd be easier to get away from my problems that way... well, other than being lonely, I suppose. But perhaps I might get be able to solve that if I get into a better state after that?

Maybe something like the ending to Trainspotting, after the drug deal and Renton runs off with the money, but for me it's only fantasy, isn't it?
 
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PI3.14

PI3.14

what is chaos to the fly is normal to the spider
Oct 4, 2024
554
If we are talking multimillionaire rich, then yes, it would change a lot but not everything.
 
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ElTopo

ElTopo

Don't listen to me, I am drunk
Mar 30, 2025
259
No, I crave human connection, experiences and sincerity, no amount of money will give me that.
It would surely improve my life though, I'd pay the mortgage and stop working, lol.
 
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TAW122

TAW122

Emissary of the right to die.
Aug 30, 2018
7,511
Not much if it doesn't help get to my goals or make sentience any better; while I may cope better, ultimately I still go for CTB on my own terms.
 
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rainatthebusstop

rainatthebusstop

feel free to kill me
Aug 20, 2025
214
I'd use it to get myself a nicer method to ctb than what I have available now. Maybe get my hands on some N or something like that. And then leave the money in my will for my beloved ones in my will.
 
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WrathfulGloom32

WrathfulGloom32

đź« 
Oct 12, 2024
1,178
No. Actually, what are the chances of buying my own team of mercs that are loyal and want to kill other rich people with me? Hmm, maybe it would actually change something. It would not change my decision but I could cleanse the world of a few pieces of shit with a big enough amount of money. It would be fun.
 
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outrider567

Visionary
Apr 5, 2022
2,978
No, definitely not
 
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Not Today Satan

Not Today Satan

I’ll survive even if it kills me
May 9, 2024
911
I'm not rich but I've been financially comfortable for years. Having money did solve some of my problems but at the end of the day I still have treatment resistant mental illnesses.
 
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